[sujulove]

sorry this is so long, but i'm hurting sooo bad! >__<

OKAY. So there's this guy, who I really REALLY liked. we never dated, but we were really close.
and this was quite a while ago but he asked me out, but i told him no because my parents were COMPLETELY AGAINST IT.
after that things didn't really change. he called me still, waited for me, talked to me.
we even went to homecoming together, and he gave me kisses on the cheek, he bit my ear. we were pretty close...

but then after that, he slowly started to not talk to me as much, he stopped waiting for me. we kinda....broke apart.
and so i decided to forget about him because he was calling my friend and saying things like
"If I never went to homecoming with your friend, would i have a chance with you?" O_______O OMFG T__T
it hurt so much, and it was sooo hard but i stopped talking to him,
i avoided him and eventually i was over thinking about him...caring about him (or so i thought)
and a few weeks later, he came up to me and apologized saying "he didn't talk to me because he was too nervous" O__O WTF.
but even then i didn't really care. i was SO DONE with him!

but then this new guy came, who was really sweet and caring and likes me a lot!
and when we went on a date to the movies I would think of the other guy and i realized i still wasn't over the other guy,
so i decided to be just friends with this new guy

and then i surprisingly saw the other guy at my cousin's birthday....and it made things even more complicated.
he started asking my little brother about me! and about that new, sweet guy. and my brother told him
that i broke up with the sweet guy cause i was thinking about him too much! and so he knew everything
and came up to me and said "I'm sorry, it's my fault isn't it?" and he kept coming up to me and saying "are you still mad at me? i'm sorry!"
but i denied everything and he asking my brother for more of the story.
and everytime i glanced at him, he'd be looking at me. and i know i shouldn't be hopeful anymore, and think he could like me.
cause everytime i do think that, i end up being dissapointed
and no matter how hard i try, i just can't stop imagining what it would be like if we were together, or thinking about missing him.
but there's so many reasons that say i shouldn't go back to him!
it sometimes seemed like he just wanted to be...friends with benefits or something! like...he just wanted someone, anyone. and sometimes it didn't...

what is he thinking? i should just let go, huh? but it's hard.
Should i tell him how I'm feeling? Do you think he ever really liked me?
He doesn't really seem like the type of guy who would use people, cause...what would he use me for?
BUT WHY WOULD HE GO THROUGH ALL THAT TIME CALLING ME AND TALKING TO ME AND STUFF AND THEN SUDDENLY STOP?
BECAUSE HE WAS NERVOUS!? AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS THAT EXCUSE IS BS?
I want to move on, but lately all I've been doing is wanting to be together with him... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
WHAT SHOULD I DO????? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON? I KEEP WANTING TO BE WITH HIM, BUT I KNOW IT'S WRONG! T____T

[bad boy]

man that essay is really long babe, just lookin at that wall of text makes me dizzy

u should tell him how u feel, if anything u can gain from it

either u get a shot of love with him or u can finally move on

its a win win !

[7thprincess]

If you really want to know if he ever liked you, you can always ask him. And if you really want to tell him how you feel, you can always tell him.

But lets say, you do tell him. What are expecting to happen? Do you want to date again? Or do you want to move on? It seems like you do want to move on, but it seems that you want him more than you want to move on.

[sujulove]

even if i were to tell him, where would i start?
what would i even say?
the stupid thing is, i don't even know what i want to happen.
I would listen to my heart, but i don't know what it's telling me.

and there's the thing with my parents. it'd be soo hard if we were together,
because they are soo against me being with him. it might sound like...romeo-juliet dramatic thing...
but it's the truth. it is like that. i don't want all that drama, and all those problems.
but i can't help wanting him either >__________<

[7thprincess]

I think you should decide on what you want first, before you tell him anything.

[한스 ㅋㅋ]

BUT WHY WOULD HE GO THROUGH ALL THAT TIME CALLING ME AND TALKING TO ME AND STUFF AND THEN SUDDENLY STOP?
BECAUSE HE WAS NERVOUS!? AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS THAT EXCUSE IS BS?

