I don't really know if this topic belongs in here, but if it's wrong, someone please move it

So what's been happening is...
I got into a really good school, plus a few scholarships, so I'm basically going on a full ride right now. I love my school, but I feel so lonely and angry and depressed... I don't really know how to explain it.

All I think of is high school.

I mean, I was never bullied or teased or anything... but I was just basically a loser.
I had friends... but they only lasted a year, and they would move on. Or I was just "classroom" friends with them and only talked to them in class, we never hung out outside of school.

My roommate went to my high school, and she was kind of popular, I guess.
She always talks about all the fun times she had, and she always talks about "her girls" and calls them and hangs out with them. Which is NORMAL.
I have no one to call, no one to talk to, no pictures or fantastic memories.

And I just keep thinking about my prom, since it's prom season for the seniors now.... I had to go to prom with these girls that I hated, that EVERYONE in the whole school hated, because I didn't have anyone else to go with.. and out of those girls, who everyone thought were annoying as hell, I was the only without a date.

I never had a boyfriend... I never had a lot of close girl friends.
I don't have a lot of pictures from high school.


My mom always asks me why I stay home on the weekends.. and I just tell her that I like being at home with my family, when it's actually because I don't have any friends to go out with.

I mean, nothing specifically BAD happened to me, like people bullied me. Everyone was nice to me, I guess, but I was just never that close with anyone, and I never kept in touch with anyone.


Everytime I look at other people's pictures... I just feel like, this pain in my chest, cause I know that I have never had friends like that, and I don't have any memories of good teenage times. I just remember staying at home.
I feel like crying. I mean, even at college... I don't have a lot of friends. I don't know what's wrong with me.


I just can't get over high school. It's not that I was a loser. It was that I was something even worse- I was just nobody, nothing. I can't start over, even though I know other people who have experience MUCh worse have been able to move on.
What should I do? Sometimes, I am really tempted to just do something really crazy so people will remember me for that, instead of just being... forgotten, I guess?

(I'm sorry if this all sounds really dramatic and stuff, but I'm depressed, I think. I mean, I know I am.. but I don't really have anywhere to vent. )

College is a clean slate. Stop wallowing in self pity and get out there.

I had no one when I went to college. No 'girls' or high school friends to chill with and feel comfortable on campus because I moved to California during my senior year of high school so I knew very few people.

One year later I've met the most amazing people in college and am creating life long friendships.

You were a loser in high school. Okay, you've established it. That's your past, that's your history. Now if you don't want to keep being a loser then you need to stop reflecting on the past and move towards the future.

Who you are is who you strive to be. So if you don't want to be a nobody then make yourself somebody.

When you wake up, stare in the mirror and smile. Smile at yourself. Learn to love yourself before expecting others to love you.

Edit -
I realize I may sound way harsh. But I was extremely lonely all through my younger years like you. And it wasn't until late high school/college that I began to realize that the only thing holding me back was myself.

You should be more outgoing!
College is a time to make lifelong friends and to make important memories--don't mess this chance up.
And since you sound like a freshman in college you should try and make friends now...since
everyone sets their official cliques before sophomore year of college.
don't be stuck in the past.
you're not a loser at your college, and only you have the power to change your own life.
so go out and make friends

well, Are you a shy person? Are you the kind of person that people need to talk to first to have an actual conversation??
if so then there may lie the problem. College is beautiful and to make it a great experience, yes you need friends.
During college you will find yourself and right now you are asking yourself....why am i still a loser?
You might need to open up a bit more and let people see the real you. I don't know how you are but there are
lots and lots of people in college. Easy way to make friends would be those at your classes and every semester changes
but you will know who are your friends when they still keep in touch. And there is nothing wrong with having acquaintances.
It only takes a few friends to have to start talking to others because they will introduce to their friends too.... I hope
I helped...

Instead of thinking about not having friends in high school, make some new friends in University. There are so many clubs to join and so many more people to meet. Sounds to me like you're too hung up on the past. Seriously, there is no shortage of people to meet in University. Get out there and have some fun!

