[whysobleu?]

- I wish i was someone else.
- I get embarrassed easily
- I can't think of witty responses therefore I come off as an idiot
- I hate all my friends
- I am self conscious about my appearance
- I get very bossy and demanding
- I'm the only one who has never had a bf in my group of friends
- I wish i had a talent
- I feel like I'm the rare dumb Asian out there
- I'm a hypocrite & judgmental

[Mademoisella]

wow yours is pretty sad...
i've actually thought about the 1st one but ehh, i couldn't, hah,
my friends they either live too far or don't have time..


- i sometimes just wanna say F'U to my friends sometimes cos hey, seriously, if you were in my shoes, you probably would..
i feel i careless about friendship now than compare to back then, just screw it all...
- i think i am plain UGLY, no lie. Make-Up does the trick always.
- I am more depress/stress/sad than most ppl think or know me.
- i am a TOTAL mind manipulator and serious damaging in the mind to others, its twisted, haha!
- i find it hard to say 'i'm sorry' to ppl i know personally than random ppl i don't really know or care..


i think thats about it....

[love*beat]

- I have major OCD and so I pretty much freak out whenever I touch anything I think is dirty. D:
- I prefer staying at home because I feel the most comfortable there.
- If I could, I would be a rebel against society.
- I have zero confidence in my abilities and hate showing people my work.
- I feel like my entire personality is a lie because I contradict myself too much.
- I always distance people away from me somehow even without trying.
- I feel like such a failure since I am neither intellectual, athletic, or social.
- It's become a habit for me to make people feel awkward or easily bored of me.
- I always have to initate everything when it comes to friends, which is one of the reasons I don't give-a-damn anymore.
- 'Best' friends? Yeah right. Nobody tells me anything anymore and I don't feel like any of them even care about me.
- None of my friends have seen what I truly am like.
- I repress my feelings too often, almost to the point that I feel like a walking volcano just waiting to erupt.
- I can always tell how people feel and how superficial they are although I guess some part of my personality is a lie in itself.

Sorry if my facts are depressing but it just goes to show how messed up we all are (or I am).

[be_mellow]

I don't like to meet new people.
Someone confronted me before that s/he thinks I have chronic depression, but I denied it.
I joined a depression forum throughout jhs and high school...but I quit ever since college.
I still think about my 2 deceased friends from time to time. (To some ppl it's a scary thing to do....IDK)
I don't like to talk to my co-workers.
I don't like teachers with a passion.
I fear I won't have a successful career.
I have suicidal thoughts...sometimes
Sometimes, I tend to do things so others have a bad impression of me so we'll end up both not liking each other much....so I don't have to be bothered by him/her. Yes, I hate being bothered.
I really hate it when people think I'm an expert with computers. Deep down I know I'm not, I'm no tech.
I don't like to brag. I also despise people who brag about themselves. I don't like to be conceited about myself.
I never enjoyed high school (but I act like I did), I once thought of dropping out too.
I don't like to burst people's bubble so I just pretend I don't know when people tell me things.

[peppy]

~ I have no real friends

~ My old friends left me because i dont take pills or drink every weekend

~ I hate my high school

~ I can never forgive my mother for what shes done to me

~ I struggle to get good grades, while others achieve with no effort

~ The area i live in is racist, and theres nothing i can do to escape

~ My only hope and dream is university and living in the city one day

~ No one has ever had faith in me, never believed i was good enough

~ I cry at least once a week

~ Im a quiet person but im not shy, i just cant be bothered anymore

~ High school is always said to be the best years of your life. They were my worst

~ The only thing keeping me going is the hope of a better life in university

~ Ive wanted to leave this country forever too many times now

[fobbiyo]

I'm not as "tough" as everyone thinks I am.

i'm actually stupid, unlike what they think yet i can't admit it coz i think they won't believe me XD

lol. I believe you.

