[xwonderrgirlx]

not recently. i've always been having issues be it family. school, financial & friends. but the biggest was family issues and it's not over yet. the moment world war III begins, i'll have unstoppable tears. it's like a broken tap. sometimes it's hard to breathe. then i'll have frequent headaches which results to blurred vision and all of a sudden when i open my eyes it's dark and when i shut then open again it's clear vision. then i have so much anger.. like ways to kill my family members and then myself.

I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CRAZY AND STUPID.

but i just gotta let it out. am i crazy?
am i having depression?

[chiyo]

you´re not crazy. you´ve been having issues, so there is a reason for your depression. the most important thing is that you don´t let your depression control yourself.

try to get rid of the bad memories. talk about them to close friends or write them down in a diary. that helps to get obver them distract yourself by doing fun things. discover new hobbies etc. that´ll help you ^^

[duksiew]

^ yeah hobbies or just something to take your mind off of things is really helpful, lets
you relax and focus on something else instead of letting one part of your life
rule everything.

[may76]

not recently. i've always been having issues be it family. school, financial & friends. but the biggest was family issues and it's not over yet. the moment world war III begins, i'll have unstoppable tears. it's like a broken tap. sometimes it's hard to breathe. then i'll have frequent headaches which results to blurred vision and all of a sudden when i open my eyes it's dark and when i shut then open again it's clear vision. then i have so much anger.. like ways to kill my family members and then myself.

I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CRAZY AND STUPID.

but i just gotta let it out. am i crazy?
am i having depression?

Going thru a lot of things can make a person depressed. Here are some signs, you lack strength to do something, you just wanted to sleep, you want to be alone, cry a lot and yes you will feel sick even if you are not. Snap out of it.

It's a norm of life. Everyone has problems therefore everyone get depressed. Meaning you are not alone and you are not crazy. It is normal to feel the way you do especially with all the things you mentioned happening to you. But what is important, you don't dwell with it too long. It's ok to cry, crying will ease the pain, but you must also know when to stop. How? By accepting that there are things that you have the power to change and there are things meant to leave alone coz no matter what you do it won't work so let it be, coz in time it will end by itself. I know it is hard when there is no harmony in the family but what is important is that you find harmony in yourself. Pray, talk to God and believe me he listens and he answers. Here is something I read that i hope you'll find some wisdom. Don't tell God how big your problems are, Tell your problems how big your God is. You see God will not test you beyond your abilities and capabilities, so you have what it takes to pass this stage of your life. Just believe...

Try to be positive, one thing is permanent in this world "change" therefore no matter how many problems you have they will end too.

Try to smile, I know you'll find something to be happy still. Try to do things you like doing, free your mind from all the worries, just continue living and never stop walking soon it will be over. And all will be a thing of a past.

[may76]

not recently. i've always been having issues be it family. school, financial & friends. but the biggest was family issues and it's not over yet. the moment world war III begins, i'll have unstoppable tears. it's like a broken tap. sometimes it's hard to breathe. then i'll have frequent headaches which results to blurred vision and all of a sudden when i open my eyes it's dark and when i shut then open again it's clear vision. then i have so much anger.. like ways to kill my family members and then myself.

I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CRAZY AND STUPID.

but i just gotta let it out. am i crazy?
am i having depression?

Going thru a lot of things can make a person depressed. Here are some signs, you lack strength to do something, you just wanted to sleep, you want to be alone, cry a lot and yes you will feel sick even if you are not. Snap out of it.

It's a norm of life. Everyone has problems therefore everyone get depressed. Meaning you are not alone and you are not crazy. It is normal to feel the way you do especially with all the things you mentioned happening to you. But what is important, you don't dwell with it too long. It's ok to cry, crying will ease the pain, but you must also know when to stop. How? By accepting that there are things that you have the power to change and there are things meant to leave alone coz no matter what you do it won't work so let it be, coz in time it will end by itself. I know it is hard when there is no harmony in the family but what is important is that you find harmony in yourself. Pray, talk to God and believe me he listens and he answers. Here is something I read that i hope you'll find some wisdom. Don't tell God how big your problems are, Tell your problems how big your God is. You see God will not test you beyond your abilities and capabilities, so you have what it takes to pass this stage of your life. Just believe...

