[ChaeRyeong]

I'm starting to worried.
for the past 2 weeks, i've been vomiting out food that i've ate.
but i thought i would just do it for that day.
i was wrong, i got addicted.
i mean, after i've ate ANYTHING, i automatically run to the toilet bowl.
although there's not much stuff coming out, but my throat hurts.
and i start getting really addicted, i'll do whatever it takes in 10 minutes minimum to take all the food out tht i've took.
I'm really scared, that's why i'm asking for help here.
My BFF asked me stop, and yes. I WANT TO STOP IT TOO.
but i dnt knw if its too late.
i'm really scared. I said i wanted to stop. but it just can't
when i'm out, eating with my family and friends,
i want to vomit so badly but i can't.
i dnt wanna embarrassed myself. i keep it in and let it digest.
and yes, i cried. and i'll start looking at the mirror and see if i've grown fatter
and yes i did.

my bones starts aching already.
my stomach always gets pain after i eat.
after i vomit, my whole body got really weak and starts shaking.
i'm really asking for help.
i dnt dare to tell my parent.
i'm embarrassed to face them after i do.

i regret, wht should i do ?

[MUGETSU]

Tell your parents and go to the doctor.

[be_mellow]

I think you have eating disorder....purging....I would seek help before things get worst

[RussianButterfly]

Tell someone you can trust,
Do not try to solve this alone, it will only get worse.
The longer you wait to find help, the harder it will get to "stop" doing this.
Don't panic.


But it's a very important thing that you realise that what you are doing is not good,
admitting it for yourself was a big step.

[leejunkified]

Admiting you have a problem is the first step to overcome it.

Maybe you should try to just stay put after you eat and also do some exercise or stuff that will make you think about something else other thyan the food you�ve just eaten. I don�t know how old you are but, if you�re young, not eating enough can do your body a lot of harm (actually, the same goes for adults, but I mean that if you�re growing, it can be quite detrimental for you). Seek some help, in a friend, a doctor, your family or anyone that you think might be good for you. And stay away from that toilet bowl for a couple hours after lunch.

[jenjen4]

IT IS NOT TOO LATE!
good thing is that at least you realize what you're doing and attempting to seek help.

a few questions i would like to ask you:
is it impulvise? (like you cannot control yourself?)
are you battling with weight problems?

im leaning towards bulimia from what you're telling me.

i highly recommend you trying to control the urge to throw up for awhile. whether sitting still after eating to closing the bathroom door.

i know this is hard for you and it's best to have someone there with you if possible. have someone, a friend there to monitor and notice for you if you cannot control you impulse.

if all else fails, i think you should seek professional help. it's better to seek it early then late.

STAY STRONG! ill fight it with you!

[amydien]

Talk to your family and have them take you to the doctor. It's good to have family support. It does seem like you have eating disorder, and it's a good thing that you know something's not right with what you're doing. Go see your doctor while it's still not too late. Dont wait up.

[kimchi hana]

Don't panic. I'd say go to your parents and tell them your problem.
You might have appearance issues of yourself.
Because you check it you've gotten fatter and etc.
Don't think it's embarrassing to tell anyone. It's not.
I think you should remind yourself how good you look every time you pass by the mirror instead.
Try to boost your confidence. Don' reply on throwing up.
You don't want to keep going through the pain, so try to restrain yourself.
I do hope you'll stop. Throwing up is not good for your health, dear. <3

[ChaeRyeong]

a few questions i would like to ask you:
is it impulvise? (like you cannot control yourself?)
are you battling with weight problems?

im leaning towards bulimia from what you're telling me.

STAY STRONG! ill fight it with you!

i admit, i vomit it out on purpose. i actually planned to stop and make myself not to do it.
but after i've ate.. i'll thinking tht "one bite of cookie will make you look fat" or i'll just go to the mirror and i'll be like, OH SH*T. so i'll automatically go to the toilet bowl to do it

and yes, i'm not confident abt myself.
i'm 173cm and 50kg. i find tht i'm so bigger than everyone.
when i ask ppl whether did i gain weight and so on, they'll say no. i'll call them a liar.
when they say bad comments abt me, i'll go crazy at the same time too.
so, am i crazy ? =.=

thx, i hope i can fight with myself too.
my brain and my body are like fighting with each other.

and i don't dare to tell my parent.
my MOM is PART of the reason that why i'm doing this tbh.
she always say that i have a stomach of a pregnant woman.
and she'll ask why're my face so big.
and even the way i walk, she'll ask "are you too big to walk normal?"
and the other part, my self confidence/esteem. suck
i never learn to love myself at all.

[smiile]

i saw your 411 before, and your hella skinny.
atleast 3948239048290xs skinnier than i'll ever be.
dont do this to yourself because your just perfect and many people envies your body.

you do have a disorder-purging. if you binge then purge you have bulimia, but im not sure you have that.
tell your mom, its better to stay healthy, than to be a stick. (dude your mom shouldnt tell you that you have to lose lbs, since your belly is not big...)

and if your really worried about getting fat, excerize.
you'll burn the calories you ate, instead of not eating the calories.

