[watcher]

damn cable company... why is my digital signal so choppy!!! *shakes fist*

[tlydia]

I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you for making me confuse. I hate you for making me cry. I hate you for hurting me. 16 years. We've known each other for 16 years. In all those years, you've never told me how you felt. And now that you did, you expect me to return your feelings? How can you be so mean? Especially since October 23 is coming up. You know more than anybody that I'm going to need you there with me on that day to hold my hand and let me cry on your shoulder like I always do. You know how emotional I am on that day. Yet, you are putting me in a difficult dilemma. You say that I'm selfish. If selfish means that I want to save our friendship, then yes, I'm selfish. How can you be so cruel as to make me choose between our 16 year friendship and the man I'm about to start a family with. I'm hurting. Can't you tell from my voice how hurt I am? Can't you tell by the tears that were falling how broken I am inside? I don't need you to wipe my tears. I need you to be my best friend. You say that you love me and have always had feelings for me. Why now?! You're my rock, the person I always run to. Without you, I'm lost. But when you told me you wanted it all or nothing at all, you made my decison for me. Thank you for being selfish. Thank you for ending our friendship. I truly thought I knew you but I guess I was wrong. I've never endured this much pain before. I seldomly use the word hate. But right now, that's how I feel. I loathe you for just throwing away our friendship like it had no meaning. You said I hurt you and that I'm inconsiderate. I think you have our roles reversed.

[wisawisa]

Why can't I do what I want? What's so bad about wanting to become a researcher or a professor? They're respectable careers and they pay fine. Why are you pushing me to go to medical school? I really don't want to. It's not like there's anything even wrong with what I want to do.

[tinasarangg]

i'm very much in ---- with you...i think.
the more we spend time together the more i see us together in the future.
happy, as one.

i'm so blessed and excited for what's left to come.

[tlydia]

Right now, I feel so useless. I try my best to please everyone I love and care about yet I failed. I failed to save a wonderful friendship that only comes once in a lifetime. My intuition tells me I should have tried harder to save our friendship. I shouldn't have just walked out on you yesterday. But you gave me no choice. At first I was mad because of all the mixed emotions and confusion, now I'm just sad. It feels like a piece of me is missing. Is it too late to salvage our friendship? Can't we just forget about everything and just start over? You want so much from me but there is only so much I can give you. I really don't want this to end. You gave me an option of accepting you and your heart or just let you go. I want you in my life but how am I suppose to do that without compromising something else that is important to me?

I must be the worst girlfriend out there. Here I have a wonderful boyfriend who cares and loves me more than I can imagine, yet I don't appreciate you enough. Sometimes I know you can be overprotective, but why can't I see that you're only doing everything in my best interest. I feel so bad always trying to push you away. Can I just get some time to adjust to everything? Sometimes I feel so trapped and cornered, I can't breathe. Maybe that's why I feel like running away. Just give me time, please.

[kitanablade3]

Wow really, what is 83 cents gonna do for my future? I wish my job would realize the reason I went to school was to get paid better. It's not worth 83 cents to sit here and fake it with my Program Manager that everyone other than his two little kiss ups like him. I hate that man with every fiber in my being, and I hope he knows that. I don't hate many, but he's top o' the list right now. Yeah, I got an annual raise coming up, but WTF?! I've got two cars, mine and the one I bought for my dad because he desparately needed it, and NOW student loans to pay, what is 83 cents going to do for me. Why did the big bosses even bother coming down and talking about this a-hole of a Program Manager when nothing really changed. He's smiling more like a Cheshire Cat than normal. I swear, if they don't move me and my fellow animator over to the other building, they'll be a penny short and too late when we up and quit with a job that appreciates all the schooling we went through with that stupid ignorant school. I shouldn't have to be accepting ANOTHER job to sub as a 3D teacher at night just to get an extra 600 bucks to cover all the Christmas expenses this year and to get a new laptop. I shouldn't have to be considering accepting a job as a lead instructor at that school, if my job was so hot. I shouldn't have to THINK about working an additional 36 hours teaching in addition to the 40 I already do here. WTF? Teaching at the school who's faculty and administration don't know what the hell they are doing! Oh yeah, did I mention, that's where I'll be teaching, the school that screwed me over. Haha, oh revenge is sweet, screw me over again, and see what happens.

Also, when the hell will my mother understand that my brother makes more money than we could wrap our heads around. Buying him laundry detergent, paper towels, toilet tissue, cooking food for him and piling his car up with stuff when he leaves, he can afford all that crap his own damn self! We're the ones struggling. But he won't speak up in fear of starting a fight with her. Oh, but brother, as much as I love you, and you know I do, she could never argue with you, you are the precious son. While the daughter here, is expected to stay living with her parents until the end of eternity because you are married and have your own family. Oh yeah, mom you wonder why you don't see me getting married anytime soon, because I don't want any guy I date to have to deal with YOU on a daily basis. Why is everything I say taken out of f&*^ing context with you? Sarcasm, get it, look it up, find some...You wonder why we don't have a mother-daughter relationship like "ALL" your other friends. Well, let's start with 1) they don't have to live with their mom's, and their BS!!! I can't tell you what I really want to say because where am I going to go?! 2) Quit treating me like you're my STEPmother, that would be a start. 3) Quit talking over people long enough to hear what they have to say. GRRR........... 4) quit telling everyone that you're so proud of me but treat me like $h*t when you come home! Or turn around and tell people that I'M evil to YOU!!! I NEVER (!!!!) speak back to you, you're always the one yelling at ME!!!!