*hands up*
I agree, that's probably a bulls reason.
But anyways, I'm here to tell you about my second favorite catchphrase

People should stop overthinking why this and this happens but instead take advantage of it

I don't think anyone have heard that quote, because I made it LOLZ
but anyways, scratch the bit after "but" and change it to something like "coz it will give you stress"

Dry ..... but true isn't it?
The more you think about it, the more it's gonna give you stress, when in reality, it's not really important to know why he does that.

BUT, good news for you. Since I'm forcing myself to be happy because something bad happened. I'll help you analyze lolz.
Anyways, you mentioned how he asks your brother about you and stuff.
Well if I was him, If I don't like you, I wouldn't care. I wouldn't bother asking your brother, especially if I'm not even close to him. Anyway, it sounds like he's desperate to know about you since he keeps asking to your brother.
What i can conclude is he likes you

but there's so many reasons that say i shouldn't go back to him!

Mind telling me what that is, coz I fail to see it in your post. I get confused if the post is really long lol.

[Shikabane Hime]

BUT WHY WOULD HE GO THROUGH ALL THAT TIME CALLING ME AND TALKING TO ME AND STUFF AND THEN SUDDENLY STOP?

That's like asking why I play a game for a year, build up my character and make it really strong, then suddenly delete it and quit.
Want to move on, PM me and we'll have some fun. Over SMO.

[sujulove]

*hands up*
I agree, that's probably a bulls reason.
But anyways, I'm here to tell you about my second favorite catchphrase

People should stop overthinking why this and this happens but instead take advantage of it

I don't think anyone have heard that quote, because I made it LOLZ
but anyways, scratch the bit after "but" and change it to something like "coz it will give you stress"

Dry ..... but true isn't it?
The more you think about it, the more it's gonna give you stress, when in reality, it's not really important to know why he does that.

BUT, good news for you. Since I'm forcing myself to be happy because something bad happened. I'll help you analyze lolz.
Anyways, you mentioned how he asks your brother about you and stuff.
Well if I was him, If I don't like you, I wouldn't care. I wouldn't bother asking your brother, especially if I'm not even close to him. Anyway, it sounds like he's desperate to know about you since he keeps asking to your brother.
What i can conclude is he likes you


Mind telling me what that is, coz I fail to see it in your post. I get confused if the post is really long lol.

thanks. and the reasons are because of some family drama.
my parents won't let me go out with him. when they found out i was talking to him
they told me i couldn't date at all...no going out or doing anything.
but a few months later, they allowed me to go to the movies with this different guy.
it's personal problems, that could affect my parent's marriage. my dad even told me that directly. good reason, no?

and there were times, when it didn't seem like..idk...like he cared.
after i told him i couldn't go out wiht him cause of my parents, he started like...wanting to be "friends with benefits"
and the whole suddenly not calling me, and talking to me as often anymore thing.
and when he asked one of my really close friends,
"If I never went out with her(me), would I have a chance with you?"

and yet...*sigh* i don't know. something about him is making it hard for me to let go...

i don't know if he likes me or not...i was hoping...maybe...but...i don't wanna get dissapointed >__<

That's like asking why I play a game for a year, build up my character and make it really strong, then suddenly delete it and quit.
Want to move on, PM me and we'll have some fun. Over SMO.

lol. erm. why would you delete it and quit? ...don't know what SMO is ^^;;

[Shikabane Hime]

Cause I got bored with it and not playing it again. Of course, I could sell it...
SMO = stepmania online, where real dancers play.

He sounds like he doesn't know what he wants. Forget him, I know what I want: sushi.

[한스 ㅋㅋ]

but a few months later, they allowed me to go to the movies with this different guy.
it's personal problems, that could affect my parent's marriage. my dad even told me that directly. good reason, no?

Wow that's not really reasonable =/
So I assume your parents have some kind of a problem with this guy then.
Otherwise you would have gone out with him now I guess.

well I don't think you can do much but forget him then.
from your post, he does like you though, maybe... don't know the guy so don't know exact answer =/