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thank you for everything:)

Don't take the internet seriously. -___-;;

I'm gonna miss seeing you everyday...
I don't want you to forget me... okay?
If you felt the same way, you would try to make it work.

i think it's over between me and u,,,

You're almost too cute to be true!
I wish I could meet you again one day!

I hate what you've become.

It sucks that you changed when I left.
This just shows how well she takes care of you.

/sigh.
I miss you best friend.

I don't think I can look at you the same ever again.

I miss you.
Even if I saw you everyday, it still wouldn't be enough.

You.

I like how you make me laugh, when you cool down the "insults" when I am in a bad mood, or when you try to cheer me up even though you sometimes fail.
I hate how you bring out the worst in me even though it's only minor things. You better be playing video games and not talking to other people or else I will be very sad. I have not talked to you all day. You haven't texted me through AIM all day. Are you entertained by someone else now?

But then again, you don't know how I feel towards you. So I guess...I guess I can't blame you.

I want you.
Here, right now.
With me.

But the thing is, I haven't quite found you yet.

so uhm, let me get this straight...

do you wanna fckn play games with my mind?!

-writing/typing it out isn't going to make it better. but whatever. i'm tired, really tired. everything keeps building on and it made me explode. i'm sorry ___ today for exploding on you. it's your fault for always provoking me at the wrong times.

-im not gonna forgive you anymore. hell im not even waiting anymore. (it's funny because im too sensitive, and im being a hypocrite about this). if you let go of it, you should have said something about it, cause fk i dont wanna wait around forever. you piss me off alot, just like in the past. why does it always happen? i have no damn clue. even when i try to be selfish, it hurts. being not selfish, it also hurts. hahaha this is a joke......

-and sorry today. i dont mean to act that way. thanks for trying, i know there's nothing you can do but listen anyway. my eyes really burn from the tears, i dont know if i should tell you that i did. im really sensitive really, and really weak inside, i think you should know that by now. even if i act coldly or ignore others, it's just an act, to mask my true self, my weak side. you're a good friend. if i ever......... sigh i dont want to think about it, i dont want it to happen, but if it happens, it does. i really dont want it to happen anymore, the future effects of it is so costly, and hurtful.

Once a shoplifter always a shoplifter, always a thief.

You say you ended your bad ways,
but when I find my items in your room what do you expect me to think?

When I question you, you tell to me you will lock your door for now on,
Not giving back my things.

Stupid sister, so young, did the police officer not talk some sense in your head?
Was it not enough you were let off easy in the past.
Your court date erased with you having to write an apology letter to that store in the mall?

What the hell is wrong with you? I caught you red-handed now give me back my things.
Parents go too easy on you since you are the youngest.
Why they do not allow me to talk to you I question.

But the only way to get my things back is to talk to you. Go figure.

you're pissing me off. i'm still waiting. and i'm probably going to wait all night. i'm not even hiding anymore. how is he any better than me?

I'm slightly annoyed at you, man just leave me alone for once. >_>

i feel like i have no friends.
no life.
nothing.
i miss the beginning of summer.
and i dread going back to school.
everything is going to remind me of you.
the YOU who STILL hasn't called me yet even after two months.
i hate you.
and i hate the OTHER you. the YOU who played me.
ugh.
i need to do something productive in my life for once.
meet new people.
but its hard.
how do i go upon doing it?

i feel like my english tutor hates my guts. our first meeting was far from cordial; i can tell she's already judged me just because i looked all dressed and dolled up. but the truth is i was only wearing so much make-up because i'd just gotten back from a party and didn't have time to get rid of it.
the thing is, if she wasn't so damn judgemental and actually examine me for who i am and not what i look like, i can assure her that there's so much more than meets the eye. j: judge me by the content of my character, not by the clothes that i wear.
i would appreciate it far more than all the passive-aggressive comments you continue to make towards me. you're a brilliant teacher--perhaps one of the best English ones I've ever had--but to be honest your lack of maturity and compassion makes me think less of you.

