Posted 27 May 2008 - 12:05 AM
I was thinking if this was supposed to be in the relationship, but come to think about it's not only about crush, it's about others too o__O;; Like friends.
Well, for me when I confessed my boyfriend that I liked my guy best friend during our relationship cause I felt very lonely cause he would always play DOTA, WOW, and other games and it was lack of communication so I was upset but my guy best friend was always there for me and made me smile and laugh. And I just confessed him today and he told me he was heartbroken and cried in the shower >__<;; And he kind of avoided me for like awhile, but we're good now.
Truth hurts, but sometimes they are best to tell. Keeping secrets from your lover is not a good thing to do.
Also, my friend confessed me that she slept with my crush (this was like long time ago though before I met my boyfriend) and I cried so much... T___T cause I trusted her... she would help me with finding about his personality and stuff. and she... back stabbed me by doing that. Sleeping with him. Seducing him, giving him the pleasure.
I was heart broken. I didn't talk to her for weeks, but I forgave her. Because she was upset that one day too because her dad was abusing her and she told me my crush was cheering up and she was very drunk and she had sex with him... and I was thinking about it.. I don't need to waste my time on that crush besides he never liked me and he was a player in the beginning and perverted person. So I hugged my friend and forgave her. But... now she's gone in my life T__T;; she got shot by one of my ex friends T__T;;
And like the other times... when my teacher confessed that I was supposed to get an F on MATH!! O__O I was like WHAT?! How is that possible?? And he told me that "Your dad threatened me to give you an A saying you are smart girl that I deserve better grade. I am very scared of your dad. But this is our secret between us >___<" I was like WTF?! >__<;; I don't deserve that A!! I was so mad at my dad. I didn't speak with him for a week and just ignored him. I was so embarrassed!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lets see.. I confessed my friend, lets say her name is Carol. I told Carol all the truth about how I felt about her, how annoying she was when she would always tell me about her poems she write. Honestly, I don't like writing poems nor reading one it's boring to me. Some are okay, but long ones or just... you know in general I disliked it. And yeah she cried... "How could you do this to me?!?!?!" And I told her "Truth hurts. But you are really annoying. That's all you talk about with me!! POEM POEM POEM!!!! Not other things!!! I feel like you are using me as a friend! I feel like I'm your imaginary friend to hear your DA*N POEMS ONLY!!!" I was so sick of it you had no idea. she would tell me it every SINGLE DAY!!!!!!! and every time i wanted to tell her about my problems, she didn't let me!!! -__-;; so yeah we stopped becoming friends... then i found out she became really emo O__O and that she cuts herself.. and i heard that everyone hates her because she's a brat? that's what i heard >__< i feel bad for her, but i found out from her other ex friends that dealt the same thing as me so yeah... i guess i wasn't alone? >__<;;
oh and when my dad confessed that he was getting married to a new woman.. i was upset.. i started playing games.. acting all gothic.. well i was more of gothic.. but no drugs involved. and i would get yelled by teachers for not doing homework. i would get sick cause i didnt know what this feeling was. it was because i was depressed that my parents were getting divorced i was so sad.. i wanted to escape. but i couldn't, nowhere to go. this was when i was in 6th grades too. i tried to commit suicide, but my best friend justin park saved me<333 took me to the hospital. i told him "promise me that you wont tell anyone about this" ^___^