Hey, I can sorta understand. Like I never had really good friends back in high school. Sure I had a lot of acquaintances, but I was never really close to them. You talked about Prom, and heh.. I didn't even go to prom since I didn't find someone I was interested in at that time. I don't regret it though. I'm in college now, and I don't have any friends to call up or anything either. I don't take it too hard on myself, but I do think that if I got closer with my high school buddies, things would be more "alive" in a sense. But right now, I've come to realize that friend's aren't going to be there for me in the long run. Everyone will be busy trying to be successful in their own life. High school was chill forsure, but this is just a beginning. We're not kid's anymore. Lucky for you you're dorming while I'm commuting to a community college. It's harder than ever to make friend's right now. But hey, keep your head up alright? Think of this as a new beginning.

Well, college is much better than high school, I admit.
It's just that... I hate that I have no good memories from high school. While everyone is talking about how in high school, they went to Miami for Spring break, and remember that time we got drunk at Matt's house?, and I went out with this guy or that guy... I have absolutely nothing to talk about. I don't have any friends.

I know I'm going to get responses like- GET OVER IT... but some people aren't going to understand what it's really like. It's not that easy to just say, f*ck it, I'm going to start over and have a million friends from now on..

Idk. I'm not pitying myself. I'm just in depression. I have been for a LONG time.

aww its okay. but get over it. look past that and start meeting new people. mend your friendships that you've had with people in the past. maybe you just need to find people that will relate to you or that you'll get along with, be open to and trust.

Not trying to give you a hard time, but I really think that you ARE feeling sorry for yourself. There are people who had a considerably worse 4 years of high school (I have a couple friends who lost siblings, one whose gf committed suicide, one whose dad died and who dropped out of high school because of it), and I rarely hear them complaining about how awful that period of their life was the way you are. You honestly have a choice: either having realized that period sucked, suck it up and devote your time from this point onward to making life better, or continue letting it get you down.

Friends are for the present, the future. The whole point of having a friend is to create memories with them. So what if you have no memories of high school? Now you can meet people and make memories in college.

No. It's not easy. But that's life. Life's not easy. I'm not going to claim that you can just turn around and be happy starting from here on out. But take one step at a time and you can do it. =)

A lot of my close friends now I met only a year ago, when I started college. I had no history with them, no high school memories but we are hella close. We've gone out and did what we could to make memories together that we can reflect on later on in the future. Cheer up. College is only at the beginning of your life. You have plenty of time to make all the memories you need.

Honestly, this may sound harsh, but the majority of the people who goto school is to LEARN, not to make friends or make themselves stand out. And there are no such thing as popular kids, just people who are more louder and wilder. And because people like you who are less energetic notice them which is why it makes you feel like they are popular. Only you and some other people would be concerned about their popularity status at school. For all I know, the "popular kids" that went to my school became crackheads when they came out now. The people who studied hard are rich and famous now. Really, in the real world when you get out of college, being on the front cover of a famous magazine, being on national television, starring in several movies, discovering something new and become well-known for it is the true meaning about being popular. Trust me, if you focus on your studies now and get good grades, you'll be a lot more respected and well known i when you're in the working field.

I respectfully disagree.

Education is important, mind you, but having a social life and enough self confidence to meet people is as well. If all you do throughout college is study study study and make no effort to maintain friendships/relationships then you will get no where in life. Sure, you may be well respected and well known in the future but ultimately you'll feel lonely.

Life is about balance. You need to learn how to balance school, a social life, having fun etc. That's what college is about. You start to learn how to balance those things out. So yes, education should be #1 but that doesn't mean you can't work to have a decent social life either.

Your social skills get you pretty far in life. Networking is the primary way to land good jobs nowadays so one needs to know how make friends and interact with people. Sure, your skills are what will keep you the job and earn you the respect but you need social skills to get your foot through that door. And that isn't something you can learn simply by focusing purely on your studies and get good grades.

I don't see why she couldn't focus on school AND still work on making friends.

i'm worse than you, im in highschool now, and my prom?...im going to have to sit by myself in one lonely corner with strangers cus i don't have friends

Well I never said I was that smart lol. I'm just average, I guess... and I DO have social skills.. I'm just feeling pretty sh*tty these days about high school in particular.
Yeah I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself... but I don't see why that has to be SUCH a bad thing. People are allowed to feel sh*tty sometimes, aren't they?

And for the person who says they never heard of people worse off than me complaining so much.... Well, I don't complain to anyone in real life either. No one knows any of my problems or issues or feelings, cause as far as anyone else is concerned- I'm a LISTENER not a TALKER. I don't tell anyone anything in real life.
It's because it's Soompi and I'm anonymous that I'm b*tching so much.

