Sometime it is really wonderful to lie in the dark with just music playing in your ears. You let it wash over you like waves. Immersed in music, what a warm feeling. It’s funny how some sounds can inspire such aching or giddiness. I wonder if that is something we’re born with or whether it’s due to the patterns, rationel and habits we’ve developed. Well I guess that question applies to a lot of things.

Anyhow, I’ve been wondering what it’s like to be an actor. A lier but glamorized. No, that sounds bad, I guess it’s more. It’s feeling the painful emotions of someone else mostly… if you can emphathize. But it seems so interesting to be able to bring up thoughts and feelings on command and affect others. And to be someone else for a change… that’s quite nice. I want to let go of myself sometimes… although that also sounds dangerous. What if you lose yourself or is it that you never really lose yourself because you just transfer your own persona onto the people you pretend to be? It would be cool to try. I would be awesome to learn dance… there’s so much I haven’t done :( definitely trapezing this summer. I really really want to. SO Excited!