[o0s0phia0o]

This might be a stupid story but here goes.
In school I was considered "cute". Last year I was hospitalized for 2 months. I have SLE and kidney problem and I discharged this New Year's.
I dropped out of school and I'm on medication. The medication made my face look chubby and I look kind of different but my body is still slender.
I'm afraid to go out and meet my friends or my crush or even hang out around here.(I haven't seen anyone at all) I'm scared of what they'll say about how I look and I don't even update my pictures on my site anymore. But sometimes I tell myself that it's healthy looking >.< .I got comments like "you should eat less" (i barely even eat) "you changed so much" and "how does it feel cause you know, you so pretty before" and that was from my cousin"

how can i make myself feel better? i know i might sound stupid but i just want to be the same old me with everyone treating me the same.
Before&After?

[i_LiNA]

You're still the same girl everyone knows, no matter how you've changed. As long as you feel confident in yourself and don't let those comments get to you, you'll be fine. Honestly, who cares what they say. "Never explain - your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway."
Besides, as long as you're healthy, nothing else really matters. I know it's going to be hard facing the world again, but really, you're still gorgeous and cute. Just keep smiling, no matter what, and keep being yourself.

P.S. Your cheeks are adorable Can I pinch?

[The Pink Panda]

First of all, I'm sorry to hear about your condition, do you know why the medication is making your cheeks chubby? I've never heard of that as a side-effect of SLE drugs, maybe you could arrange for a different brand if this is bothering you too much.

Secondly, I think you still look very cute. Your friends should be supportive if they're really friends, and ignore the other comments, idiots aren't worth your time.

[naoto]

One step at a time. Get better first. You already have the looks, you know why you gained weight. Wait until you are fully healed before caring about appearance. Not that you look terrible in the second picture either.


When you are better you can slowly lose the weight by dieting or whatever. Hey maybe this is a good life experience, I've had a couple of friends who were like average looking before they were pretty and even though they are eye balled by all guys they still have awesome personalities (not to say pretty people are all mean)

[yoroihiro]

appearance doesn't matter..personality wins all
you are pretty for sure even after medication
maybe if you're nearby..i could fall into you
i want to hug you ... to make you feel better
but it's true you're pretty

feel better? be confident of your current appearance
usually, at first, your friend will tease you
but after awhile they'll be cool with your appearance
and after you turn slimmer again, maybe some of they will miss your look now...

[Tayl]

hmm, I kinda had the same experience 8 months ago... I got stabbed in the face and had to get stitches.. It swelled like crazy and I had to miss school for like a month.. Anyways, the swelling went down, got the stitches out, and my scar is healing ^~^

So if you were beautiful once, your going to be beautiful again. ^^

P.S. I cried... Alot...

[xwinnie_lovex]

if they are your real friends
then they wouldnt care about how you look and still treat you the same

but if theyre not your real friends
well now you know

about your crush. he should like you no matter what you look like
and same thing as the friend situation
now you know if he actually likes you or if he just liked you for your looks

like others said up there
get better first before you start to care too much about your looks

looks these days are important but how will you look good if youre not even healthy?

[aiyan]

Honestly, I think it's your hair. In the second picture, your bangs are covering your eyes and doesn't look as well done as the first picture. Just get a nice haircut and you'll be good to go.

A little extra weight can be put off (in a healthy way). Don't worry too much about it and be glad you're healthy now!

As everyone else said, your friends should treat you the same (as well as your crush) or they weren't good friends to begin with.

[MaryMagdalin]

its just weight
later it will go away no worries
if they are your true friends then they will stand by you

[xxxxxxx]

awww I'm sorry about your condition. I hope you get better but I have to say, You look cute! Chubby cheeks or not! (:
Just continue to live your life that you had before the medication (: No one should treat you differently because you're the same person.

[daulism]

Yess, get better first. You got summer don't you?

[kiralz0mg]

I think the bloating is just temporary ^^ my lil sis's friend has colon problems and she was gone for months and when she came back to school her face got extremely bloated o: but in time the bloatedness will go away o:

[supa'Wanki]

They'll understand your health condition and be considerate. Don't worry, they're your friends!

[In.tro}]

G-G-Girl, don't worry~
Real friends will always
stay & a real man would
look past and see more
than a pretty face =)

<3 someone who cares

[ly*chee]

Wow some of the responses you posted from your cousin and such are pretty harsh... =/
But that's how family is sometimes.
I think whats more important is your health instead of your appearance.
I actually think you're still really cute in the second picture, just smile more!
Smiles work wonders for physical appearances.

I'm sure your friends are more worried about whether you're okay or not.

[i_4got]

Oh wow, I hope your cousin apologized for that comment because that was really unnecessary. Do some of your friends know that you have a medical condition? If they don't, they might think you put on extra weight naturally.

Anyway! I know people who have also had problems with their kidney functions. I've been told that it's not unusual for you to appear as if you've gained a lot of weight in your face. It's actually not fat, your face is just temporarily retaining more water than usual. There's not much you can really do about it; it's just something that will eventually go back to normal.

Just remember: you're still the same person that you were before this whole incident. It's absolutely normal to want things to go back to "normal" after a life-altering experience. Just look forward to getting better and going back to school. Things can never go back to the way they were, but things can always get better (but only if you keep yourself from getting depressed). Good luck!

[sb08]

You're still cute, I think it's normal to not be confident when things like this happen. The key is to stay positive, even though its easier said than done. You have to find the things that will make you stay upbeat and positive. I think if your friends are really your friends they wouldn't care much about how your appearance has changed. Just be yourself and things will work itself out.

[angels.disguise]

stay positive
eat healthy (because you're barely eating)
dont over do it

your still you.
& im sure you'll get back to normal soon.

[한스 ㅋㅋ]

IMO, you will look much more better now than previous one if you lose a tiny bit of weight.
so you shouldn't think it's all negative, you just need to lose a little bit of weight that's all.

[insanelyCRAZY]

Wow some of the responses you posted from your cousin and such are pretty harsh... =/
But that's how family is sometimes.
I think whats more important is your health instead of your appearance.
I actually think you're still really cute in the second picture, just smile more!
Smiles work wonders for physical appearances.

I'm sure your friends are more worried about whether you're okay or not.

ditto.

smile inside and out. (:
for yourself and for your true friends, because your true friends want you to be happy just as much as you do. (: