[marryu<3]

I'm feeling this way right now, and I wanted to be able to get some worries off my chest.
Please share if you've ever felt this way or feel this way right now.
It's 4:39 am here right now, and I can't sleep. I can't sleep because I'm worried about my future... and my life right now. I'm always seen as this happy, smiley girl. I really want to be her. I really want to smile for the world and let the world see that I'm okay. I feel so alone. I have friends and they're all really kind, but I feel like I'm floating on an island by myself. It's so important to love yourself and feel that you are beautiful in your own eyes. I don't feel that way. I wish I did, but I don't. I want to get into grad school, but my transcript looks so bad. It doesn't even matter if I'm in honours rihght now. They'll take one look at my transcript and shoo me away. I can't imagine what it would be like for my family who has been so supportive of me all this time. I feel like I'm in my own little bubble. I hate bubbles. I feel like I'm drowning, drowning. Isn't there some fresh air out there for me to breath? I wish somene would pull me out of this ocean and tell me everything will be okay.

[ulat_bulu]

I'm like this also. Yeah. I'm serious.
My life is all messed up. The last time I felt that I was completely happy with my life was... When I was in Junior High School.
And it means I haven't been entirely happy for 6 years.

Especially when I got to college. This is even better.
My grades are bad. My parents' are supportive but they're crazy about grades.
I think it's because actually I don't want to study my major I'm studying right now.

Even though I realize, "this is not good, I have to cheer up and I have to find my way back to happiness again"
But I can't seem to do it.
If you ask me how to get out from this misery, I also don't know.

[witchery]

I'm like this as well....
I take ages to fall asleep because when I lie on my bed I start thinking about all these things that depress me
I just have this uncontrollable habit of pulling together all the negative memories that happened that day, and replaying them in my mind, every night
I always feel like I have to wait until it's really late in the night before I hit the bed, so that I don't have to spend so much time just laying there and thinking about random sh*t
*sigh*

[Claxif]

Uughss D: -hugs.- I feel like this too. My grades sucks and my parent really don't care since they know it won't be better... My school I'm in right now sucks and I really don't know anyone there and I just can't be bothered to get to know anyone .. But yeah, maybe you should talk to someone with same situation or someone close..

I'm here if you ever need to talk, pm me and I'll give you my mail. Take care <3

[motsfleuris]

*hugs*

I thought it was just me. I hope you're feeling better by the time you see my reply.

Every night, I used to pray to be happy, but recently I stopped praying because it just seems to get worse, and I get tired.
It just seems to get worse and worse,
but when it's morning and I have things to do, I feel like I can forget everything.

Look, just think of it this way. Your family is your family, no matter what. I think they'll love you all the same. The only thing that would happen when they look at your transcript, is that you'd get compared to other people. If you're in Honours class, that's great. I think you have a chance. Right now all you can do is to do as much as you can to improve your transcript.

If you don't get in (knock on wood!) your parents will support you, because they want you to have a great future.

You'd have stumbled, but you need to pick yourself up. That's life. Think of what your mum and dad have done for you, and what you want to give them, what you want to have, and think of your future, and keep on walking towards it. Fight for it, do your best. When you feel lazy, remind yourself that you always want to see your parents smiling.

Cause when everyone is smiling, won't you smile too?

Open yourself up slowly, I don't think it's necessary to have to lean on someone, but if you have to, I'm sure your friends would listen. Have a bit more faith in them

I really understand what you're going through, I really really really do.

It's so stressful to study and to fail and to study and study and fail and other people don't seem to put in as much effort and yet pass--- but life's not fair, all we have now would be the experience to become stronger.

I hope you feel better soon. If it gets really bad, I think you can talk to your parents about it.

*pats* Smile! Think of all the good things you have!!

[wonny]

1:08 AM here

im sad right now,

because of myself

i wonder why i make the same stupid mistakes again,
i wonder why im like this every single time, leaving it until the last minute...

and im sad also
because i started listening to the song 'what love is'


and i realised

thats what i had with you.

did i miss my chance?

