[chinobingo]

even though its been about a year, i still wake up everyday and
cannot believe we're not together anymore.

all of our flirting, our hugs and kisses... i really wish she could just give me one warm
hug and tell me to be back with her. i love her.

it just pains me to see her so happy with another guy, who used me as a close friend to get to her.

im on probation in college and about to be dismissed.
i have no job, no financial stability, no indepedent skills and no self-esteem at all.
and nothing i do feels the same feeling again.

everything just seems to fall apart and crumble in my life.
i just seem so hopeless and unwanted.

nobody seems to care anymore.
what should i do?

[boka]

Seems more appropriate to L&R.

If she was willing to do that to you so easily, your relationship would've ended sooner or later.

There's another girl out there who'll love you just as much or even more, just need to open up a bit so you guys can find each other. Your depression i syour brain telling you that you're doing something wrong and you need to get moving.

I know it's harder than it sounds to actually socialize and engage people when you're depressed, but if you direct more of your energy into getting on with your life, you'll come across some genuinely good people, and although you might not see it when you're depressed, there are actually a lot of things in your life that you can be thankful for and it's these people and things that you should focus on.

Don't put up with all the other crap, especially people who are reckless with your heart. Just wish those people well and be on your way.

[Kitty07]

Get some professional help , rebuild your self-confidence and self-esteem , and move on with your life .

[kinein]

even though its been about a year, i still wake up everyday and
cannot believe we're not together anymore.

all of our flirting, our hugs and kisses... i really wish she could just give me one warm
hug and tell me to be back with her. i love her.

it just pains me to see her so happy with another guy, who used me as a close friend to get to her.

im on probation in college and about to be dismissed.
i have no job, no financial stability, no indepedent skills and no self-esteem at all.
and nothing i do feels the same feeling again.

everything just seems to fall apart and crumble in my life.
i just seem so hopeless and unwanted.

nobody seems to care anymore.
what should i do?

Grow up. Realize your acting dumb in your youth and plenty of people say and do the exact same things you did. Next you have to realize your cultivating a cycle of Epic Fail which in the end is a waste of time. Also for every second you waste being emo - there is someone out there that realized.. "man that was dumb tripping out and wasting that valuable time just not setting goals and accomplishing things". Also realize your not looking at things past today or tomorrow or a year from now or 2 years from now. What if you suddenly fall ill to a disease which feels like someone is repeatedly slapping you with a rotten fish?! Your main focus will be each consecutive slap in the face. You won't have time to think of anything else besides the bits of putrid flesh that stick to your face.

That is an extreme example but in reality your just being dumb. No one can make you decide to move on and apply yourself. You just have to make a conscious choice and organize and plan for a better bigger and brighter future.

Nobody seems to care because you are acting dumb. Even if they did you sound like you've done a mighty good job of shoving your head so far up your butt you can't hear anything but the sound of your own moans vibrating through your being. Go to the beach and pound sand and scream and scream and scream. You are not allowed to leave til your damn well ready. You can sit there for 24 hours if necessary ~ in your underwear. Keep pounding sand and have someone videotape you while your doing it so you can fully live out this passionate experience. It sucks yes ~

Grieve your ass off quickly ~ go to a junk yard grab a 60 lb sledge hammer and repeatedly beat the living crap out of a piece of metal. Or go work at a soup kitchen and tell homeless people how sad your life is. Hell. Go to a Veterans hospital and exchange words with an 18 year old that had her legs blown off riding in the gun platform of a Humvee because a freedom fighter decided Allah needed another soul.

Despite the feminization of men in America ~ I don't respect that your wasting your life. Why am I addressing you like this because this is most likely the FASTEST most EFFECTIVE way to penetrate that cloud of stupidity and gloom. Been there done that. Your wasting your time. Haven't met one person ever, that went through that, and said, " man I loved just flushing my life down some toilet for a year or two because of a relationship." Life happens ~ live with it, learn from it, grow from it and move on.

Oh but make sure to cry your eyes out and chase pigeons at the park until you get it all out.

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Now ~

1. You figure out if you want to go to school right now or not.
2. If not you get a job or join the military ~ want to be safe? Coast Guard or Navy - That won't spell happiness for you but it will give you a place to mope and get yelled at and have someone riding your ass day and night.
3. Clean up the mess @ home if you made one.
4. Hang out with friends - meet new people - make new friends
5. Don't feel ashamed about expressing yourself, but be ashamed if you can't muster the basic human courage to live your life and make more new memories. Some people live lives so boring they can't remember the last time anything good or BAD happened. Others live such monotonous dull lives that they have never had the companionship of another. Finally some people live half their lives never having loved someone. Don't be so spoiled as to not be grateful to have lived experienced and perhaps LEARNED something.

Hope ya feel better soon ~ the faster you get over it the faster you'll get back on the road of life.

If you refuse to get back on that road ~ no one is going to stop and halt their lives just to console you for the next 10 years. If you want to be a bum you can be a bum - life allows for people to choose to fail if they MAKE THE EFFORT TO. You are responsible for your own actions and the repercussions that impact your life now. 6 months from now 1 year. 2 years 5 years and so on. You are. Blame no one because no one will be around to hear you blame them!


Depression is a tricky road and one where the further you travel down it the more lost you become. You not only travel down this slope but you enter a valley that is constantly getting deeper. A giant hole of SUCK AT LIFE. Turn around go back where you came from.