I wish you were online right now.

Just because I don't care, doesn't mean I don't understand.

My heart feels numb. Its a feeling that I'm getting use to, but what good is in that? Is this really a feeling that I should get use to? You hurt me hun...Very much...Yet, I'm not angry, more then anything, I feel so defeated and alone. I've always say I would never allow myself to reach this stage again, but whoever say that one can't control one's feelings is stating something more then inevitable. Its disappointing because no matter how hard I try to fabricate myself into this girl that's okay, at the end of the day, I find myself so helpless and empty with nothing, but tears to wipe away these pains. I wish I was stronger, but I don't regret loving you...quite conflicting isn't it? Am I'm strong because I still love you even after the way you treated me, or am I'm weak because I still do? Whatever the answer is or may be, at the end of the day, you're still the one that I love.....sigh...

P.S.
All I want is to see you happy again...

i'm not sure what to feel right now, but i know for sure i'm a little proud of myself for doing the right thing, which is to wish you a happy birthday and that's it. but it's only a little because i want to do so much more. i've become accustomed to the lack of your presence in my life these couple months, but i know that you're always welcome to pop up anytime. it's strange because i feel like you're just a fragment of my imagination. i only know about you through things that other people tell me. and that's not even much. i've never been good with explaining things, so i can't really put what i'm feeling right now into words. the only thing i'm sure about is that i miss you. wanna hear what i originally was going to say to you? after revising it a couple times, this is what i ended up with, but still didn't say to you:
dear __, happy birthday! you're finally 18! whoot. i know we don't really talk anymore, but you're still my friend and i'm happy for you because now you can buy porn and go clubbing. i'm glad you're going to ____ to session and do what you really love since you can't really do it w/ your crew at school anymore, but i hope you'll take care of yourself and don't hurt your back or get your hair dirty too much. i'm sorry things didn't work out, but i wasn't that great of a gf anyways always smacking you around, talking too much, and being clingy. haha. oh well. thanks for making my year memorable. it was really fun hanging out with you. i feel bad for screwing up your year. sorry. anyways, i know you'll find someone better who'll make you happy. have fun in college drawing naked people and have fun in life, okay? but not too much fun cuz now that you're 18, you gotta be more responsible. D:< i hope you have an incredibly fantastically super duperly happy birthday and enjoy your [nonexistent] present! -jacinda
p.s. i still think ryan's cute...even tho it makes me a pedophile.

it all sounds so stupid, especially because there's so many different emotions i ended up putting in there. thank goodness i didn't send you that. anyways, i basically want to wish you a very happy birthday. even though i do have a small grudge against you, you deserve that much at the least.

at first i didnt really care. you guys said he was cold, robotic, totally indifferent towards anything else. it's true, that got me interested...because he seemed just like me. it was funny before but now, its getting on my nerves. just because i dont have an opinion to what people say, doesnt mean i dont care. i hate it how you guys call me ice queen. sometimes when i want to break the ice, you guys just dont let me. what am i supposed to do then? just blame everything on me, always think im the one at fault. but have you guys actually stopped and thought, that y'all arent giving me a chance? i know i sometimes can come off as emotionless and icy but im trying to change that. just give me a chance. sighh.. oh and dont compare me to him.. i've never done the things he's done. he is just plain heartless ok? eventhough you guys most probably wont read this, i still want to write this, because i cant hold it in anymore. maybe someone will actually try to understand.

it's amazing how similar we are, it's a wonder why i dislike you so much.
maybe because you stole my friend; or maybe our fate is just like this.

aww, i suddenly miss you guys after i dreamt that you guys visited us again this year, and you stayed longer than last year.. i wish i was able to hang with everyone more if only i didn't have school at that time.. T_T
i'll try to visit soon after i graduate.. ^^

Sweet dream my darling ^^.

I hate you. I really do. I don't even hate her because she never said she wouldn't.

