[ulat_bulu]

Okay this is a long read. This happened 2 years ago but I still can't forget about it. I need some advice/words from you. Please help me.

He was my best friend's crush. They got really close. At first, I just think of him as an ordinary friend. But eventually, there was something deep inside my heart... I wanted to be with him.

One day, my best friend told me that she lost her interest in him. She said he took a really long time to make a confession to her. She avoided him, made him wondering all the time. He asked me what was wrong with my best friend. I didn't know how to tell him, so I just said, "why don't you ask her by yourself?"
I couldn't tell him the truth. I really couldn't.

Then, my best friend went out with another guy. I didn't say or do anything. I just pissed at her. My unrequited love was totally in love with her, but she lost her interest in him just because a stupid reason?? I can't believe it!!

Whenever we hung out, she didn't even want to walk beside him. I guess it's not good to leave him walking alone by himself so I accompanied him. This happened whenever we hung out.

Gradually, my feelings toward him became stronger and stronger. I really felt happy when we walked together. By that time, I just broke up with my boyfriend and he was disappointed by my best friend, so I think we were the same.

He was the one who always cheer me up when I was down. He's an introverted boy, he didn't say anything particular to cheer me up. He didn't even say that he was hurt by my best friend... But his presence... Just having him stayed beside me when I was sad, it was okay.

I couldn't stand looking at him so sad. I just wanted to cheer him up just like what he did to me.
Although I knew... I couldn't do anything for him.
I couldn't hold this feeling any longer. It was like I wanted to scream my lungs out saying, "I LIKE YOU!!".

One day, I told my brother about this. He said, "why don't you tell him your true feelings?". I was surprised at that time, that was a crazy idea! But what made me surprised more... is "why I didn't think of it all this time?"

Then I told my best friend (another best friend) about my plan to make a confession. She was totally disagree with me. "What are you thinking?! You knew he's in love with another girl, yet you want to tell him how you feel about him!!? What are you, crazy??".
I knew, I knew it wouldn't mean anything. But... I really think I have to tell him. I really have to. I was going to another city for college that time, I might regret it if I don't tell him my true feelings.

The day had finally come. We met at school. I was so nervous. Although I I didn't hope his answer, but it still made me really nervous.
I stood in front of him for a loooongg time. I hesitated. He kept silent, reading something on the wall."Oh My God... How can I tell him this? I can't!! What am I supposed to do?"
I think I hesitated for almost an hour. It was so awkward.Then I took a deep breath. I called his name.
"Actually... I... I always like you"
He looked at me, surprised. I continued,
"But you don't have to say anything to me. It's not like I'm asking you to be your girlfriend or what... I know... The one you like is not me. I just... Want to tell you this".

Then, I ran. I ran as fast as I could.
When I got home, I cried. It was over. I lost my dearest friend. I lost the one who cheer me up when I was down...

That night, I slept over at my best friend's house (the one who disagree my plan to confess), I couldn't cry anymore. I just stayed silent.

A week later, my friend asked him why he did this to me. And he said, "because she's not expecting any answer from me, so what should I answer? Besides, I see her as a little sister..."

Now we're not so close anymore. It seems like he's avoiding me. Is it because I confessed to him? If so, why?

There are times that I caught him staring at me. But when I stared back at him, he looked away. And there are times when I feel he cares about me again... Is it only my illusion?

What should I do? Should I move on? If yes, how do I move on?
I can't seem to forget him or to let him go from my mind because somehow I feel that no one loves him more than I do.

Do you have any advice or words for me?
Your answers and opinions are highly appreciated, I've been with this unrequited feeling for 2 years.
Thank you for reading...

[writtenkarma]

It hurt reading this because I know how you feel, I can't tell you it gets easier feelings always seem to linger
I think it's funny unrequited love you know how it'll end but it still hurts so much.

Try and move on.
It's hard and it doesn't get easier but one day it will be.

A boy who really care won't hurt you that much

I hope it all works out <3

[l1lvi3tqt]

you know i was you i would do the same.

so now you will neve look back and think WHAT IF. sure you guys arent close right one but i think you two can be close again one days because seem like you guys were pretty close.