And if you say anything about me being "selfish" again I swear to God I will speak up and smack some sense into you. Remember the daughter who's worked her a$$ off in school these past 5 years, who's had a full time job all those years, who takes care of herself, pays YOUR bills, bought dad a new car, who PAYS for that new car, who bailed you guys out of losing electricity more than once. Who is still at home, being the good daughter, while she watches her friends have happy relationships, who just loaned dad 3000 to pay off his 401k loan, who's owed more than 10,000 of borrowed money to save you both? Dad appreciates it and he shows it, you, you don't give a flying monkey if I've given you all over 10,000 bucks in last 3 years. I don't go around bragging, I try to hide the fact that I do all that to you, but next time you say I'm selfish I'll show you my spreadsheets where all the money dad has had to borrow from me to pay for the bills YOU helped create. So what if I buy myself a new 300-500 dollar handbag every couple of months. I don't get to spend my money on much else. I have to take care of my own self once in a while. You can't expect for me to buy you a freaking Gucci bag, just because I buy expensive bags. BTW, it's MY money, I save as much as I can with it being dished out everywhere but into my savings account. The rest should be providing me with the things I want. At least I don't have any debt, I pay all my stuff off before it can accure any interest....WTF man....

[coreancc]

I love words and hate silence. There is a reason people started communicating with words, and that's because silence wasn't cutting it. I'd prefer if you'd respond and use words. Just tell me. You won't hurt my feelings.

[motheritried]

It's been two months into the fall semester and I still haven't said a word to anyone in 4/5 of my classes. I think it's absolutely ridiculous. I'll admit that I'm not the most out going person in the world, but still. Why is it so difficult to talk to people? No one ever looks up, makes eye contact, smiles. Everyone is so serious. Not everyone, but I find in English especially - no, I can't really say that since I don't know what it's like in other programs... but still. People need to lighten up more. I should take that first step and if I get rejected, so be it. It's not such a crushing blow.

[tinasarangg]

i know i'm beginning to look very thin--
its becoming unhealthy...
but i kinda like it.

[huyen2501]

i almost made an A on my exam. i always say "damn, if only i had studied more! it's okay, i'll study earlier next time." next time rolls around and i do the SAME CRAP over! i need to break my procrastination habit.....
--
you need to stop looking at me! yes, i am that quiet, loner girl from our high school. i'm surprised to see a familiar face at my new school. all i know is your name and that you're friends with my old group of friends. take your eyes elsewhere buddy cause i'm not interested in knowing you. plus, it's freaking creepy!
--
i LOVE how we're living in the house while it goes under construction.

[wisawisa]

Quit asking me why I'm not interested in you romantically. It's not all logical. I can't control it, so please stop. It always makes the conversation so awkward. Why can't you just let go of it? You already know I have someone else in mind. ._.'

[Soopke]

College is so darn stressful!! This is my final year, so little time, so much to do. GOSH!!!

[YUNA!]

AGHHHHHHH

OUT OF ALL DAYS, WHY DO I HAVE TO SEE YOU? AWTRRFHLKFHJ.
You wonder why I pretended I didn't know you when you called my name?
Because I didn't want to remember you.
I didn't want to SEE YOU.
I DONT EVER WANNA BE NEXT TO YOU AGAIN.

WHYD YOU HAVE TO CALL MY NAME
AND LET ME SEE YOU?

WHY????????????????????????

AWRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHFH!!!!!

[ihlubdbsg]

people need to fricken leave me alone. i can't handle all this stress anymore. stop calling my name! stop calling my cell! stop knocking on my door! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! can't you manage your own life without intruding into mine?!?!?! i'm young, single, no kids and i haven't even started my life yet but wth do i feel like i've lived my whole life already?!?!?!?!? argh! you all seriously make my life a living hell.

[suju_m]

wtf?
i like my job but it gets soooo frikkin irritating when some customer can't make up their mind.

yeah i talk to them for like 20 minutes and we're like soo busy and when she said "oh nvmnd i'll call back again later."
damnnn woman! 20 min. waste of my precious time.

yeah i hanged up the phone w/o saying goodbye or thank you because you frikkin wated my time talking to you for nothing!

and then you come calling back and calling me RUDE lwtf? is wrong with you.
and then when i said "i'm so sorry we were so busy" and then you frikkin hang up the phone on me.

gahh~ you just wait and i'll track where you work. i got your phone number and your name! lol!

but yeah gahh~ she made me feel bad and made me feel like an idiot.
made me say sorry and wasted my time. but still hanged up on me.

WHAT A pinkberry!!

ahh~ wow that felt good. i feel better now thanks!

[cafe_addict]

I need something exciting to do right now. I've been sitting at home these past weeks trying to save money by playing Harvest Moon until the wee dawn hours but apparently it's not good for me because yesterday I was thinking in game mode: "Damn I shouldn't have ate this taco. I need to reset.... "
And then I tried crocheting too but against what my astrology says about me, my dexterity ability sucks when it comes to yarns and sticks. Can't I work a scarf together without it looking like half a beanie?

[tlydia]

Staying at home is so freakin boring!!!!!!!!! It's too quiet. I'm so used to being at the office. I slept, ate, watched tv, and been on Soompi the whole day. I feel like I wasted a whole day. I feel like a couch potato. Am I weird that I wanna go back to work?!

[HERMIT]

Staying at home is so freakin boring!!!!!!!!! It's too quiet. I'm so used to being at the office. I slept, ate, watched tv, and been on Soompi the whole day. I feel like I wasted a whole day. I feel like a couch potato. Am I weird that I wanna go back to work?!

Actually, I find it weird that all what you did today is all that I do at work now. And I wanna go back home.

[tlydia]

Actually, I find it weird that all what you did today is all that I do at work now. And I wanna go back home.

Maybe we should switch places I wonder how it would be to be a "Hermit" for a day.

[7thprincess]

I DONT CARE! I AM GOING TO EAT IN THE LIBRARY! I'M HUNGRY!