[小甜密]

If one day, you wake up and find that one of the people you care and love most suddenly left this planet. How would one feel?

The feeling is unbearable, right?

Like a thousand needles piercing through your heart, suffocating in a sea of sorrow, disbelief. Where you desperately trying to get out, but couldn't. Agonizing, tormenting pain. As if a tiny part of you just dies along with them.

Certain people you hold dear the most just goes. Without warnings. Without notices. Without goodbyes. They just leave. All you have left of them are memories, a video recorder full of their images in your heart.

These days... nobody longs for them to happen.


Have anybody experienced this sort of pain before? & How to deal with this?

[sushiwhore]

i've had that feeling before with my bf ... it ws during a break up we had. he all of a sudden dissappeared that night after he dropped me off.. i couldn't peice together what happened but recalled he wanted to swim. and thought he went swimming in the ocean and drowned and died.


i couldn't stop crying. my heart hurt so much =(

[ulat_bulu]

I think... I'd lose some spirit to live.
But I don't think I will commit suicide. Because that won't do anything. It's not like I will meet him again even I commit suicide.
I guess I have no choice but to live and move on.
But I think I can never wipe the tears from my eyes. Just thinking of it makes me speechless.

[Kira_Hyuu]

Omg yeah brings back heaps of memories...it's like when i finally found like my s/o she had to move away i mean we were on like a 2 year relationship...we purposely enrolled in the same school together, both of us tired so hard to get into the same school and finally when we did...it all came apart; when her family needed to move to the States....i was like destroyed for about 2 weeks; like i acted like it was all cool and everything but i was honestly dying inside....like when she finally told me it's farewell - i seriously broke down and like cried for hours....

[koolaidd]

ohh jeez i was having a conversation about this yesterday

i can't imagine it. just thinking about it makes me want to cry, and the thing is something like that almost happened, when his mom called me and told me he was in the hospital because he had an aneurysm and i was on vacation across the country. i couldn't sleep for days and spent the week crying, but he's okay now, and it taught me to never take him for advantage because he can disappear one day so easily

[scatter_me]

ohh jeez i was having a conversation about this yesterday

i can't imagine it. just thinking about it makes me want to cry, and the thing is something like that almost happened, when his mom called me and told me he was in the hospital because he had an aneurysm and i was on vacation across the country. i couldn't sleep for days and spent the week crying, but he's okay now, and it taught me to never take him for advantage because he can disappear one day so easily

Awww, that's really sweet.

Tbh, I don't want to think about it because i know that surely one day that will happen, and then the pain will be unbearable. I'd feel empty, like i've lost the meaning of life. Words couldn't really describe it.

[sodaniechea]

Ah, memories are flowing in now :[
When I found out that I lost my best friend of 13 years, it felt as if everything inside had shattered. My body went numb, yet my heart was aching so much. I cried every night for a long time. There's not a day that goes by without me thinking of him once, and it's soon to be 3 years since his passing. -.- Sometimes I still ask why

The only way I got over it, was just time.

[GazelMa]

I think I would lose the will to live, but I'd still keep living with the thoughts of others who care about me in my head.
They wouldn't want me to suffer.
But I'd be extremely depressed, esp. with my boyfriend if he died.

[Raix]

It killed when someone I didn't even know that well passed away. let alone someone I really love and care about. I'd probably just...sink.

[ketchup?]

I think about that a lot.
My grandma raised me and has been there for me since day one. I love her more than anything in the world and I'd give up everything for her. She's 74 right now. I'm always praying that she'll never leave me but inevitably it will happen one day. It's worse when you see over the years, she can't do things she used to be able to do. And you just know it could happen any time but you just don't know when. It frustrates me and it breaks my heart. I'll be going off to college in two years and moving out. I keep thinking what would happen if she goes away when I leave. And what if I don't get to say goodbye? I know I'll go insane. When she left for vacation in Vietnam for three months, there was not one night I did not cry over her. Aw man this is making me cry. I better stop ><

[小甜密]

Ah, memories are flowing in now :[
When I found out that I lost my best friend of 13 years, it felt as if everything inside had shattered. My body went numb, yet my heart was aching so much. I cried every night for a long time. There's not a day that goes by without me thinking of him once, and it's soon to be 3 years since his passing. -.- Sometimes I still ask why

The only way I got over it, was just time.

ahh time is always of great value. thanks for reminding me!

[hmong_lubpaj]

i've never gone through this but i'm sure all humans will go through it at least once in their life.

i... *sighs* i would cry so much, my heart would hurt a lot, i'd try to find all my memories that i can of that person, all the pictures the videos the messaging...it would be hard to live and eat and go on without them. thoughts of disbelief would run through my mind at first. i don't want to go through this anytime soon. ><

[`LANE]

i'd be devastated. my world would have totally 180 or 360'd on me.

i've never experienced it myself but i'd rather not..
thre is someone who is the daughter of one of my mom's friend.. her story is tragic, makes me sad whenever i think about such things.

[WENJJANG]

I don't even want to think about it because I wouldn't know what I would do.

[amyoii]

I don't want to think about that. I know it's coward but I can't imagine how I'm going to continue on living.

[Yashi]

it's unbearable. you get the "i want to go with him/her" feeling for a couple of weeks. when i saw my father for the first time after they called us and told us the news, we all sobbed uncontrollably. it's a weird thing to say, but it kind of felt like someone just ripped my heart out of my chest when i was crying because i was crying so hard. when i watched the casket get lowered, i felt numb, still shocked, and empty.

i actually didn't tell everyone. i just told them if they needed to know (e.g. teachers who wanted to know why i was absent). i think i got angrier. and i guess you could say that i put up some sort of front/shield when i was at school -- i was still the same, old me, nothing different. i cried a lot by myself for the first couple of weeks. now, i just think about him everyday. i cry when i see pictures and remember the funeral.

[tofu plushie]

I would literally die on the inside and just become a numb shell. There are so many people I care about and of them just to be gone is more than I can bear. I mean I have cried for people that have passed that I barely knew from school so to have that happen to the people I really love and I care about, it would be thousand times worse. Just the thought if it makes me feel ill. Even though sometimes I don't get along with my family I can not imagine them all being gone. I definitely wouldn't know what to do if that happened.

[AsianL0ve]

i have thought about this before and jsut thinking about it brought tears to my ears.
I rember I use to cry when I hear someone pasted away even if I didn't know them because I'd see picture of them everywhere and videos of them and how much someone misses them. It just puts me in their shoes like damn..
I think I'd be a wreck. But I think as one of the soompier says, Time.

[xohprecious]

I have no idea how I'd move on with my life knowing that part of it is gone forever.

[Azngel]

i've had that feeling before with my bf ... it ws during a break up we had. he all of a sudden dissappeared that night after he dropped me off.. i couldn't peice together what happened but recalled he wanted to swim. and thought he went swimming in the ocean and drowned and died.


i couldn't stop crying. my heart hurt so much =(

so the guy in your avatar passed away from drowning?