Ahaha well that's not what I meant. It doesn't matter how 'smart' you are. =) I was just trying to point out to angel that it isn't about picking one or the other (education or social life). Ultimately you need both later on in the future. The key is balance!

Wow, aren't you generalizing a little too much??

School isn't just about learning from the textbook. Infact, it's a place you go to in order to make friends and have fun. At school, you're given the chance to meet new people, develop socializing skills, and establish relationships. It's also at school where you spend the majority of your youth making mistakes and learning from them. It's teaching you how to grow and mature through your experiences there. It's living your life. Life doesn't begin after you graduate... you're living it right now. This may sound cheesy, but you have to make the best out of life from the moment you were born. You can't keep on waiting for it to "begin", because it has already started.

And so what if you study all the time?? How will you know how to socialize with people? What happens when you get into the real world? How will you be able to land a job or make a good impression without knowing how to present yourself? Numbers don't mean everything in the real world... it's all about whether you can do a job or not.

Oh, and just because someone is "popular" doesn't mean they'll end up doing drugs and going no where in life. It also doesn't mean that the people who study all the time will become rich, successful, and famous. That is a really ignorant way of seeing things.

Anyway, I agree with AngieK. Life is all about balance. You need to know how to balance your grades, social life, etc. in order to be successful and live happily.

Phew.

As for the topic starter, you really do need to get over it. So what if highschool was not all that you wanted it to be? You're in college now. Make new memories. Since you're so hung up about highschool, shouldn't you be trying your hardest right now to avoid making the same mistakes again?? Don't dwell on the past, because time waits for no one. Before you know it, college will be over and you'll be dwelling over that too.

If you're a freshman, then in a way, it's understandable to feel that way. When I was a freshman, all I ever thought about was high school because I was so lonely but things have changed since then. College is, as someone stated earlier, a clean slate. These are the 'years' and it's up to you to make your college life count. High school is high school. That is the past. Now is the present and it's your job to work for it in the future. Cheer up, put a smile on your face and stop wallowing yourself in self-pity (:

Well, don't let it happen in college
you have a roommate who has a lot of girl friends right? Doesn't she ever ask you "hey why don't you come out with us for once"

If she doesn't, then just talk to other people who might be in your shoes who seem quiet. I know its intimidating to talk to big groups when you're all alone, so talk 1 on 1 until you establish your own group.

Also, you could tell her that you never really had that kind of experience the next time she talks about all of her highschool times. Then she should get the hint and take you out. Hell, I know I would for guys I know.

I know exactly what you mean!!

This loneliness!

I didn't have any friends either in HS. When I did make friends in my last year, they were mean and really superficial ppl!

Now I'm in College, I've slowly made a few more friends but still I don't have many friends.

Right now I have a horrible roommate who I try to avoid and I'm always feeling lonely since he's always talking to his high friends on the phone none stop really loudly, makes me feel even more alone (I'm interning in a new city right now and I basically know no one...)

All I can say is try your best to talk to people whenever you can to improve your conversational skills
Also try to focus on school so you can forget about your loneliness

it's hard I'm still trying to figure it out

high school stinks. college will be so much better, and stop sweating about the tiny stuff in life. High school is done and over with, move on.

i'm a loser at my high school, but you know what!? it doesn't matter & you can't go back now.
so start where you are and be more outgoing, if you can't... one day you will, i mean...
no one's a loser forever, and even if you are a loser forever, someone will end up by your side.

whoo i read all of that, talk about procrastinating T.T
hahha you know, i have many friends right now [senior by the way] and i have a few good friends too, we love each other and stuff but i know that once college start, i'm not going to be like calling them up to hang out hahha. It's not that we're not close enough, we are, oh man the things we've done together xD it's just..that's how we are, our personalities are like that, and the life path we chose are totally different yet somehow i'm not so sad about that.
I know i'm going to have to start over and make new friends once college start yet i'm so excited and nervous at the same time, afraid i won't meet people i'm compatible with or i'm too shy to make friends but i'm not afraid to try
Sure, you're allows to feel pity for yourself but like alot of soompiers have said, don't get hung over the past. High School is over with, sure you can think about it but don't get depressed and stuff over the PAST! Be strong and change yourself, start over, no one knows who and what you were in HS, be confident, if not, at least try, just give it try. If you're not even trying and you're already pitying yourself, then really..it makes people dislikes you =] Sorry for the harsh comments

I really hate people like you, you really piss me off. Seriously don't take life for granted, think about the people in 3rd world countries, everyday is a fight for survival. Yet we have someone in a well developed country who is making a fuss about how bad her high school is, people in 3rd world countries don't even go to school.

