In my life I have always been surounded by the love of those around me. As far as I can remember, I have always treasured this feeling i received from everyone. Love is truly a beautiful thing however it can also the the death of us. Depressing yet fasinating isn't it... For the last couple of years I have been hopelessly in love with one of my childhood friends. He knows me better than anyone (even more than my two beloved brothers). He knows so much about me that it is almost embarassing. However like many of the guys I have come across in my life he is oblivious to my feelings. T-T

Any natural person would wonder "Why haven't I giving up on him yet?" but its not that easy. You see he has saved my life countless times. (i am prone to getting into dangerous situations -_-') And he is usually always their to bail me out of the mess i get myself into. However, their has been MANY times I have come to his resuce in the past. You see he is an incredible good look guy. He is one of those guys that when you see him you think for a second he isn't real. -_- Odd i know but its true, so with his good looks he lgets bombarded by women... hell it would be a shocker the day he is NOT chased by at least one woman.

However because we are so close and to the fact that we spend the better part of the day together many people believe we are a couple...  as much as I would love that idea to come true, I doubt it will ever happen. Why? Because he is engaged to be married to a girl that he has NEVER seen before!!! You would think that arranged marriages don't happen in this time... but low and behold it is true. He won't tell me if he has ever talked to her before on the phone or anything but I know for a fact that he has never met her because his "beloved" father announced her comming in a few days. His face to the news was shock striken, not to mention our faces. Of course he not wanting us to worry about him refused to tell us of his engagement which hurt me very much. But what delt the killing blow was the fact that he was absolutly alright with everything.

You see I have six friends that I grew up with and all seven of us are born to fairly wealthy families which means that our familes have A LOT to say about the people we have relationships with (assholes... i know). So for us arranged or political marriages are quite common (sad isn't?) but i suppose thats life. -_-

Vincent, the guy I have been hoplessly in love with for so long suddenly seems so far from me. I guess it's finally time for me to move on and let him go. Their was a point in my life that I was content with just knowing he was somewhere near me (The very thought of him made me happy) and now, knowing that he so easily took the hand of a stranger over the person that knows what he likes to eat for breakfast, what shampoo he uses, what cheers him up when he is down in the dumps, and so much more.

Love is truly a powerful force, it can destroy us yet at the same time it can make us invincible...