[bonitagirlx]

i can't help anything else but regret and emptiness right now.
i dont understand what i do wrong. is it because im so negative? so desperate? so clingy? so insecure? so stupid? so ugly? so fat?
why must i go through this everyday? depressed feeling... emptiness, loneliness.
if you dont want me to go to the meetings, why did u before?
did you take me off the list? u dont want me to go? u should have just said something than
is it cuz i was acting like an idiot at the party
i dont even know why i did that. god i dont know anything anymore. im serious.
its like everything i do is WRONG.
i dont even want to do well in school but half of me does.
what the EFFFFF?!!!???
"be smart" than if im just trying ot be normal, "your too quiet"
wat the EFF?!
im soooooooooooooooooo upset and depressed right now.
i mean it was cuz i was too loud? was that why? i have to control myself. seriously....i dont know ofcourse they dont trust me they only met me once. idk... anymore..anything..

do i need the lord again? do i need to cleanse my soul of impurities? i think i need to stop seeing what others are doing and just live for myself.

thats the way its been and should be always.

[ignoranceisbliss]

your my john teshing grandma! you shouldn't tell me that i'm fat everytime you see me especially since you're only staying here fo 3 months. You should love me for who i am. Just because I'm not the traditional asian skinny girl who always does the housework doesn't mean you can critisise me & my body at every glance. People always wonder why I'm the only one who doesn't pay any "special" attention to you but maybe it's because everytime I'm around you, i feel as if I'm the ugly, fat grandaughter who doesn't mean jack to you. the only thing I'm thankful of you for is giving birth to my dad & raising him> I don't know how YOU did it when he loves me no matter what. I might sound horrible but th remarks you make infront of EVRYONE all the time is just out of line. I was only able to meet you when i turned 14. I'm sorry I'm never going to be the grand daughter you expected me to be & I'm not going to go in to any effort to do so. So just STOP the rude uneccessary comments that only bring my self esteem lower & lower.

[sweethopes]

i hate writing,
i hate filling out forms,
i hate waiting for forms,
i hate those who have recieved their application forms and card.
why the john teshing is eveything so effing slow?
i hate the course co ordinator, he's an ass. reply to your DAMN emails...

i hate uni...

[�ēllόЩ]

omg, all i have in my life are assignments, assignments, assignments!!!

[Allison]

I really hate the way you act. Trying to make it seem that you just DGAF about what people say or do to you. You know you do, so stop trying to pull off this tough look and just learn.

[YUNICA]

argh, i'm a lil regret going to the practice now!
i played that way for three years and he wanted me to change now. ><;;
what the freak. and i did not said i wanted to be the GS! i said, "i USED to be the shooter!" that's all! whatever.

[badstar]

I am freakin confused!!!
I can't think straight!
I have approximately 10 hours to decide on my life!

[BillyC]

I caught bronchitis >.<.

[viviians]

i feel so poor. > $200 in my bank account
my hands are frozen as well..

[Antz]

Why can't you just ORGANISE things properly, and CALL ME BACK FOR ONCE?
What kind of work is this? So sick of it, I just want to quit.

[BakaPrincess]

I can't believe it! Out of all the things that can happen to me, this one!
I am so mad at myself! I worked so hard on it and nothing might come out it.
Gosh, I hope some miracle happened and she will take it.
I can't believe it. I am sooooooooooo mad! I just want to cry.

[Melodeen]

should i really do my presentation on korean boy band? anyone think its embarrassing to do a presentation on cassiopeia. i think i should change the subject to something everyone is familiar with. but my teacher think it'll be a fun topic. should i skip the presentation and just earned 25 points by earning extra credit? ahhhhhhh...i'm freaking out, what if i mess up. someone give me the answer.

[Daiquiri]

Ugh. Too much stuff to do, not enough time. Oh boy.

[crackers&cheese]

Thanks for sabotaging my mood. Greatly appreciated.
I feel tired and stressed. ~ 1 more month.

[jss_love]

why are the teachers giving us so much stupid useless stuff to do??
only one more month left but noooo, i still have so much that i have to deal with -__-
and i have so much to do today but i'm being unproductive once again...
have to freaking read two chapters for my civics test tomorrow and then work on this stupid paper.
then i have two presentations to work on sometime soon..
gahhh, my brain is so close to exploding...i'm just so tired.

[doremii*]

motherjohn tesher. john tesh hidden road signs.
john tesh you.
I can't believe I have to retake it.
john tesh.

[Cγиσsυяε`]

ALL THAT I'VE EVER john teshING DONE FOR YOU. ALL THAT I'VE EVER john teshING MADE FOR YOU. ALL THE TIMES I WAS HERE WHEN I WASN'T EVEN NEEDED. I WAS ONLY A TOOL OF LOVE TO YOU. I DON'T MEAN A THING AND MY HEART IS PAINING. I TRY TO DECLING AND YOU TELL ME NOT TO. I END UP BEING TOO CLINGY AND YOU TELL ME TO john tesh OFF. I CAN'T TAKE THIS mini cooper ANYMORE AND APPARENTLY YOU CAN'T TAKE MY mini cooper?! WHAT DID I john teshING DO. YOU SAY I'M LYING. WELL YOU KNOW WHAT GO AHEAD AND SAY IT. YOU TELL ME PLEASE CHANGE ALL OF YOUR PASSWORDS, WHEN YOU STILL KEEP TABS ON ME AND I DON'T KNOW HOW THE john tesh YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MY PERSONAL INNER LIFE. YOU HAVE LIKE STALKER STATUS MATERIAL ON ME. YOU SAY HAVE FUN WITH KEVIN!? john tesh YOU. YOU RUINED MY LIFE. MORE LIKE YOU GO AND HAVE SOME FUN YOU SLUT. GOING ON A DATE THE NIGHT YOU DUMP ME FOR A my happy poopoo REASON. john tesh YOU. john tesh ALL THE TIMES I'VE EVER BELIEVED YOUR LOVE.

[KoReAbabiixoxo<3]

- i'm insanely worried about my english grade. i can't wait till i go to a university. no IB courses and exams EVER AGAIN
- i'm stressing over the AP exam i took today. i don't want to see my results... but i'm aiming to stay positive!
- i'm having second-thoughts about this guy that i rejected... not exactly the most pleasant feeling. actually, very unsatisfying -________-;;
- i just ate a crapload of food and it's 11 at night. i need to control myself. but i looooove sushi and fried rice T_____T i love love love love love eating in general <3 <3 <3
- my freshman year of high school is gonna be over in a few weeks. i'm going to miss everything about it... SO. MUCH.
- i waste too much time on soompi... heheh C;

[twinkle_l0ve]

I have the worst friends in history - 3 of my closest friends are bailing my 18th birthday party tonight.

[skeezeee]

I haven't posted here in a long time -- that's supposed to be good right ? :|
Sooo what's up with you, why are you suddenly hiding things from me -__- it's btohering me, and i can't sleep. you say you're being stupid -- so whatsup? why bother telling me a fkn part when you don't have intentions on telling me the whole story? ugh ..