The bad thing about you putting yourself on probation with college is you don't seem to understand the urgency and the dire impact of letting a relationship screw up not only your emotional life but your FUTURE. Don't do that. - The real world won't just slap some sense into you. It'll let you fail, maybe do an oprah show on how tough things are and then if your lucky you get to be on a re-run. Care about yourself because no one can do it better then you.

ps ~ pick better friends with a sense of morals, class and honor.
The term people with no class or low class generally is a old school way of saying SHADY people. Learn to discern the difference and know whom in your social network actually demonstrates values that are worth trust time and effort. Avoid and jettison anyone that demonstrates by words and/or by action that the type of human being they are right now is lacking.

Good luck and if anything remember the good times and forget the bad times. Time has a tendency to fog the memory.

[dafleur]

[tempuraicecream]

dang... look at all these harsh replies...
poor guy just broke up with his girl and ur making him feel worse!!
well, i think you should just get yourself together because you're only hurting yourself by failing school + screwing up your life because of your depression. it's not worth it and you probably will forget about this 10 yrs later....

so, just tell yourself "screw her" and move on with your life. it may be hard at first but when you start feeling better about yourself and begin reaching your goals you'll realize how better life is without her life is SO short and its not worth being depressed over.

i hope i helped

[Shikabane Hime]

f*** life and play some Go. Do it.

[watcher]

even though its been about a year, i still wake up everyday and
cannot believe we're not together anymore.

all of our flirting, our hugs and kisses... i really wish she could just give me one warm
hug and tell me to be back with her. i love her.

it just pains me to see her so happy with another guy, who used me as a close friend to get to her.

im on probation in college and about to be dismissed.
i have no job, no financial stability, no indepedent skills and no self-esteem at all.
and nothing i do feels the same feeling again.

everything just seems to fall apart and crumble in my life.
i just seem so hopeless and unwanted.

nobody seems to care anymore.
what should i do?

live for yourself. love for yourself. don't let the meaning of your life slip into the hands of some girl you fell in love with. she can be a great part of your life, but she cannot be your life.

start dating. this is not a recommendation to start falling in love. just date them here and there. you'll see the light soon enough

[ShadowMax76]

easiest way for me was to start doing some stupid things like walk down the highway at night singing mcr songs loudly until i felt like i should get back. xD ah, those were the days~

i wouldn't advise that if you're some attractive young man. o_O' you'd be asked how much for an hour... LOL.

but . shake up the normal routine. be somewhere at a time you're normally not . or even, be somewhere you're not sure where it is.

..o_O' jus'.. don't think i'll be feelin' guilty if there's something on the news about a guy whose been missing for a few days...
i'd just be imagining ya laughing everythin' away. :B

[thesisoflove]

Alright. She already moved on.. I think you should too !
Don't be all depressed because of some girl.

Get a job, Go to school, find something to do.
Or else you'd end up on the streets or something.

You still have time to find someone else better..

[superhumanchichi]

She wasn't worth your time anyway. She sounds like a terrible girl for doing something like that to you. And your "friend" was a horrible person too. For now, you might want to get your mind off getting into another relationship so soon. And don't you dare even think of going back to her again. What will stop her from doing that to you again?

Honestly, just forget about them. Sounds easy, but I know it's hard. Just think: one day you'll find a great girlfriend - someone who really loves you! For now, just live life one day at a time. Since you're about to be dismissed from college, try looking into another school, possibly a community college, or if school isn't for you, then try moving back in with your parents and figure things out. If you're having trouble finding a job, try volunteering somewhere (i.e. hospital, soup kitchen, etc). That will keep your mind off everything. Then that volunteer work would look great when looking for a job.

Remember this: there are people out there who are worse off than you. I know a guy who is in his mid 40s and his wife just left him for his best friend. Guess what? She took all his money and his 2 kids hate him (even though he didn't do anything wrong!). Everything he worked for all his life (money, house, cars, kids, etc) went to his wife. He has nothing left and he had to move back in with his mom. At least you're not in his shoes. Think about moving ahead with your life. Get a new crowd of friends. Don't let that trashy girl and your former friend keep you back from living your life. If you let that bother you, then you'll end up a bum on the street. Is that what you want? I'd hope not.

Please please don't ever give up on yourself

I wish you the best of luck!

[littlejade]

the key is to be willing to let go..

i know its sad, but you got to move on. If she liked u, she would chose u, if she doesn't then theres plenty of other girls will. Don't give up, u got to move on, so u can find another girl who will like u

she's not worth it, u need better friends in your life. don't let them bring u down.

[rainn]

She moved on and now it's your turn.
Face it, you two weren't meant to be.
I know it must be really hard for you but you got to let it go.
Your wasting your time being sad when you could be doing something better.

[小甜密]

It's been a year. Let it go.

[KanyeWEST]

its easy, the obvious solution is to go kill yourself.

or you can stop being an emo lion king

[my.name.is.nine]

she wasn't worth your time.
time heals all wounds.
It took me four years to full get over someone that i thought was the one.
and it's easier on me when you don't have that person interfering with your life.
take a deep breath and look further.
she's not the only girl.
just cause she broke up with you doesn't mean it's the end of the world.
we can't get all the things we can't.
just a few that we work hard for.
do other things to get your mind off her.
talk to someone.
a close friend perhaps.
i'm sure others care.
they just seem they don't care anymore is because they're tired of hearing the same things over and over again.
and i'm sure they've told you the same things many times.
this is one tough door in front of you.
find the right key and open it with a big smile.
good luck.

[5.mystline]

Forget her, there are plenty of other people.

[bitterSWEET]

Gather up all your pain and use it as motivation to do well in school and get a good job.
Set your life back on track.
Set yourself a goal, something to work towards and DO NOT give up.