There are a few thing I'd like to "discuss" or "freely rant about".

First: What the Hell are you supposed to do when you get so easily discouraged? Someone I don't even know could say, "Gayle, you're never gonna-" and I'll start screaming and crying, "NO DON'T SAY IT PLEASE!!!". Let's recap on how old I am again. 15 15 15 15 15 15 15 15 15 15, in your head now? I have this small, nice plan to teach ESL in South Korea(pretty specific for small and nice). But that is really what I want to do....I think. I know I have so much to work out and I still have to go to college and all that fun and necessary stuff....but what if I never make it. My phone interview goes bad and I don't get recruited or I get fired and my VISA is cancelled or or or or or or anything! It's mainly about South Korea than anything else. Don't get me wrong, I really want to teach English. Because I'm always struggling with other languages and I want to be there to help kids like me so they don't have to struggle like I am. But, I've become so widely interested with the Korean culture. Their language and culture and their music! Now you might shake your head and say, "What a little girl" but if you felt what I felt in my head when I heard Super Junior or Epik High or Big Bang sing or when I watch their shows and laugh so hard then you'd understand. Everyone is different. I mean there can't be just a few American born teachers out there. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Sorry, that was necessary. Well, done with that.

Second:My body is breaking apart. So many things going wrong at once. First thing that happens is that I'm randomly throwing up out of nowhere. No warning or anything. Just a acidic vomit...and of course I have to swallow it. Otherwise I would vomit in my school hallway ever damn day. So we went to the doctors yesterday and this guy was very nice, kinda had a stuttering problem but hey, who doesn't? I told him my symptom's and I kind of felt like a hypochondriac. I know I don't have Acid Reflex Disease because I have no heart burn and I know it's not a stomach virus. So we did all the usual stuff. Pointed a blinding light into my already blind eyes, did the weird heartbeat thing. What was kinda embarrassing and funny at the same time was that he had to feel my stomach and stuff and since I have stretch marks there and I'm ticklish I was half laughing and half crying! All in all not bad but now I have to do a stool test six times!!! God I hate it so much. I'm being mature though because I know that most of what's wrong with you is in your fecal matter but AHHHHH! Once again that was necessary. So I've done two so far....ew. But I have to be sure it's not serious or I could get nasty stuff like Esophagal Cancer. =[  

Thirdly:Now, I have allergies. My whole life it was just dust that caused a tiny coughing issue. I don't know if any of you read my last blog: Her Confirmation, but there I stated that I was reacting strangely to my friends rabbit, well I'm allergic. So strange because I used to have a rabbit! But now I start wheezing and coughing and just plain not being able to breath. So now a I have to wear a mask when I go to her house:

Not just that but the people who live there never clean and they never open the windows so it's really stuffy. If they let me, I would so go to town on that house. Love to clean!