[L.Li-style]

I just need someone to listen. It's a bit long too.

My brother and I have a rocky relationship.

I won't go into details about this past year. He DID buy me a new MP3 a while ago..that was when our relationship was at the point I no longer sat in front for the car rides to school and I refused to talk to him. That was also at the point, I would clench my nails into my palm, until it really hurt. It left marks too.

I felt like throwing a knife at him. I couldn't be happier.

Until he bought me the Mp3, our relationship went well again. Until as of right now.

My friend wanted to borrow our guitar and drum sticks for rockband...

He came over and took it, and on the way asked my brother if he could borrow it. he said sure.

Right now, a couple of guests came over and wanted to play rockband. I just realized he never returned them to me.

He spazzed out at me and said ," never lend my stuff out to your friends ever again."

My friend that came over was ALSO his friend.

I didn't want to trouble anyone...and I called my friends house to go pick it up. He wasn't there but his mom told me I could come over.

I ran over there as fast as I ccould to go pick everything up. I ran back. not to mention i was dead tired.

When i came back I handed the things over to the guests and went into my brother's room because I felt embarassed and I was putting away a couple of other games.

I overheard my brother talking. He didn't know I was in his room where I could hear everything perfectly. If I came out, he would've trash talked me infront of everyone.

"She's a worthless B*tch. She can go to hell. Man, i dunno who the other guitar belongs to (there were two...another was HIS friends...who left it here over the weekend). F____. she's always screwing things up for me."<--- he said other things but I didn't hear and ran.

Edit//oh yeah. not to mention EVERYONE was dead silent when he was talking. This is how I heard EVERYTHING.

"IT WAS ____'S *friends's name* YOU DUMBNUT." And I walked upstairs.

"oh. so now you tell me B_tch."

HE SHOULD'VE KNOWN WHOSE THAT WAS. It was NOT my fault we didn't have the materials at that time. I didn't know we had people that wanted to play Rockband today.

Now I'm back to clenching my fists...And my nails are longer now that I don't play piano.

I'm at the point where I'm starting to bleeda little. it's hurting, but it seems like the only way I can relive my stress. Honestly...I can't point out what some of the things he's done to me this year before. I've tried SO hard to not make him angry after he bought me the MP3.

I just wanted someone to listen. I seriously just wanted someone to listen. Thanks for reading. As for advice, I will read but I most likely won't follow. Please don't ask me to talk him, my parents, or such. Why? He WON'T listen. Trust me, my parents have tried. i've cried infront of him and my parents before. All he does is a sarcastic " sarry."

notes: No, I don't bleed like "WHOA". it's just little stains. It only happened once because my nails are long again. not to mention sharp. The PS3, Rockband, ect ect. My brother DID NOT pay for it. My dad bought it for OUR entertainment. He acts like it is his.

Final Edit b4 closing: No. this wasn't about the game. It started with the game but then it turned out he was trashing me infront of guests and people I don't know of my age. Soompi was a good way of having pepole listen. I have read all the comments but, and I'm happy most of you didn't give me too much advice. Sounds a tad odd, but that's what's on my mind right now. thanks all.

[asianami]

Aw I'm sorry about this.

I deal the same pain as you do, except from my parents EVERY SINGLE DAY.
I feel how you feel. It's so freaking annoying like you have an extent of how much you can take it ya know?

Too bad you can't convince your parents to kick him out ya know? If he's like 18+.

Are you an incoming sophomore or something? Two more years to deal with this crap and you're FREEEEEE.

And if you need to rant it again to someone you can always PM me and I'll listen. (Even if you don't know me haha) 'Cause I understand what you're going through.

Trust me.

I hope your brother stops being an ass for a bit.. when's his birthday?
You should seek revenge on him that day hehe

[vegtansamtof]

Just ignore him.

Yeahyeah, Everyone's gonna tell you to try and work it out.
But seriously, this guy doesn't seem like he deserves the energy you put into the relationship.

