[arianna90]

okay i dont know if i like this guy or not. lets call him A.
we used to be neighbours when i was 5-6 years old. we used to cycle around the neighbourhood and i used to follow him from the back and he'd try to get away from me LOL. it was those cute innocent times.i reckon i had a lil bit of a crush on him then. LOL
then he moved to another suburb and i didnt see him again til i got into the same elementary school as A. omg! A didnt even know i existed. the whole time i was in elementary school, he didnt know i was the girl who played with him when we were kids. i still had a crush on him then. he's cute!
we went to different highschools and i never saw him after that.

until.................

i was 15 and my mother thought i needed a science tutor so she sent me to this tutor. well what are the odds of that! he went to the SAME tutor!!! LOL.
i played it cool of course, acted like i didnt know him LOL. we got to know each other and i often saw him staring at me during tutor lessons. but the downside was, i was in a relationship then. with my first real boyfriend. but i thought about how much i liked him when i was a kid, i decided to get to know him and just see what happens. after i broke up with my bf, he started calling me, and we talked and talked til the wee hours in the morning. and i sort of told him that i was the girl who rode the pink bicycle who always followed him around LOL. who waved at him whenever he passes by. basically i told him everything that we had been through all the summers we spent together. LOL. he was like.......omg are you serious, if only i knew....... he was really sad he didnt know i was that girl and he told me he sort of had a crush on me too! but when he moved, he didnt get the chance to see me again LOL. i never got his name, and he never got mine.
after a few months of getting to know each other, he confessed to me. he told me that he really thinks hes in love with me. he even gave me a huge teddy bear on my birthday with a love letter with it. it was kind of sweet but i was not over my ex at the time and i was really confused i needed time to think.he got really disappointed and angry we grew apart. he became a playboy and got together with girls in his highschool while i just go with the flow and a few relationships came my way.

i really thought our friendship was over. he was really pissed off then.last year he moved to a school in new zealand.. i stayed here. it was not until a few months ago, he added me in facebook and messaged me asking for my msn. we kind of fixed our relationship and became friends again. i kind of got to know the other side of him now. maybe we got older, it was not like before anymore. he's cooler now. we chat almost everynight for the lastt couple of months. and he helped me a lot. we even study together through webcams and video calls. he's really nice and a really goodd friend. recently, he confessed again for the second time. he told me that he's really lonely there and he needs a gf but not just any gf he wants me to be his gf. turned out, after i rejected him he tried really hard to move on he tried dating different girls but he just couldnt move on. he'll be on his myspace looking through my profile all the time.

a few days ago i posted a post on my blog, its about this guy i met in school. he had never spoken a word to me but out of the blue came up to me the other day. and the next day, i humiliated myself infront of him. you dont wana know what happened LOL! so A read my post. and i think he got jealous. sounded like this..

A: i read your blog.. hmm.
me: hahaha yeah i totally embarrassed myself.
A: why didnt you tell me about this guy?
me: i didnt think it was a big deal. i only posted it because of the incident.
A: hmm i dont feel like chatting. bye. i love you.
me:hey..........*he offlined and my messages werent sent*

i dont know what to do. he didnt even went online today. ive known him all my life and there are times when i think we're meant for each other cause we always end up bumping into each others' lives over and over again.and now it totally sucks. i mean i am really not a fan of LDRs and i dont know if i really like him. cause i havent seen him in a long time. AND I REALLY DONT WANT TO LOSE HIM CAUSE HE IS A BIG PART OF MY LIFE NOW. i dont know if i can have an online long distance relationship. its driving me bonkers!!!!!!!!! what do i do?????????/HELPPPPPPP!!!

[abercrombie]

patch this thing up first.
Say sorry and stuff.
Cause he obviously cares about you.
And you care about him.
Cause, it wouldnt be such a big deal if you didnt.
I think you like him from what i can see.
It's just you're in denial cause you dont want to do a LDR.

[lovejyk]

I think you should just try to patch your relationship off with him. You don't want to cut him completely out of your life and never talk to him again, right? Just let him know what you think about long-distance relationships and how you're not really up for that.