Don't do stupid or crazy things, people will only remember u as the "idiot" and laugh at you, then forget you. If u don't want to be forgotten then go strive for a goal that will make people remember you, whether it be a doctor, humanitarian etc. Give yourself a purpose in life and that depression of yours will fade into the wind.

I can relate. I've felt the exact same way.
But I agree with whoever said you're the only one holding yourself back.
When I make an effort to get myself out a bit more, things turn out better.
Do it.

Maybe you should talk to a counselor. If you're away from home, with no friends, and listening to people who blahblah about their friends, then it kind of piles up and adds to that pain or depression, especially if you didn't have friends yourself in high school.

To me, it doesn't sound like high school is the problem, if that makes sense. As in, there's something else that is wrong, and your grief over highschool is just a symptom.

Hm so you feel depressed and your solution is to wallow in it and shout out into the darkness hoping for someone random to care and offer input. Glad to see that's working out just fine for you. Let's look at this from at this logically, you had four years to make friends. Basically, you had four years to say, "Hey, wanna go see that movie this weekend?" or "I'm kinda hungry, you feel like some sushi right now?" Not that hard; it's not even the usual, "I wanna ask him/her out, but I'm shy/afraid of rejection/etc." Now correct me if I'm wrong, but I'm going to assume now that when you were in the classroom and talking to a classroom-only friend, you felt like you got along with him/her fairly well, and you always hoped he/she would invite you somewhere. Every time he/she was talking with another friend about going out and doing something, you politely waited for them to turn their attention toward you and invite you. If they didn't, you wanted to ask if you could come along, but felt like it would've been awkward to thrust yourself into his/her group or you were too afraid they would say no, all the while, your head is meekly trying to push your mouth to ask what you dare to ask, but fail to do.

The life you live right now is the result of the actions you have taken in the last several years. And by choosing to focus on this minuscule fraction of your life, you will continue to live in it until you move past it. Right now your walking down this road called life backwards, too absorbed in a social void that you failed to fill when you had the opportunity. But life was meant to be embraced faced forward. I'm not telling you to absolve everything and do a 180 on your perspective. What I am saying is that HAPPINESS and FRIENDS are a CHOICE. Your in a new environment with new people, new opportunities to create the memories you wanted before. The only reason there is to look back on such a past is to realize your mistakes and learn from it.

I know I sound like a jerk, and I'm sorry, sorry that there wasn't an easier way to put this. Anyways, I wish you the best of times to come and I do hope that you can change things for the better and start living your life with the meaning your looking for.

Hey man, don't worry about it. I'm a loser too and I'm in high school :]

im just like you
i wish had friends to hang out with after school..
i only talk or hang with friends AT SCHOOL...

just talk to new people.
and more and more people.
smile, strike up a interesting conversation.

try talking to guys
and make some guy friends.
xDD

i was pretty anti-social before
til i discovered how much easier it was for me
to stick around with guys.
they're fun
but heads up, they dont plan.
they improvise they're outings. ;D heh.
spontaneous.

If you are stuck in the past and crying about the past....You can never live in the present, nor live for the future.

Instead of sulking about the past, live for the present and for the future, b/c you never know what may happen, but as long as you are stuck about the past, you can never take a step forward. Live now and enjoy your college experience and make memories now, so that when you are older, you can talk about your college years as your pleasant memory.

Once you get old enough, no one really talks about high school years, it is more about college years. Don't make the same mistake and let your college experience go to waste by sulking about the past.

Cheer up, life is what you make of it...Live in the now!!!

Well you cried over it, now you know.

I mean, High school is pretty much a joke. I'm still in the last year right now and I'm so glad to move on.

I know exactly how you feel.
Except... I'm still in HS.
And I don't have a choice.

I try to go out with friends,
but my parents won't let me

They even went so far as
taking me to the police department
when I tried going out
despite them saying "no."
This was recent too.
Just 2 weeks ago.

The thing that hurts the most is
my brother once mentioned why I didn't have any friends, why I didn't go out.
As if I had a choice.
My dad overheard and told him that he likes me staying at home.
Another time my dad said that I didn't have friends; I don't have anyone to rely on.
He doesn't realize that it is all his fault.
Then when my mother was on the phone with her friend
(her friend has a daughter who is popular)
she would talk about how my brother does all these things with his friends...
then her friend asked about me
and my mother said, "She doesn't have friends."