[L.Li-style]

Asianami: He's 18. Going into university...hopefully. I won't tell you about what happening about that but it's not good.
vegtansamtof: No. Whenever something of his goes missing he blames me and screams at me. It's pretty hard to avoid. haha...

[sonwily]

if me and my sister had a fight like that i think i would kinda tear up

[chaeBIcheeks_x3]

damn i seriously know what you're going through
ive been through that w/ my bro and worse
but my parents finally kicked him out
and i think he totally deserves it.

I hope that one day ur bro gets what he
deserves and you dont have to feel
anger and pain because of him.

LOL RANT SOME MORE IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER BECAUSE WE'RE ALL LISTENING =]

[asianami]

Asianami: He's 18. Going into university...hopefully. I won't tell you about what happening about that but it's not good.
vegtansamtof: No. Whenever something of his goes missing he blames me and screams at me. It's pretty hard to avoid. haha...

oh let me guess, he's planning on commuting from home instead of at campus? DDD:

u know what

make a doll of him - a stress doll

whenever ur angry at him you can use the doll to take out ur anger at him. Like, strangle it, throw at the wall, ANYTHING.

that would be fun actually...

[azurette]

There's a good chance it's just a phase.
This kind of thing is so common at your age. I've gone through it with my brother.

[L.Li-style]

chaeBicheeks__x3: I feel bad if they kick him out. He was kicked out before but I cried to my dad to not do it. So my dad let him have one more chance. He blew it off the next day by doing what he did. *dun worry, he didn't do anything illegal. just stupid computer games* You seriously don't know how happy your comment made me feel. ^-^
azurette: I guess it is a phase. But I would like to know how long this phase will last. It has been like this ever since 4 years ago. And I'm sure it will continue as long as he is int the house. It was only off for a while when he bought me the MP3. I seriously tried REALLY hard then to keep up the okay relationship. I ate his bag of cotton candy and I was going to go out to buy him two bags. Not so sure anymore...

[angelixer]

Ever since 4 years ago? That ain't no phase. If he doesn't soften up after a calm conversation with him and continues being sarcastic about it... I don't know.

I do know that some parents nowadays need to get their act together and do kids how they did back in the day...

I remember how me and my brother used to fight once in a while. And girl, do I remember what my parents used to do get us to respect each other and get our act together...

If yall two can't figure it out, it's your parents who need to do something about it.

A lot of kids today have so much pride and are way too confident and parents are too weak to put them in their place.

[dancingbymyself]

They way you feel about him, he probably feels about you. Honestly everyone hates
their siblings at times and complains to their friends about them.
If your brother knew you could hear him, then he probably wouldn't have said it.
It just seems like you're being a bit emo.
You annoy him, he annoys you.

[L.Li-style]

They way you feel about him, he probably feels about you. Honestly everyone hates
their siblings at times and complains to their friends about them.
If your brother knew you could hear him, then he probably wouldn't have said it.
It just seems like you're being a bit emo.
You annoy him, he annoys you.

OH I WISH. no seriously. I'm NICE to him. I give him birthday wishes and EVERYTHING. Ever since he stopped playing with me in elementary, he started to push me away. And I could tell. I didn't bother him after that. I'm seriously SO nice to him. He was like the "meh. whatever" type. He started hating me first and then i didn't start until 7th grade where I began to talk back when he was screaming at my mother and grandma. Honestly. He's so fake towards other adults too. Yes, he is good at socializing...but behind the curtains....argh. And about him knowing if he knew i was listening....if I came out of the room:

"You're such a stupid B___TCH. Always F*king up things for me. L___, you are so F____king stupid. WHY did you lend MY things over to someone else?? BLAH BLAH BLAH."

^ HE would've said something like that. I know this, because I've been through this again and again.

Plus if i came out wouldn't know what to say because I would be crying >.>

[[babii3×chiink] ~♥]

aw, i know how that is
i think with age, your relationship will get better. really.
the only communication w/ my brother use to be profanity all the way.
and then eventually we stopped talking to each other
and we live in the same house, too.
now two years later ..
we just started talking. weird.
its okay.
its always true. what they say.
its only when your young.