[sake_bomb]

I commend you for admitting to having this problem but what you are describing is a clear sign of bulimia. If you continue on this path you will have the following health issues:
-torn or damaged esophagus from the stomach acid
-ruined metabolism which means you'll gain faster and lose weight slower
-your teeth will be damaged and may fall out after years of doing this
-your face will become more swollen due to the vomiting
-you run the risk of tearing tissue, rupturing a vein,etc. when you purge
-your entire body will be affected because when you vomit you are dehydrating yourself and losing essential electrolytes
-constipation, bloating, stomach cramping, stomach ulcers
-irregular periods

Please, please get help. There are people who go years without getting help and often it is too late.

[dianannsano]

I think you have an eating disorder where your stomach has been conditioned to make you throw up everything if you have food in it (i.e. bulimics). It may be because you were constantly throwing up after you had something to eat, so much so that you're stomach has gotten used to it.

Go to a doctor. I believe they make you eat small amounts at first (to trick your stomach there is nothing in there), and then start increasing the amount you eat every few weeks or so until your stomach is back to normal. Remember to also take vitamins and stuff.

[maharu.]

Yeah as everyone said, tell your parents and let them take you to a doctor because that's extremely bad for your health.
And honestly, you need to weigh more...don't say you're bigger than everyone else. You have to think in your mind that you NEED to weigh more.
I weigh 10 kg more than you and I'm 156 cm. And I don't think I'm fat, I think I'm average although people might disagree because people are like "man 60 kg is FAT".
I rather be 60 kg and be happy and healthy.

But yeah you really need to go to the doctor before its too late. You're really tall so you need to properly eat.

[Amanda Plz]

I think you have a disorder as well. Tell your parents and go to a doctor. I tell you this out of personal experience, this can get way worse if you don't get help.

[t1ffiexp]

Tell you parents & see a doctor, like everyone said. It's better to stop it before it gets worse. If you don't want to, have your BFF spend time with you and try to stop you from going to the restroom when you feel the urge to throw up. Start eating a little at a time, even if it's just a bite of food. I hope you feel better =)

[j i w o n.]

this can get serious. i think.
so if i were you i'd go tell your parents, regardless of the feelings you get(?) (like low self esteem or whatever)
b/c this has to do with your health.
i'm not too sure what's going on but if you don't get your nutrients from the foods you normally eat...
you can get really.. sick ish?

and you're seroiusly REALLY skinny haha. and erallly tall too (you should be a model)
anyways. yeah yo'ure perfectly fine the way you loook. and if your mom continues degrade you or something.
tell her to like stop. lol no offense but your mom's kind of harsh. i mean from your 411 and i'm being completely honest-- you are seroisuly really skinny. hoenstly i think if i were you i'd try to gain a little bit more LOL.
i mean unless if your mom's trying to make you a model or something and wants you to look really skinny then. no comment.

so um do go see a doctor, for your own health's sake.

[Balloon]

=_= I think your psychological problem is that you think you're fat.

Go to the doctor's. Lower your pride and go tell your parents.
What you have sounds like Bulimia. Or however you spell it. But you can never be sure.
If your boyfriend knows about it, then how come your parents don't? >_>

[Leyaya]

A lot of people don't seem to realize this, but eating disorders are something like a subconscious or conscious life style. It can get really hard to break out of the habit since your mind gets set into it. The best thing you can do is see a doctor before it turns into something that takes over your life.

I have a friend who has one and seriously it's not always something as simple as "go see a doctor and they'll help you get better". At one point she was as light as 70 lbs, and the way she reasoned her eating disorder was really depressing. It really can turn itself into something obsessive and people can center their entire lives around it. A lot of people who've gone through them describe it as being trapped. They want to stop but they can't.

You cannot force these people to eat, you cannot tell them that they're being stupid, and you cannot just simply expect them to get back into a normal life style right away. It's hard for people who've never experienced or met someone who has an ED to understand, so don't pressure yourself into talking to your mother or parents right now if you don't feel ready to. But DO talk to a doctor. You can always go to a youth clinic, and they're perfectly understanding when it comes to things. Even just picking up a pamphlet at a clinic is a good start.

The best way to deal with it is to understand it =] Your health is important, and it's good that you've addressed it, so good luck with trying to work it out.

[SM Town]

first of all,
you need to get to your senses and force yourself to stop.
would you rather die or be what you are? (^from what i hear you are, super skinny!)
AND trust me, the side effects are so much more worse than what you think.

yes, you lose a few pounds, but sooner or later, you will develop excess body hair from malnutrition,
you could have organ funtion disorders, your esophagus will tear, and your tooth will decay. stop destroying yourself!
I know how hard it is to break out of habits but...this is serious. you dont have an excuse. just...

stop.

then, when you think you've broke the habit,
go see a doctor when youre ready to recover.

[sOrastar]

your throat is hurting because of all the acid you're throwing up back through your esophagus

well guess what.. not only is your throat gonna have problems but keep it up and your teeth is gonna rottttttttttt


it's good you realize something is wrong.. and like everyone said.. get some help. if you're not afraid to tell soompi world.. then tell your parents.