[YUNA!]

john tesh

every day I go out just to escape from my family
every day I come back until late at night just to escape from this mess
I see how they treat each other but it's the total opposite for me
They treat each other with love and RESPECT, but me?
I've been called names, been choked, been hit so many years of my life
That it doesn't even hurt anymore
I didn't even notice I was bleeding this time; it doesn't even hurt.
That's how NUMB I've become
I've become numb, physically and emotionally.

He was the only spark of hope in my life
The only thing that helped me forget my troubles at home
I was looking forward to it, but of course, it got canceled.
I shouldn't have put too much expectations in it
In the back of my head, I knew it wouldn't work out
I knew this would happen
I'm left here in tears.... but I won't give him the satisfaction of letting him seeing me cry.


Disappontment is the only constant in my life, so why should I have thought otherwise.

john tesh this life. I'm john teshing sick of it. I'm tired of faking a smile every day of my life.

[Rainity]

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
why why why why why why T___T"
feel so cut atm.

its so stupid !

why am i typing in here x( so furious i dont know what im saying no more ><"

[taiji.]

i have two types of friends.. friends who have no future and are only interested in gambling, drinking, smoking, partying, etc.. the other type of friends are anti-socials who only have their lives revolve around school or work.. why is it so hard to be friends with someone who has a balance of being social and being successful? why is it always one or the other? now that i'm out of school, i don't even know where to find true friends any more.

[derrek]

i have two types of friends.. friends who have no future and are only interested in gambling, drinking, smoking, partying, etc.. the other type of friends are anti-socials who only have their lives revolve around school or work.. why is it so hard to be friends with someone who has a balance of being social and being successful? why is it always one or the other? now that i'm out of school, i don't even know where to find true friends any more.

I know how you feel, trust me! And they are out there, you just need to keep your eyes peeled for them! I only have about 3-4 real close friends, and they're dudes I am happy to surround myself with because they have the same sort of lifestyle as me.

[Myss Blewm]

john tesh

every day I go out just to escape from my family
every day I come back until late at night just to escape from this mess
I see how they treat each other but it's the total opposite for me
They treat each other with love and RESPECT, but me?
I've been called names, been choked, been hit so many years of my life
That it doesn't even hurt anymore
I didn't even notice I was bleeding this time; it doesn't even hurt.
That's how NUMB I've become
I've become numb, physically and emotionally.

He was the only spark of hope in my life
The only thing that helped me forget my troubles at home
I was looking forward to it, but of course, it got canceled.
I shouldn't have put too much expectations in it
In the back of my head, I knew it wouldn't work out
I knew this would happen
I'm left here in tears.... but I won't give him the satisfaction of letting him seeing me cry.


Disappontment is the only constant in my life, so why should I have thought otherwise.

john tesh this life. I'm john teshing sick of it. I'm tired of faking a smile every day of my life.

i usually don't read other posters' posts in this thread (hahaha because I'm busy angsting it out) but your post caught my eye because it's at the top and *hug*. You seem to have needed one. I don't know the full story to what you are going through, but from what you have put down, I feel as if I have been there before. Hang in there, okay? I know that not getting the love and respect that you need is really damn difficult but keep in mind, you can grow stronger and stand on your own two feet one day. I hope you feel better soon. (:

i have two types of friends.. friends who have no future and are only interested in gambling, drinking, smoking, partying, etc.. the other type of friends are anti-socials who only have their lives revolve around school or work.. why is it so hard to be friends with someone who has a balance of being social and being successful? why is it always one or the other? now that i'm out of school, i don't even know where to find true friends any more.

My friends and I are kind of going through a rough patch right now. We never find time to hang out, and when we set up meetings, one or all of us flake out on each other. We went through this three week non communication and I know I was a huge part since I tend to lean more towards being the anti-social bug. I even kind of avoid some online friends now, which I feel terrible about. I used to think my friends and I were unbreakable and these days, much like you, I don't even know who my true friends are. Perhaps if you reach out to each other you can figure out who your true friends are again. It might seem like your friends have abandoned you or are nothing like you anymore, but some friendships can stand through the test of times.


Onto unrelated and less depressing matters, I have never been happier to swallow some Jell-O pudding in my life. It was like tasting life again. Those three Advil pills I shoved down better work soon because this toothache is lasting much too long. :'(

[hikki]

I don't need to shell out my self loathing and depreciation, but one thing that's been frustrating me is how quickly the weekend has been flying by.