[j.a*star]

I know how you feel...I have a brother too who can get really annoying and mean. I try to talk to him and he doesn't listen...I complain to my parents about it but they don't do much. Since he's 18, and your brother is too...just wait until he goes to university or moves out.
I'm waiting for my brother to move out...because I feel it'll be better if we have a more distant relationship so we won't argue as much.
And I'm waiting for him to get another girlfriend because he really did seem to soften up a bit when he was with his ex and suddenly became nice to me.
I don't know if this was much help, but good luck and try to talk to your brother more and avoid making him angry !　︿︿

[ajlee613]

when u guys get older, things will get better, dont hold a grudge against him, just hate the way he acts right now, cuz he will change, as u will also change.

one day if u have to face the hard parts of the real world, u will have to defend eachother, when u are cut, ur blood makes a scab to protect you, one day when u are bled dry, ur brother will spill the same blood to protect you.

this is why it is called family, staying together, even when it is hard, even when u dont want to, it is loyalty.

[ashtee]

I think we all owe alot to our siblings, cause the experiences we have with them make us stronger as people--and we learn how to deal with these experiences if we ever face them later on
I have had some pretty nasty fights with my brother (he's 2 years older than me) but they rarely ever last a day. physical fights included.
we're always getting on each others nerves, arguing, and we try our hardest to get the other one in trouble..(he's always more successful doing this than I am)
we're mean to each other....but we know that in the end, we're still blood.
I know it seems like your brothers being an a-hole..but trust me, if you were ever in trouble your brother would be the first person to defend you.
he probably just says and does these things to test you and cause he thinks you can 'take' it. he thinks you're strong enough.

I know you said you aren't looking for advice, but the only thing I can suggest is killing him with niceness.
it may seem hard to do, but just be really polite and nice to him no matter how rude he is to you. at some point he'll realize that you don't deserve what you're getting from him and reprimand himself.

[lackluster]

did you ever realize
men are very posessive

you never touch a man's belonging's
or he'll go crazy.

[shirotaka]

I think you're being rather dramatic and emo. He didn't seem to do anything wrong. You said your friend had never returned the game, but did you make any effort before to get it back? With his "sure" it sounded more like a yeah I don't mind. From that I'm thinking that he was expecting you to go get it since it was your friend. He probably was just complaining about you like all brothers do. All you have to do is deal with it. Also you're acting rather ignorant if you go to people and talk without expecting comments and advice because we're all human and we all like to voice our opinions. As well as the fact that you're bleeding, I hope you're not asking for sympathy out of us because that's pathetic. If not, then I'm sorry you're emo and stressed.

[sukixyume]

In that case, he can't completely blame you for the guitar issue since even he agreed to let the person borrow it right? It sounds pretty serious, I'm not sure much of what you can do at this point. x_x Just try to avoid him and don't talk to him, hopefully he'll get better at treating you. We all have sibling issues, at one point or another, you're not the only one. Good luck. D:

[AiriinxKumori]

ah ur story makes me fear the relationship of my own lil bro and sis
they're relationship isn't that great either. hopefully they won't turn out like yours
anyways thats not helping. maybe its the way you communicate with him
it might seem like you're really nice but to him it may sound another way.
or maybe its the fact you're younger and can't benefit him in any way like parents and older siblings can.
then again he did scream at your parents so thats iffy.
and the last theory could be the mystery of men having a hard time expressing themselves.
he could be having issues with himself and just venting.

hmm...the only way i think that could work is to ignore. not "like hide from him" ignore.
if you could try to front an emotionless face when he yells at you then when he's done just walk out on him. thats what i do with my mom and she starts to stop doing. just walk out during his rant even if he follows you. just keep going. maybe even go outside and take a walk away from him. if you come back and he's still like that then just sit there with a blank face while he vents.unless he goes physical don't do anything else. that way if he notices that none of his rants is affecting you then he'll possibly stop. my theory from personal experience with mother.