Is there a chance that he might end up moving back to where you are now?

I don't know, would it of worked out between you guys if he never moved? Can you see you and him together, as a couple? Just try to remain good friends with him and continue to try to be sensitive towards his feelings until he moves on or until you stop caring about hurting his feelings (lol).

[shakki]

well,
do YOU like him?
also,
after he read your blog, being jealous and all,
it shows that he really loves you and cares about you
and you wanting to know what hes thinking and stuff,
it shows that you care too
patch it up
i think you should give him a chance to be together

[arianna90]

Is there a chance that he might end up moving back to where you are now?




well, he is coming back this summer.. one of his sister is here. and he was so excited about this he told me he wants to take pictures with me to keep and will see me everyday.however, i dont know if he would still want that after i hurt his feelings the other day. i was being too cool about it until its cold towards him. i guess he's really sad about this. ill try to send him a text message or something since he's never online for the past two days.

It's just you're in denial cause you dont want to do a LDR.

LOL.maybe..i dont know. oh man im confused now!!! LOL. but LDRs are hard right? anyone been in one and survived? anyone? cuz most of my friends broke up before you can say the word 'LONG DISTANCE'.

[cannedpeaches]

i think you should try being in a LDR with him..it seems worth it! it may be a coincidence that you guys keep 'bumping' into eachother..or maybe its fate!!!!!!

[arianna90]

i think you should try being in a LDR with him..it seems worth it! it may be a coincidence that you guys keep 'bumping' into eachother..or maybe its fate!!!!!!

you think so? he thinks its fate too. i havent heard from him though. maybe he's busy in uni.

[arianna90]

update:he hates me

[k3shuyun]

I think you guyz should try to talk it out and think before u things like that or else its gonna just end up in a dieaster. When you
r in these situations be more serious and tell them the truth and be more striaghtforward. Thats my tip for u =]

[Lovin' you]

To me, I think it's fate, yet you're letting it slide off. You guys end up finding each other in every way after being separated. He's obviously cares and loves you a lot and too hurt when you posted up the blog about some guy. Is there even a chance to where you like him and would give him a chance? If he's not online, send him a message or text. Don't lose someone just because of things like this.

[arianna90]

omggg...im going crazy! he wont talk to me. i did apologize but we ended up at each others' throat
out of anger and fury, we said i hate you to each other cuz the chat sounded like this.he can be emotional and rude sometimes.

A: i think i over reacted about the whole thing. do you want me to apologize? cant you see im waiting for you to apologize to me instead. ive been waiting for you to do that.
A:youre so stupid! why are you acting like you just dont care.
(i was away, so i didnt reply after 15 mins or so)
me: oh im sorry i was busy
me:im really sorry okay.
A: for what?
me: for anything i did wrong. i really am.i do care.........
A: you know how i feel when im online with you. i feel reaaaaalyy sh!tty! stupid!
me:what the hell! you're stupid!

..........goes on and on. and there were a lot of stuff i cant type here.

isit the distance? that made him act that way. he sounded really angry and i could sense paranoia too. we're not even together and he's already acting this way. i cant imagine actually BEING with him.

his msn personal message= I HATE YOU!

obviously thats for me.

i dont hate him. i want us to be like normal again..

[twig*star]

you might like to talk on the phone or through letters or even webcam.

many relationships have gone down the drain due to msn ...... xD

[yellow103]

lol its sounds like his just a little kid
and his insecure, also has low self esteem

why do you need to apologise, if his a man he would talk to you reasonably and from what ive seen, you didnt do anything wrong

i think it wont be well even if youve stayed with him
but then, one thing is ... as a girl, dont apologise to him since you did nothing wrong
a proper man dont need or want his girl to beg and apologise

[ZWD]

^ Unless his ego was like WOAH.

[arianna90]

HAHAHA GUYS, HE APOLOGIZED!!!!! I HAVE A REASON TO BE ANGRY RIGHT? sorry for the block letters, im just excited!lol.