Lately, I've been doing a VERY good job of staying away from my office/work area on the weekend. While I've been doing that, it's basically translated into longer workdays.

Anyhows, I get home late on Friday, miss my favorite show (which I never plan on missing, so I don't set the DVR)... I fall alseep, and get up around 11 on Saturday... I unwind a little, and then it's like late 6pm already... I go off to work out, and then I waste the night away into the wee hours of the morning. End up getting a few hours of sleep and get dragged off somewhere that just kills my Sunday... get back late and it's time to sleep and work again.

I swear, I'm so jealous to see people that have time for hobbies, have actual friends, and get to enjoy life.

I'm sure there are many others worse-off than me, but... sometimes it's just nice to vent.

[exileXtenshi]

....cannonballs.....

[derrek]

Hikki you gwan need to find a balance before you go insane mate!!

[ManekiNeko~*]

john tesh it its just not worth my time.

[Crispy]

This is the part where the stress kicks in.

[YUNA!]

I've always been good at disguising my tears at night, when there's complete darkness
I can't let others see me weak.
I will only let them see me as a strong woman.
Today will be the last time I ever cry in public, much less on the BUS.
I will not cry anymore.....

---------------
Why does knowing you're engaged doesn't hurt me anymore?
I should be crying; I should be upset... but I feel nothing.
Have I really become so numb?

[luudacris]

When the night is young, our time wasted. Breathless wonders, speechless endeavors...ode to those deep stares you place within me. You stir my mind.

Slight wondering glazes, partial half smiles passed from me to you. An innocent heart in your midst, a lover in your presence. Take me for yourself, a declaration of having. I want to be taken, but most of all, I want to be taken by you.

-indcup, be me-

[kissez*]

Dance you little fiend, dance the puppy dance of doom.
I swear, he's such a traitorous doggy.
*grumble grumble

[SREY_MAO]

you're being so freaking immature right now...
all i want is to get my stuff..then you go drop dead anywhere..
i dont want to blow up your phone..just give me my f*cking stuff

[THEmerryJANE]

DAMN I GOT A B- IN LINEAR ALGEBRA. DAMMIT!!!

And I ran over a damn snake yesterday and it's nasty snake juice is still on my tires! AHHHHHHHH

[tlydia]

There is something seriously wrong with me. I meet a wonderful guy who has the same interests as me, treats me great, and in my eyes "perfect." Yet, I ended up breaking up with him last night. I don't even know why I broke up with him. Maybe I'm a committment phobe. What made it worse is that I used the line, "it's me, not you... I'm just not ready for a committment right now. I hope we can remain friends" I don't think he wants any type of friendship with me.

Oh, My Rockets lost last night.. Boo..

[AngieK]

DAMMIT!!! Why can't I understand you?! No matter how much time and effort I put I can never get it right. And just when I think I'm getting it you turn around and punch me in my imaginary balls. You make me feel so stupid. I hate you physics.

[lekaaa]

Can I rant about a user on Soompi? LOL

[Myss Blewm]

Ulgh why do I not mix well with cars? I try my best to clean it, put gas in it, get the thing checked up every three months, and it still bugs out on me! The plus side to all this is that my dad fixes it all the time. But urrggghhh I got the oil changed today, and I take it home and I think "Yay! It's not making funny noises or emitting smoke!" I celebrated too quickly. My brother took my car out and came home with the car smoking up and he informs me that the "Low Oil" light turned on. I was confused because I JUST had it changed today. My mom finds out and says the mechanics probably did something wrong, then she gets mad and tells me to stop going to the same place I always go to because it seems my car wonks up every time I go there to get the oil changed. So we call my dad to tell him what's happened, and he says the same thing. Then he starts saying if I need the oil changed he can just do it. It just totally pissed me off because back in the day when I first got the car, every time I asked my dad to change the oil he was the one who didn't want to change the oil and told me to go to a body shop. And now, "Oh look at what you did! Instead of coming to me, you have white people who want to rip you off ruining the car!" ULGH, what the hell? Everything that happens to the car, I pay for all the damages!

[ManekiNeko~*]

i hungry


need.food.now



feeelll woooozzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy



oooooooozzzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyy............




I wish humans evolved to a form where they can survive by eating themselves : |


like an arm or something.. and then grow it back!


that'd be some awesome natural selection


start by eating finger nails.. to fingers... to hand.. and maybe an arm