________

anyway, to the people in this thread
i give you all a huge hug

[eclipsesque.]

Aww .. Don't be so sad, hun.
I believe once in a while, many of us feel the same way as you now.
I used to be like that too.
But, sometimes I just realized, life is not just about good results and grade.
Don't let yourself keep on drowning.
I believe life could be much better.
As long as there sun is still shining tomorrow, there is always new hope for you, me and everyone.
Keep on moving and trying, who knows what will happen tomorrow
Life is hard, but one thing is you can always try.
*sending some hugs here*

[Irysinon]

Every night is anxiety hour for me, so I can't really sleep until later. I can't relax. That's why I want to sleep for as long as I can. Listening to music helps sometimes.

[marryu<3]

Hey everyone,
I feel better now. I just have to think about it this way: The semester has started already. I have to try my best. I will graduate with honours. I'll just have to prove to them that I deserve to get in because I really, truly love what I'm doing right now.
If I don't like the way I look, I'll just play around with it. Afterall, I mean, I didn't get a Chi straightener for nothing.

Thanks for not making me feel alone.

[Claxif]

Yey, you feel better! ;D Keep it going girl. <3~

[Honey.bee]

Aww. Just because your alone doesn't mean your lonely, right? Look at those people who you love, they will never be apart of you. I hope you can work things out now. ^^

[fuuko-chan]

Almost 7AM here and I haven't slept yet since last night. ^^
But I'm not really sad. I just find it hard to sleep... always LOL.
I'm like a vampire. xD I used to be sad during nights too before
but now, I'm trying my best to be optimistic. It's always better
to be that way. It saves you from loads of stress and unnecessary
bitter feelings. ^^ Just try to always look at the bright side.
There's always one in every situation.

[Kayuu]

Yes, that happens to me.
Sometimes I think about those bad grades and I get frustrated and eventually cry...
Like in my head I say, "Ugh, why couldn't I do better?"
Gawsh, I have so much tutors and classes after school and I always have so much pressure on me and I feel so stressed so then sometimes, I feel sad when I'm trying to sleep.

[mango-iee]

Yeah, I'm like this as well sometimes when I can't sleep at night.
I always think about the stuff from the past and I have to carry it out and think about it all over again like decisions to make in the past. Did I make the right choice or should I feel sad cause I chose the wrong choice and here I am, feeling all sad in the middle of the night. *sigh*
Haha, but its life. If there's a positive side then there's gotta be a negative side and there will always be a solution to everything. ^ ^

[dolly mi dolly]

everynight i'm like this..
and right now too. i'm writing a paper and its coming out not too good..
its like i can only think about the things that hurt me. >_<
i think late in the night is such a depressing time..i end up thinking too much and everyone's either asleep or gone and theres no one there. *sigh*

[I.like.foood]

Lmao, it not late here. 10:21pm.
I feel happy : )

[choliese]

I used to be like that too, worrying every night possibly about everything that happened in the past or might happen in the future.
I've learned to be ignorant and just see what happens now, cuz the future is unpredictable and the past is over.
think of it that way, the present is all you really have ^^ althou i know it can't be helped sometimes

[ddalgi]

i feel this way at night and in the morning when i wake up
it happened this morning too so i didnt go to school again XD

[damyoungji]

Whoa, I am glad that I am not the only one who feels this way (although it does stink that several of us go through this).

I have been sleeping after 3 A.M. pretty much for over a year now. I feel so bad about myself and I feel like I don't deserve anything.

My friends don't know what I am going through right now. Some do, but they don't know how I feel and how I am being treated by others.

It is a good thing that you have your friends and family around you. I get a lot of hell from my family, especially my father ..

.. who looks down on people who are not smart and he pretty much think all stupid people deserve to die and be killed in this world.

[fairytaIe]

There sure are a lot of depressed and stressed out member in soompi... you all deserve an *e-hug*