[mentalfiction]

I like this thread, a reason to complain about stuff

- i have an insane temper no one knows about
- im the youngest in my family but all responsibility is thrust upon me and Im blamed for everything
- my parents like my brother more than me (they always show more concern/care towards him, and he's older)
- most people come to me only when they have problems 'cuz I'm good at sorting them out
- for the most part of my life, i hated all my friends. i only really loved two who loved me back, and one of them left forever and I have neevr heard from her since
- older people (as in parents/teachers/aunts and uncles) label me as genius but all my friends call me a dumb blond and i absolutely HATE it
- i want to be a musician (sing/dance/ or play the guitar) but my brother always makes fun when I sing, no one thinks I can dance, and my dad refuses to buy me a guitar (i play leftie and my bro plays right, and my dad bought him THREE, and not even a single one for me)


and yeah so on and so forth

[Rainity]

- i'm the oldest in the family and i have to take more responsiblity at home so i'm mature and serious but immature at school.
- when i'm super hyper means somethings wrong
- i decline things but truthfully, i really want/like it

[ohhlalakelly]

- Though I appear happy, i'm actually very lonely.
- I like being alone, it's peaceful.

lkfhosidfhsig can't think of anything right now

[HighSkies]

I agree

- high school is supposed to be the best years of your life apparently- its been the worst for me.

- I am unbelievably self concious. I don't show it though. I dress my own style, I have different hobbies and show these with confidence and people see me as being unique and independant.

-I'm not clever. My friends are all the clever people in my year so people just automatically assume I am too. Also because I'm a little quiet. I find that annoying and fustrating when people ask me for homework help, cuz I can't help them.

-I often have no confidence in a couple of my classes, because all my friends sitting on the same table as me in class get way better marks and understand everything so quickly. I don't. And it does make me want to cry sometimes, but I stop myself everytime.

[hellosunshine1024]

- I want to be an actress
- Im afraid of failing
- I cry alot when im alone
- I hate most of my friends

wow that felt kinda good.

[ellyphant]

i cry a lot
i don't consider a majority of my friends my friends.
i'm the last thing from happy

[iyagi]

- Though I appear happy, i'm actually very lonely.
- I like being alone, it's peaceful.

lkfhosidfhsig can't think of anything right now

Ah... same here.
Most people don't know how much I prefer to be alone. I can be really sociable, but I actually like being by myself.


- I really love singing. Some of my friends know this, but no one knows to the extent/deepness that I really feel.
- I'm really competitive. I didn't really realize it myself until recently, but I am. It brings out a bad side of me.
- I found out something about my family... >__> this I really can't tell anyone.
- I'm critical. Mainly of myself, but as much as I hate to admit it, other people too.
- I struggle. A lot. People think I make stuff look effortless, but in reality everything's kinda frustrating for me.

All for now. Because I'm getting kinda depressed at this topic... xDD

[bittersweet_]

wow people.
take a happy pill. =)
so this is like a little cyber psychology therapy session hehe.
I need to vent too.

-I can't go to sleep when I think of my future, and all the bad things could happen if one thing goes wrong.
-my communicative/socializing skill sucks.period.
-I feel so so so lonely...at home, and on friday nights especially =(
-I had a serious stalker before, and he still is psychologically messed up. glad he is living at a different continent.
-I can be a much better person, and i know it. procrastination and laziness f***d me up.
-if i meet a new guy, i overimagine us being a real item in the future. constantly get obsessed with checkin his myspace or facebook. lol =x
there is more left. but shorter the better

[_xJASEY]

hmm. i only have two real friends.
i enjoy being alone.
i think of things too much.
i always have backup plans
sometimes i over think stuff.
i dont know who i really am yet, cos someone told me i'm acting like someone im not.
i hated my old friend, cos she made me feel like im her shadow and how she turns everyone against that person by doing that face like pouting like a dog or somdn.

[pianogirl591]

I'm scared that I'll disappoint my parents...
I am constantly stressed though I try to appear lighthearted and carefree...
I'm scared I'll loose one of my bestfriend...
I prefer to be alone most of the time...

[mashumoshi]

sorry i can't read all of yours! i'll come back to them i promise...