Try to be positive, one thing is permanent in this world "change" therefore no matter how many problems you have they will end too.

Try to smile, I know you'll find something to be happy still. Try to do things you like doing, free your mind from all the worries, just continue living and never stop walking soon it will be over. And all will be a thing of a past.

[annabeelee]

doesnt sound stupid at all truthfully when i found a hobby to 'immerse' myself in i found it added to the stress so maybe you should just talk about it and cry it out to a close friend... well i worked fo rme so give it a chance :]

[Jennison13]

i think people like you wouldn't share stuff with anyone cause well life is being harsh and im guessing you dont believe anyone but yourself so i recommend a journal. write it all down.

the same thing happened it lasted for 2 months and i gained 30lbs. you dont want that to happen. food is something that help me with my depression but umm...trust me you'll regret so JOURNAL.

[minwoo012]

Its normal to feel ANGRY UPSET when things aren't going the way that they "should be" but don't worry.. situations are always different but a lot of people go through stuff like that! i was and still am like that...and if you're anything like me you keep it bottled up inside kind of like, its my shiet and im the only one that has to deal with it. JUST LET YOUR EMOTIONS OUT! EXPRESS YOURSELF... draw scribble rip paper punch your pillow.. or just watch a sad movie and bawl out all the tears you have in your life.
It helps A LOT to talk it out with someone.. no matter how much you don't want to.. its for your health!

I bottled everything up and then i loose control of my emotions and have mental and emotional breakdowns =S not a good thing! If you're like me you probably feel like telling other people what you're going through is like putting your life burden onto them too. But trust me.. don't feel like that.. yeah right now im assuming that you feel the way i did..but the thing is i know other people feel like that too.. thats why i just wanted to put it out there make sure you know that you're not the only one.

However, since i don't know your situation and what you're going through i can't really judge or say anything much. But its normal to feel depressed my best advice for you.. is to find someone to talk to.. doesn't have to be a friend.. make a soompi friend and just talk it out with them.. A lot of the time its easier to talk to someone tahts not directly integrated into your everyday life.

[xwonderrgirlx]

thanks. i tried to distract myself. i went running. and some of you guys suggested journals. i'm not good with that. i don't usually pour out my feelings in a journal. so i went running and put on some music in full blast. that felt really good. maybe my new hobby is running. thanks guys. i appreciate it.

[GetM0tivated]

I think only you can tell whether you're really depressed or not. I find that when I'm depressed or trouble, I do better at work because it takes my mind off of what's troubling me. So find something to distract yourself, even if it's just a temporary escape.

[EYJAYJAY]

your symptoms are from extreme stress, not depression. of course, it may lead to depression if your situation continues to occur and u dont find any way of relieving your stress but right now it's just stress.

[xwonderrgirlx]

okay so it's not depression.. it's stress.. okay.. phew.

[watcher]

i think most of us come across feelings like that some time in our lives.
life is not without its hardships.
that's why there are such things as friends

[taemoo]

Yeah, I don't think these are signs of depression...you really have to observe the signs when things are going well. Many of my buddies take serotonin reuptake inhibitors (zoloft) because they have anxiety and depression even when life is good. Feeling depressed and having depression are completely different things.

[mistresstigress]

i think most of us come across feelings like that some time in our lives.
life is not without its hardships.
that's why there are such things as friends

Words of wisdom there. Friends are great, really.

[kimahnna]

I don't think it is depression because I think you are just stressed out.

There's a friend of mines who is clinically depressed and her entire family, too (her father, her step-mother and her twelve and thirteen year old siblings). Even when she is not stressed, she is still depressed. As for myself, I know that you are just experiencing too much at once and you're really upset by it. I have been depressed for the past two years and even though stress plays a part, I am never happy even when I should be happy. For instance, I can be at my best friend's party and I just don't want to talk at all. Instead, I rather just be left out and be by myself.