Posted 28 December 2008 - 01:05 AM
Sooo...this is a fairly simple story, nothing big to expect...sorta.
Anyway, I had a crush on this guy who worked at Starbucks...we'll call him "M." And his friend was always there whenever I tried to hit on "M," let's call this guy "E." So E told me one day that M already had a gf...and that he (E) was still available *insert wink here* But he, of course, was only joking. As months went by, and many frequent Starbuck trips later...E and I got to know each other (err...I mean, I got to know him)...I used to stay hours and hours just to talk to him, even sometimes after close. The only problem was...I never told him anything about myself...because I knew from the start that he was probably in his 30's the first time I met him...while here I am, still a teenager...not even in college yet >.< He's 27...and I'm 17. He doesn't know that I'm 17...he tried to guess my age one day, he guessed that I was 24...and I had no heart to say "No, you're wrong. I'm 17." He's dropped so many hints...and even asked me to hang out a few times. He's a great person...and I have so many...feelings for him. But the thought of him being so close to 30 is like wow...he's really...old. I'm turning 18 in 6 months...should I wait until then to tell him my age? But even so...he's ten years older than me...and then he'd think about how when we first started talking, I was still a minor...isn't that a turn off? Is this okay? It's not just a crush anymore...I actually feel really drawn to him...I find myself longing to see him each and everyday. Going to Starbucks is no longer for that hot cup of coffee or cute "M" anymore...I realized that my only purpose is to see E...Although I keep all my personal info from him, it seems as though he's drawn to my "mysteriousness." Which isn't the case at all! I just don't want him to know my age! When he finds out...is that considered me lying to him? Even if I were only hiding the truth? Will that make him feel extremely deceived?
I know that he at least has a crush on me...but when he finds out my true "identity," how would he react? If you were a 27 year old guy, would you give it a shot with a 17 year old girl? What if you were 28 and she was 18? Even if she were legal, is a ten year age difference still okay? What should I do about this?