[Babiebim]

So this is going to be long... Idk. not really.

Last year I used to be so outgoing, always talking to people and socializing, and also very opinionated. Despite the fact that I had high school and night classes at the local college and i'm on a dance team, I still found time to hang with my friends occasionally. I used to talk sooo much that my friends were used to just listening to me, because I always listen to them in return.

So here is the problem, I went away during the summer (on an extended vacation for personal reasons). Actually, I didnt attend the last week and a half of school, I had to leave and go somewhere it was really urgent, and my parents didn't let me tell anyone where we were going. So all I could do was email my boyfriend to tell him I have to go and I wouldnt be there and I dont know when I'd be back, but once I am, I will explain everything to him. The issue took over three months to take care of, once I was back, school was already in session for a week. At first all of my friends went all happy and welcomed me back. Then I found out that in the time I was gone, quite a few people join our group, and because of my unexplained absence, I was the stranger to them instead of them being strangers to me (I hope you get this.. the whole new people in an already established group thing). My boyfriend also started dating some of our close friends while i was away, I dont blame him, he didnt cheat on me and he went to the airport and picked me up and all, I cant blame him coz I took off without any explanation for 3 months. That's really long time for a teenager. But now because of my extended absences there were new found dramas, between the girls who dated him once or twice, someone went to prom with him instead of me (i left before prom) and they're just tearing each other apart, I'm trying to stay out of it but they're pulling me in so hard. Please mind this is all between the girls who like him, he's still with me, and we're doing perfectly fine.

Another problem was that I started to get really quiet, I stopped talking to people and only talk to my best friend and my boyfriend, sometimes at lunch i'd just not show up to eat with everyone else and go to the library and be by myself. And some people have been telling me how they loved how much I socialize back then and now I'm just closing on myself, not talking to anyone, not having anything to say. Now it's hard for me to even get in a conversation with my friends, because they made new friends, and their new friends arent really my friends and some hate me a lot. Its just really awkward between me and my group. I dont know what to do with them, I dont even know how to just strike up a convo like I always did last year.

Any help and advice would be appreciated.

I know this was very vague, I dont even know the question I'm asking, all I know is that I need to tell someone this, or I'm going to explode.
How do I start talking to my friends again? How do I stop girls from attacking me because of my bf? Is this sudden shyness a phase?


PS. The reason I was away was because I was hospitalized in Virginia for various testings for the whole summer, I cant tell anyone I know this because they would freak out and associate all sort of weird things with me.

[Villian]

ok umm you need to relax babe

let it all out *pat* *pat*

go find a new boyfriend and get well!

[l1lvi3tqt]

im sorry to hear what you been through.

you know people change, sometime once you went through something big , your life and personality will change dramaticly. do you want to go back to the old you? if you do i think it will only take time for you to do that. if you dont want to be like before then you should be just who you are.


about your bf issue, if he loves that much then he wouldnt do that, but i guess hs is different but yeah tell those girls to back off but its really up to your bf because if he shows he isnt interested they will get the hint and get lost.

good luck sweetie

[Trinity <3]

aw ): sorry for what you've been through lately..

anyways, you should take some time to develop if you want back to your old self again.

even i went to camp for about 1 week or so, (buddhist camp), and came back totally different. i was so separated from my family, i couldn't talk, i couldn't eat, couldn't do anything and i had no reason why. i was pretty much hypnotized, and finally went back to my own self in about 2 weeks. i know it won't compare to what you've been through, it's probably not even the same. but things take time.

you've been away from your friends/boyfriend for so long, 3 months? that's a pretty long time. people shouldn't expect you to come back who you were before, it will just take some time.

for your bf problem, i'm guessing you're fine with that he dated? the two other girls. maybe he should tell them that they should just lay off, you're with him anyways. he waited for you for 3 months and still came back to you in the end so obviously there's no competition with you and those two girls. tell them to back off yourself and stand up for yourself.

it takes time to change, this is probably just a phase. (:

[小甜密]

Sounds like things are changing around you, reflect on it and see if you want to start to make new friends.

[Babiebim]

Thanks guys. I tried to talk a little bit more, actually making an effort to sound like myself, if i still dont feel comfortable trying to be like i used to be... i will give this new personality a try.

About my boyfriend, when I said he dated, I meant he went to a couple of parties with the girl, or on a dinner date. I'm probably just making excuses for myself since he's one of the only people i have at that school right now though.