[SKINNY_GENES]

i'm specifically making this thread in this section because i want mature, sincere, serious replies. alright, here's the scenario:



- my current bf went thru a divorce about one and a half years ago.
- he said that they weren't compatible. it just wasn't meant to be. he said that they rushed into things.
- about 2-3 months after his divorce, he met me.
- we started seeing each other, me---completely unaware of his divorce.
- 3-4 months into dating, he revealed to me that he was married before.
- i asked him why he couldn't tell me in the beginning------he said that he didn't think he'd fall for me, didn't think his feelings would get this serious.
- i was pretty torn at that point, since i was really starting to fall for him. and also because i felt like the rebound girl.
- (no, we did not sleep together)
- i broke off the relationship because i couldn't accept the fact that he kept that secret from me. and i couldn't get over the fact that he was once willing to spend the rest of his life with someone, whether the marriage worked out or not. it's not like it's his ex-gf. it's his ex-WIFE. *barf*
- he persistently kept pursuing me, told me that he's totally over her, and told me that he wants me and only me.
- i rejected his a$$ because i couldn't stand the fact that he was married before, even though the marriage lasted for a few months.
- i have a hard time getting over him, so i said F-this, and started talking to him again---for a year or so. during that period, we had our ups and down.
- but during that year, he asked me, on several occasions, to be his gf. i rejected his a$$ every time he brought it up.
- i asked him about his ex---he says that he's totally over her. i really really really want to believe him.
- about 3 weeks ago, he asked me to be his gf. i said yes, because i can't control how i feel about him anymore.



i've always wanted to make things official with him, and i've always wanted to be his gf. however, just the fact that he's divorced... the fact that he loved someone else so much to the point where he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her, makes me nauseous and breaks my heart. i know that the past is the past, and i know that i should just focus on US, but somehow, it's just really difficult for me to look past that particular point in his past. he tells me he's over her, and i believe him, but i really do question him at times. like for example, i had to use his computer to check my email because my wifi was cracked out, and his email account just happened to be logged on. i looked at his contacts list, unintentionally, and he still had his ex's email saved on the list. he also has her sn's on his buddy list... i was so tempted to delete her from his contacts and stuff, but that's crossing the line. i respect him and his privacy, and i trust him. but he still has her number stored on his phone... he still has his wedding ring... and he probably still has pictures of her and of their wedding stored somewhere in his room or computer. this, to me, isn't really a sign of someone fully over someone. and i can't even talk to him about this stuff because it annoys him. and i don't want to keep bringing his ex up because it feels like the more i bring her up, the more he's gonna think about her. so i just really keep all of this stuff to myself, because it's humiliating and hurts my ego as a woman. and plus, not to sound cocky, but i'm like way hotter than her. yet i'm so insecure because i can't help myself but think that he compares me to her from time to time. SIGH. i hate feeling this way because it really deters me from focusing on me and him----the way it should be.




so fellas!! do you guys think he's over her? we haven't slept together yet because i'm kinda... testing him, i guess. it's been a year since we've "been together" and i tease him sooooo much puhaha. and when things start to get way too hot and heavy, i push him away. he hates me when i do that because he wants it so bad, and so do i, but i'm just not ready yet. and he respects that. so technically, he's been waiting for me for a year, and he hasn't been with anyone during that time, and restrained himself from getting laid when he could have, in order to prove his commitment to me.

is it crazy that i'm feeling this way? am i over analyzing? or do you really think he's not over her yet, and that i should just call it quits and move on with my life, even though we're in love with each other? or should i just get over his past and focus on our future? but my ultimate question is: IS HE OVER HER?






sigh.

[SKINNY_GENES]

lol 15 views and no reply??!!


cmon fellas~