I was in yearbook,
so I have all these photos of other people.
Their memories.
Never mine.

Aww.. If you have really bad memories in high school then forget high school and onward for college.
It's never too late to start being more outgoing and making new friends.
I'm pretty sure you can make new friends and friends you can keep in no time.
Dont let high school get to you and bring you down, okay?
Have fun, my dear

I have to agree with you on this bro.

My own quote.

Be happy with what you have, smile for what you believe in, cherish the past and embrace the future.

This is exactly how I am right now :/ lol.
I had friends, I just moved a lot.. from the end of 7th grade til now (almost end of 10th grade year) been at a new school.
This is actually my 4th high school right now though.. everybody I've had dear to me are gone. (IMing & Phone is not enough)
I've basically closed myself up cause I don't like the feeling of loosing people, so now I pretty much screwed myself over.
ehhh.. I have a boyfriend though and a small friend base.. but they're about an hour away. :/

butyeah, definitely join a club or sport .
goodluck :]

I was like you, sorta, except not to the extent where I didn't have any friends. But HS friendships are iffy...I'm glad to be not be part of the drama.

College is so much different. I opened up a lot more in college since I figured...why not? It's a new environment. If there's something you don't like about yourself, then change it. Change yourself for the better. It's always good to make friends in college because they will actually make good friends for life, and they're good for networking.

well you cant expect other people to put all the effort into befriending you. if you're a quiet person, then honestly, people are gonna have a tough time making conversation with you. ur lack of responses gives insinuates that you dont wanna chat, even if its not ur intentions. so try reaching out a little.

Um even if you don't have friends, you got family no? Do you have maybe siblings or cousins or some relatives of your age that you know well? Maybe you can start out by hanging out with them more and eventually they'll introduce you with friends and something unexpected may happen once you can relate to their interests and learn about their social lives. There are pretty much no boundaries when making friends, its just the matter if you are willing to make a change in your life and use that motivation to encourage yourself to experience.

Lol the meaning of prom is to create memories that you want to keep. Why do you even force yourself to go? I'm not going to prom since I can't afford it and I know I would pretty much do nothing besides eating xD Although my friends want me to go, its a hassle to get a limo, buy an awesome dress, set hair etc. Yea, I'm too tomboy for that.

The friends I have right now, I rarely hang out with them outside of school. The only times were probably doing something special like b-day parties, ice-skating for the first time, or get togethers once in a while. Might I also add that I almost never use the phone cause I'm phone shy. I also hate taking pictures cause I never look good in them LOL. My friends are camera shy so we don't have any pictures of our goof times. Honestly, I don't think there's anything wrong with it. But now I plan on taking pictures (and going to force my friends to) so we can leave at least one photo =] I have mostly aqaintances and I don't relate to them very well. I'm me and I accept that I can't be friends with just "everyone". A few close friends are good enough for me.

I agree that high school life has a lot of drama. I am almost totally convinced that everyone in my school are too crazy =p I also heard that college is hard to make friends from my cousin that's "popular". But it is totally possible if you join clubs or some extracurricular activities. Just remember, no one wants to be lonely and they can always use extra friends like you!

I said too much at this point. Haha hope to see you as a person with unlimited hopes for the future.

Why don't you join a club? This is the best way to meet people with the same interests as you. When you are doing something you like with others, it's really easy to make friends.

I was really shy too in middle school, but my dad pretty much forced me to join clubs and sports in high school. At first I was like "Ehh no way", cus meeting new people seemed terrifying.

In retrospect, I'm really glad he pushed me to be more social. As a senior in high school, I've made a lot of really great friends and I'm about 10X more outgoing than I used to be. I was afraid to even talk before, and I hated it.

I guess, just try to be more friendly and positive. I stopped being a pessimist cus it really gets you nowhere. If you smile and are nice to people, I can guarantee you'll put people at ease and they will want to try to get to know you better.

Trust me, from experience, having friends is a million times better than sitting home at Saturdays playing games online, and not by choice. Been there, done that, lol.

Funny how life works. But yeah, high school is over now so you can focus on the present. Honestly, the past really doesn't matter as much as the here and now. You can't go back, ya know?

You 'was' a Loner, or u 'are' a loner? .. loser?

