[mchelly114]

What was the most painful moment of your life? Not physical pain, but mental anguish.

[yuan]

It happened several weeks ago. I thought of something sacreligious and kind of bad towards my parents, I just hated myself. It's like fighting with myself it's just a painful memory for me I couldn't stand myself. Later on I couldn't eat or sleep by myself for about a week. I was kind of needy back then but it is all because I fear that what I thought would become my actions. In future nothing's certain that's why I am constantly fearing the future and my thoughts I couldn't control it back then.

This goes on for quite a long time and I started praying and seeking help from a doctor or something and I started to see everything. The whole picture of what I have thought about and I simply just let it go, there's nothing I could do to change.

I guess people everyone have issues. Mines is that I think too much and I tend to make simple things complicated and confusing. The most painful thing for me is my memories, I tried very hard to erase them but it never seems to go away.

[ajlee613]

imagine being helpless while watching someone smile at you looking deep into ur eyes while ur struggling desperatly, u kno they feel the pain and they do fear like humans do, but they smile for u as they die knowing it will be easyer on you if u think they went satisfied fully accpeting death.

it wasn't the hardest time, but it was one of the real big hits that pushed me over the edge at a point.

having my girl die was also another big push off the edge.

also one time i woke up in the morning, and there was nothing to do all day, i was bored. it was painful. seriously. yea this one may seem funny but all of these are no joke.

[hungrycollegeboy]

Time is painful for me.

Waking up one morning and realizing "Crap, I'm already 20 today". I'm not a kid anymore. That's just sad.

[Hakiri]

Knowing something will happen that you have no control over.
When a psychic and monk told my parents that they would separate, that my mum would be in a car accident.
I wished so much that I hadn't found out, because since then, I think about it every day.
The first has come true, and the second, well.. it's supposed to happen any time now (since he said 'after her birthday', which has just happened), and I can't help but feel terrified.

[handsomecupcakee]

..to sit back and watch your life fall apart..
Feeling like the complete Failure that your parents worked hard for you to not become..
To walk right past someone , ignoring them.. ,Knowing they can totally stop your heart from beating.
To sit through everyday, Stuck in your own little world... >_>

[super cool snail]

mental pain..
I rememebr i was around five years old when I grasped the concept of death
man..i couldn't sleep for several nights because I was so afraid I might never wake up
and I was terrified to put my head under the blankets because it recreated the feel of how a coffin might be like
and the once, I just lost it and went crying to both of my parents telling them 'I don't want to die' and my dad reassured me that I won't die..not anytime soon lol
but yea..i was pretty...depressed persay for better lack of term. It was like why bother with anything since I'm going to die one day..I didn't want any toys, I didn't care what I eat, I didn't care about friends etc etc.
my childhood pretty much summed up

[MarineGreen]

Getting choked out by a triangle choke by a dude with a terrible case of swamp ass...
I fought the choke gassed out and passed out.

[ching22194]

when i fail.. its ok for me but not to my parents.
when i see old people on the streets, walking by themselves..
always make me cry..

[agnuque]

Death of a loved one.

When EVERYBODY in my class hated me -- as in everybody. For no reason at ALL. What hurt more was the fact that the teachers actually believed them. That was just so painful. It was the worst three years of my life..

[catsinheat]

i lost my mother and stepfather to a murder-suicide, then my biological father (less than a year later) to a fatal heart attack that could have been prevented.

needless to say, it was a crappy year.

that was two years ago when i was 16 - 17. i'm functioning well and doing much MUCH better overall (through a lot of intensive psychotherapy), but it still sucks sometimes.

[crackers&cheese]

Fighting/Arguing with family and friends. It really hurts after

[Aivy]

Yeah I agree. Waking up one day and realizing you're not a kid anymore and all the memories you have won't ever relive themselves. Oh, and the thought of something/someone never being there again is quite painful.

[tiger325]

most definetly when my ex and I broke up

[rectitude*]

when my uncle passed away because of murder. and staying by my friend's side when she lost her brother & two niece from a fire that burn down their house.

[poop!]

seeing a friend of mine in her coffin.

I've seen some stuff in my life but that sight really did it for me.

[Kyunjae]

The first time I was ever cheated on by a boyfriend. I was naive and stupid back then, but I've learned since then.

[Mattsanity]

mental anguish is a muthajohn tesha... too many moments