[Raix]

Most of you I think, no matter how much you saw whatever part of yourself, it probably isn't that bad. Heck, even what I hate isn't horrendously horrible when I think about it but it's bugging me so much I don't know what to do T_T

Okay so I was born with CP, mostly affecting me on one side. Fortunately, I can still walk, although with a bit of a limp, talk, do most things, I'm just horribly unco and slow. But whatever a lot of people are too, I can live with that. My main problem is my legs are now really uneven and I hate it so much, to the point I can't wear anything higher than my ankles without wanting to cry.

Anyway, does anyone have any tips to how I can just get over this. I know the whole thing about being confident enough in yourself blahblahblah, and I've been trying that, but in the end, I still freak out and break down ._.; There are so many things I want to wear but I can't without feeling stupid.

The best part? I thought I'd be fine before even though my parents warned me this would happen, because I was a bit of a tomboy and thought I'd be okay just wearing long pants all the time That failed.

Does anyone, anywhere, out there have a problem that's somewhat even a little bit like mine? ^^;

[boka]

Anyway, does anyone have any tips to how I can just get over this. I know the whole thing about being confident enough in yourself blahblahblah, and I've been trying that, but in the end, I still freak out and break down ._.;

It's good that you've been trying... yeah, the whole "you just need to be more confident" thing is much easier said than done. The reason is they've missed a step - confidence is actually the easy part, it builds up quite quickly by itself if you can just find the courage first.

Do you remember when you were a kid and you felt fearful/insecure/hesitant about doing something (eg. a blood test, learning to swim or ride a bike etc.) and after doing it, you think "that wasn't so bad", then after a few more times it becomes a non-issue? Building confidence is as easy as that - the hard part is finding that initial push.

Every time you hide something, you become more and more addicted to the feeling of safety/reassurance and this makes you want to hide it even more. The cycle perpetuates to the point that it makes you feel irrationally anxious and insecure if you don't hide it. The anxiety blows everything out of proportion - it's like wearing something that you don't usually wear and you think everyone's going to look at it where in actual fact most don't and of those who do, none of them would really care.