Oh my Jesus it's been a while. It took me a day to find where the "write blog" button went! Ha! Anyway, since my last dramatic post about my life things have gotten better, more or less. I'll start with the less stressful to the most, Ready?!

1: Remember when I was talking about the vomiting thing and how I went to the doctors and stuff? Well some weird stuff is happening. I've been taking the Zantac 150 which stops regurgitation. It's been helping beautifully! I've only vomited once since I started taking them. But the "weird" part about it is that's it's making me not want to eat. I mean I'm getting hungry but it's sort of like a lazy feeling. "Yeah, maybe later." So since Friday I've lost six pounds, which puts my 210 to a 204. That's not bad! But I'm loosing it fast. And I work out at night before bed so it's like putting insult on injury. I'm very tired during the day, sleeping through classes, my legs are killing me and I'm getting moody. And not just that but I had those stool tests to do and I only did 4, barely. I don't want to get into it but it's like a cycle. I don't eat because I'm taking the pills to stop the vomit but my not eating is causing me not to have to use the restroom so my stool tests aren't done and they can't see what's wrong with me. And my appointment is tomorrow! Why? Truly I'm not too worried about it. Just something that'll come and go I'm sure.

2: Our Regents are coming in around June. I know that's a whole month but it's going to happen fast. And my science teacher is pregnant and she's leaving in 19 days to get ready to have the baby. So we're gonna get a brand new teacher to review with us right before the Regents. Damn pregnant teacher! :D No, I'm happy for her she's actually a nice lady but she can be very strict sometimes. It's just that my classmates think she hands out packet after packet to punish us. But really it's just the same questions asked differently. I'm getting a 85% so I have high hopes about passing the Regents.

3: THE BIG THREE! This is what is worrying me the most! Next Friday is NYSSMA. And for those of you who don't live in New York (all of you) that is the New York State School Music Association. This is where students perform and are judged on their singing, instrument playing, anything musical. Since the only thing I'm good at besides cooking is singing that's what I'm doing. I didn't do it last year because I was new so I wanna try. Plus this is the key that will get me into Concert Choir. That's a group of "elite" singers in our school that are so full of themselves that there is no room for anything else. There are a few nice people who deserve to be in there but the rest can all kiss my ass. Now like the cocky idiot I am I decided to try out for All-State. I very very elite group of singers around New York and the island. Now I know I'm not good enough for All-State yet but maybe if Mr. Graf (a pathetic excuse for a music teacher) saw that I tried out for All-State and did well, like a 90 something, he'd see I would be good enough. I tried out last year and got my heart broken when I didn't make it. I even cried at the Pep Rally when they sang. Though one of my closest friends is in there he deserves it! He can sing Soprano! But a lot of those kids have parents that donate a lot to the school and will go ape shit if their little Amy doesn't get a spot. So she goes every other day! What's the point? I rather get accepted because I know I have talent, not because my mom can bitch someone out over the phone! So infuriating. But it's just the Site Reading that I'm worried about. I can't keep pitch because I'm too worried about what note comes next. It's usually really simple but I'm doing such a high level it's nerve racking. There's so many conjoined notes and the time signature is like, 6/6! So fast! My teacher says they're not really concerned about if you get the note right just that you sing the right pitch. It's being held at my school and 4,000 kids will be there! Ack! Anyway it's just all this stress and it's making my body shut down. I don't want to be sick the day of my solo. Oui Vei! 

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