I feel so hurt and betrayed because of you. You're the first person I've ever developed so much hate for. I was nothing to you, but you were something to me.

I wish I never met you. I fcuking hate you.

My heart is breaking into pieces.
You're hurting her, me and everyone else out there who loves you.
Please don't give up hope because of whats been happening.

i love you.
im just not sure i can say those 3 words to you right now,
but hold on,
it won't be long.

Please, just tell me to my face! Do you reject my confession???

When did your image seem to appear in my head so often?

i'm acting like such a little high school girl in love. stupid you. it makes me happy that i didn't have to wait too long last night. but then you just had to disappear. what is with that. it makes me wonder if i'm insane when you just leave like that and i spend like 10 minutes looking for you. and then hours waiting for you to come back which you never do. its bad enough that you said it again. that i'm wasting your time. you're the one that talked to me first. it makes me really angry that noone can keep a promise. and that everyone just keeps going. and everyone keeps me waiting. why do i have to be the one who always does the waiting? why am i the only one who does what i say? while everyone else thinks they can break their promises and leave me anywhere, whenever they want.stop leaving me. i really love you.

So I told you how I felt about you...and honestly I regret doing so. You seemed surprised when I told you that I liked you...but why? I thought you knew my feelings about you. All the conversations that we had, our walk together..infact I thought you liked me too. Was I too blind to see that all those actions were only meant as a friend and nothing more? I feel like I just killed our friendship with that confession. You reassure me that nothing is going to change. But how can you be so sure? I really don't want to lose you as a friend. So I will try to push back my feelings for you...but I can't if you keep acting like you like me. You're making me head hurt. My heart hurt. Why are you like this? And the fact that I have to face you everyday in piano class scares me now. I don't know what do anymore.

So tell me how can I breathe when its just the both of you suffocating me with the past.

at this age, nothing is forever only for awhile.

Let's hope you grow a spine this year.

The distant memories we created that seems forever ago... do you think of them as often as I do?

lately, i feel like i'm letting people down.
like yesterday, i couldn't go with my friend to shop, and today after church i was too tired to go to acf.
some of the younger sisters looked angry at me because i should have provided rides and i wasn't there to play with them. and then today i was supposed to go to a friend's birthday party, but i missed it. i went home to take a nap and that nap lasted 4 hours. i feel really bad about these things.

i would really like us to get back in touch... even if it were to be awkward.

Although I really hope we settle this in the next few days, I'm ready to drop you 100% if you don't even make an effort.

Don't worry, you'll be fine. I'll look after you ♥

OMG OMG OMG ! my close friend* DIDn't u pay attention in PDH ??? OMGGG !! u should've been more careful !! GIRLL !! =(

i hope its nothing bad for u & ur boyfriend >< sighs...

I'm sorry I can't be there for you but you know I care about you from the bottom of my heart. ♥

i don't want to go shopping with you because i don't like your outlook on clothes =)
oh, im broke and i dont want to walk around with you doing nothing
kthnxbye

i guess i was overreacting. whateva, it's all good.
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are you talking about me? i wonder why you say those things, haha.
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you might be right, you might be wrong. i'd like to believe that you're wrong.. i just can't see it happening.. sorry.

Usually it comes really easy to me
but this time, i can't seem to figure you out.
what is your motive or is there any at all?
two can play at this game darling

To my dearest Teddy Bear,

I freakin miss you right now! And I can't wait to see you and jump on your for a bear hug! I want to Totoro! XD Have a nice day today and I'll try not to bug you so much.

-Sincerely, Your Special Girl

Please don't lie to me again. I don't know what I would do if you did. It makes me feel foolish and naive. It's painful, and you'll make me start to hate you. Am I not worth telling the truth to?

i want a stronger relationship more than anything right now but that can't happen when there's something between us you aren't telling me here so just confide in me and i'll confide in you.



i hate you, what the hell is wrong with us...