[Rini]

I had a situation like that very similar about a two years ago.
You think things like he cares about you, but in reality, he doesn't.
If he did he would have said something.
Trust me I would know. That's what I've been thinking all these years that i cared about this person.
I would think that waiting would change their minds....but it doesn't.
It hurts alot... it still hurts me.
There are memories you want to forget, but you can't.
Then one day they move on, love someone else and you can't do anything about it.

When I first confessed to him we were friends ( too long ago, but we talked) , I got ignored and things weren't the same anymore.
Then one day he won't even say hello to you or anything.
He might not even know that you are in the same room as him.
In the end things come from being ignored to not being noticed anymore.

So....I spent another two years liking this person. We never talked anymore.
Did I move on? NO.partly because i saw him everyday but just because I didn't want to get over him...I blissfully liked this person...when I think back it's sort of pathetic.

Trust me. If you continue to like him.....nothing good will come from it.
Alot of days you'll be crying over him, alot of good guys won't have a chance with you, and you won't truly be happy loving someone who doesn't love you.
Because I know I have.

[pockystixx]

i think it's time for you to move on. If he really cared about you, he would have said something
in between these two years... but he hasn't so it clearly shows that he doesn't care.
He said he only see's you as a little sister, and maybe that's how he'll always see you as. Sure your infatuated
with him right now, but life moves on. =) but i hope you make the right decision.

[Teknikai]

same problem as you, except the girl sees my as an older brother, me and her are still close, but we're getting farther away from eachother, and i can't move on, because i still like her... i never got a definite "no" but im certain i didnt get a yes. And i see her like everyday because she hangs out with the same people i do...

[vickstahs]

i know what it's like to be the brave one and confess and have it backfire on you

i know what it's like to tell that person even though you know your feelings aren't requainted, but you hold onto this bs hope..

the only thing i could suggest is that you stop talking to him altogether

and really try to occupy your mind

the only way i moved on was to find another love interest, but it was hard and i was never over the first guy anyway

but in a way it helped, because everytime i look at the first guy i feel like i'm starting to let go

slowly, but neverthless, i can tell it's happening

wish you all the best, love


xoxo

[Teknikai]

ahh i tried not talking to her...it backfired on me..

[Slug]

the best way to move on is to come back to where it all started... talk to him straight up and get some closure from him. only then can you truly move on.

[PixelPanda]

the best way to move on is to come back to where it all started... talk to him straight up and get some closure from him. only then can you truly move on.

Slug definitely knows what he/she is talking about!
You know what they say, if the bucket is a'leakin', fill the crack; don't wipe the puddle.

[ulat_bulu]

Thank you for reading and for the replies.
I really appreciate it.
Some of your words make me realize and feel that I should just move on...
Thanks again <33

[amfoi]

its really hard to fall in love with your friend..

yeah.. try to move on.. take time on your self.. do something that will make you busy...

maybe your friend is avoiding you because he got also feelings for you.. but hes not sure about it.. maybe? just dont expect to much..

its a matter of CHOICE not a DESTINY..

[eternally]

Let me come from a prespective of your guy friend you like.

same situation you're instead i'm the one he confessed to; my guy friend was and is still totally in love with me; it's been almost 2 years now!

The reason I try to stay distance with him is because i understand that if i was to act close like i did with him before like hangingout, telling him how i feel about things, what's going on, etc... those little things may lead him to a wrong direction; making his "liking me feelings to loving me" grow - which it did.

After he confessed to me i decided since i don't feel that way i know it's going to hurt him quite a LOT but i got to be honest with him. i told him how i feel. I kept it more causal than usual, because i only see him like a brother to me.

My only prayer for him is that he move on. it makes me feel guilty knowing that he's still clingying on to this feelings for me and stilling "hoping" i'll see him through.

*My advice to you from the other side is: MOVE ON, because if you don't there will always be ackwardness, gulits (even if it's no one's fault here), and will eventually pull your friendship more backward.

I still want to remain good friends with him, but its hard knowing he's still feeling that towards me.; especially when i'm single/available. Understand?

I know it's harsh and hard but love is not selfishness; just because you love doesn't mean it need to be given back - love is never selfishness.

Do yourself a favorite, love yourself, know you're worthy and deserve better. i know you do, i know he does too. I pray and hope you let it go. Once you let go of that stronghold or that feeling of "can't letting go" you'll be bless with TWICE as much. Let it go, love yourself for once.

I just want the best for you.