before i go to bed, i want to let out things

- i created a new soompi account just so i can reply to this thread. (no one knows i have soompi but just in case. my name is pretty obvious)
- i think i am good-looking, but there are so many things that i want to change on my face
- i love it when people tell me i'm pretty... sometimes i expect them to ... and get really depressed if they dont -__-
- everytime a guy looks at me or if i think he's looking at me i secretely think he is looking because he has some interest in me
- this is one of the reasons why i'm really shy around guys... hot and ugly ones alike
- actually no... i flirt and be more direct with ugly guys... -__-
- i am really insecure and paranoid about what others think - any gesture or word thats slightly off really bothers me, but i dont show it.
- i want close friends, heck, i want a best friend who i can talk to about anything and everything and not feel stupid.
- i wish my friends were less nonchalant and more open.
- i am not much of a talker. instead, i do/ say stupid things just so people know i exist.
- i hate that i never had really really deep talks with most of my friends... it could be that i just dont know what to say when they tell me things or that they think i'm too lighthearted to be able to handle serious things. i want to be the friend that is always there for them.
- i have a cell phone. i dont charge it often because no one texts me. i get so depressed over this. i get really jealous of my friends who text all the time.
- i wish i had much better social skills- i google how to start/keep a conversation going online and i read those self-help overcoming shyness blogs
- i absolutely hate being alone, even tho i dont talk much... i just like being with people ya know?
- i'm really uncomfortable talking with white ppl, not that i hate their race or nething, i just feel that we're so different- our speaking styles, interests, etc. (i'm used to being around only asians you see). i dont know. i just get scared and feel insecure for some reason when i talk to them.
- yes, i do keep a mental record of all the get-togethers and i get really offended and depressed when i don't get invited. i dont think it's because they hate me, just that i'm too insignificant and that people easily forget me.
- i HATE it when people talk about what fun times they had at that one hangout thing where i was not invited. it seems like thats the only thing they talk about for weeks.
- i chose to put financial strains on my family and go to a college on the other side of the country, because i want to make new close friends that will not forget me, and start fresh
- i also chose it so that i can build up a new reputation and destroy the old crazy-as-heck-yet-can't-start-conversations reputation
- there's this one guy friend that seems to be all my friend's best gay friend. i wish he was my friend, not just an acquaintance. i get so depressed when he sees me and doesnt say hi.
- bottom line: please come talk to me. and understand that even tho i dont know what to say in response, i symphasize with you.
- i love it when i feel appreciated or loved (duh. who doesn't?) but even the smallest gestures make my day.
- i hate how like all of my posts are about my pathetic social life.
- i wish i was more emotionally attached to my parents.
- i blame my mom for making me extremely insecure. i used to be a really hyper, carefree kid. you did not embrace who i was. instead, you criticized me about EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. you still do. you found something wrong in every single thing i did. you tried to mold me into becoming like others and you always compared me to other kids and i always felt like i wasnt good enough for you, heck, for ANYONE. i still feel like i'm not good enough. did you know that your words hurt a lot?
- oh yeah, and that's the second reason i'm going to college far away- i want to stay as far away as possible from my mom. (not my dad. sigh. he's going to miss me a lot. sorry dad.)
-i'm really indecisive, and i'm like bipolar? - i say one thing and i do the opposite.
-- sigh, i'm so shallow.

- i'm crying right now, but now that i've said whats on my mind, it feels great! it's like screaming your secrets from a mountaintop.
- i better go to bed
-thanks to those who took the time to read all this. i hope you guys aren't pathetic like i am.

peace. <3

[daintymilk]

- People think I'm a social butterfly. But I'm very lonely on the inside, I often feel left out ALL the time.
- I dislike my friends. I doubt we would even stay in contact after high school. We have differences.
- My friends treat me as if I don't exist. I'm constantly fed up trying to fit in. I give up.
- I am so cling-y. I can't stand being alone.
- I'm a hypocrite and judgmental.
- It is so hard for me to make new friends, when people try to be-friend me, I often steer clear away from them because I'm afraid what they would think of me after knowing me.
- I envy people who has the grades, popularity, basically, have it all.
- No matter how hard I try in academically and I put all my best efforts, I still get mediocre grades.
- Nobody knows me at all.. I hate myself.

[blackvelvetfever]

- I wish that I knew what being in a relationship is like. Sometimes I get a tinsy bit jealous of my friends knowing they have someone and people who have actually admitted their feelings towards them. No-one has ever confessed to me before. Bummer.

But all in all, I'm pretty satisfied with life.

[tangerine_kisses]

- People think I'm happy, but I'm always lonely.
- I used to cry myself to sleep.
- I'm a people-pleaser -.- never a good thing.
- I easily dislike / get annoyed.
- My friends don't know anything about me.
- I'm not good with people and relations.
- I'm always left out.
- I'm always alone.
- I always make a fool out of myself.
- I love my friends too much, even though I don't think they love me the same.

this thread's depressing.