If it was in the past, i think u should get over it & move on... u can meet friends at college!
Your not perfect, get over it! No one is! But i think this is friend issue ur having. Are u shy?

Think about the future, stop thinking about the past. We can't help u change the past. But we can help u about the future. You can't change the past, what is done, is done!

Lol I know what you mean. I didn't have fun in high school either. I was a bit antisocial. Best thing is to make some new memories and make em good. All you can do now is move forward.

Well, it seem's like u haven't matured, since u couldn't get over it! I think mature people would had moved on by now.

It either make u stronger or weaker.

Just forget high school. In college is where you meet your life long friends and it's a fresh start.
I heard that you don't even see the people you go to high school with.

don't worry you're not a loser. you just haven't found the right people you click with

Highschool is just a small portion of your life. So stop worrying about your past highschool years. Since you say you didnt have much friends back in highschool think about being more outgoing since you are now in college.Meeting people and making friends arent hard. Its whether or not you attempt in building and maintaining a friendship. You dont need a lot of friends to be considered a somebody... thats just so overrated since highschool is always about popularity and stuff. Even though im still a senior in highschool, I have college friends who studied more than anything else-- now they manage to be more outgoing now since they are in college. Its much easier in college.

Just get over it.

I didn't have that many friends in high school. I didn't go to prom. And nobody I know now gives a crap about who I was in high school. In fact, I probably have more friends from my high school NOW than I did when I was actually in high school, probably because some of them have grown out of their snobbishness and racism. I didn't want to deal with any of drugs and alcohol, and the high school drama my BS that infiltrated my high school class, which comprised of 80 people at most. I just went to school, did club activities and community service, then I went home. I couldn't wait to go to college.

This doesn't affect me now. Now I have friends. Was I a loser back then? I don't think so. Who honestly cares about prom? Nobody. When people reminisce about the memories, I just nod along. I don't feel that I missed on anything grand and spectacular. I didn't have money to go to fancy spring break locations like the rest of my rich high school friends. So what? It's not something I'm crying about. There's more important things to worry about.

Wow, I feel exactly the same..
High School is just so lonely for me >_> I'm stuck with the same old people and when people tell me to just make new friends, its pretty hard...everyone already has their own little group and they're not exactly welcoming either.

You're very lucky that you're in college already, its a much better step
I'm still stuck in this fricking lonely hole that I can't wait to get out.
Just forget about the past, and try to socialize more

Honestly, if you keep wallowing about high school, you might miss opportunities to create memories for COLLEGE.. Which is the present. If you keep holding on to your past, you might miss the future.

It's okay to be nostalgic once in a while, but don't live in it.
Just because you didn't have friends doesn't mean you don't have memories.
You said you stayed home with your family. Family can be friends too. They can also be memories.

Instead of thinking about what you didn't have, try thinking about what you did have.

And then let it settle and enjoy your college years while you still can.
Don't let your roommate's memories get you all shook up. Maybe she holds on to them tighter because she hasn't been able to make a memory during college that tops it.
You can.

c:

smile and say hi to people sitting next to you or buying coffee or.. in your classroom.. being nice and being yourself never fails! i know this sounds corny but when im not my self im all boring and shiz in front of people i don't know, not saying "hi" to them because im scared they wont respond.. i lose that oppurtunity to get closer to them, to start a conversation with them. and when i act like myself, sputter out hi's to people walking past me, they actually respond back nicely and talk to me like a friend... then we become closer with our conversations if they don't respond, just assume they have their ipod on, dazed off, and just drop it and walk away like a superstar!~ ;] no need to feel lame cuz you're the awesomeer and braver perosn for making the daring attempt to say the first "hi" and they just rude for ignoring you *snaps in a Z-formation* uh huh girlfriend!

don't think about your loser-ish times. that's just being a loser ;P
like other people said, college = clean slate. unless you want the same thing to happen again...
maybe talk to your roommate (that popular girl), and learn about how she keeps her friends and hangs out with them and stuff.

good luck!

dont worry so much about it, think of college as a new start to start all over. all those memories you couldn't build, build them in college. i was the opposite. i went to a far college, i knew no one in my program/school, i wasn't rich and i was there on a student load, i wasn't blond and beautiful i was a fat asian girl (the only asian too). but i ended up graduating with 1 close frnd and im happy with that. so dont worry too much, just do well in school and talk more to the people within your class.