[ax1989]

PS: I don't know why I'm posting this - I just feel awful. I aplologise.

So.. I got accepted to med school... aand, I know, I should be happy. My parents are happy. I AM, somewhat happy. But not 100% because I dunno.. I'm stupid?

I am basically in *LOVE* with this guy, who is ALSO a premed, but he is doing an extra year (but we're the same age) .. and initially I thought I wasn't going to get in, but I didn't feel so bad because I thought, I'd stay another year with him, and we'll become closer friends... eventually into something... call me weird, but I was actually "glad" and "comforted"...... my gosh.

And I just got to know him this year - it's very very much a huge accomplishment for me because a) I'm terribly shy B ) I'm terribly shy

And I actually went up to him FIRST and spoke to him, and now we're good friends for 4 months. I never thought we'd even BE friends, and I'm amazed at the accomplishment I had made with him thus far. (Even more amazed than me getting into med school)

But now that I got in.. I'm going to have to leave (it's off-campus) and most likely I will never see him again. (He's quite shy, too) And it'd make me feel so much better if I knew for sure that he liked me back - but I don't know.

BUT , I have this gut feeling that if I get to know him more (it's only been 4 months, come on..) this might develop into something more.. and I had a feeling that this time, he'd be the one or something silly like that. There just wasn't enough time for us to take this friendship to the next level, you know what I mean?

I don't know... I KNOW I should go to medschool (and I will, of course, do you know how effing hard it was to get in?) but I also don't feel happy at all! I hate myself! Why am I so stupid? I'm tellin ya, it's not just a 'crush' - I've liked him for 4 years, and had the guts to speak to him merely 4 MONTHS ago.

Again.. I don't know why I posted.. but I just wanted to talk to people about it. I never stopped thinking about him. It has almost turned into pure obsessiveness.

EDIT: Even if we tell each other to 'keep in touch' - he lives 2 hours away from me, and it's HIGHLY unlikely that any of us would do anything about it... mostly, I am hoping he'd make some move, but UGGH..

[[HyuNi]]

Wow. I hope you're not thinking of not going to grad school...
Don't let your heart decide for you instead of your brain... at least this time.
The heart tends to make insanely irrational choices.

If you really like him that much, tell him.
Shy guys usually don't have the guts to do anything about it.
What do you have to lose?

[ax1989]

Yeah, I know I SHOULD - but I'm not brave enough... I also have this idea that he's not ready for anything at this moment - because he's studying very hard, too.

[WoopieDaDoo]

Not brave enough? lol.. I honestly do not believe that.
Look at what you wrote down. You are stating that you had a crush on him for 4 years.
Ask yourself this. "What if I don't tell him how I feel?"
You think about that, then you will even regret more. You should at least try.
And If he's not ready for it, He'll let you know. And you don't have to feel bad about it. I don't think it'll affect his study much if you tell him your feelings.
If your REALLY in love with this guy as you said you were, then I personally think that you should definitly tell him how you feel, before your chance is gone.
Education is important indeed, you should not throw that away. Especially if you're going to med school T_T
But... love is important too. So if it does work out, you need to try to balance both in your life.
There are many people in distance relationships that are still together as of now, and they are also studying hard in school.
So you shouldn't worry much. There's always a solution for everything.
If you tell him your feelings and he likes you too, and you guys want to start a relationship, make sure you guys have a thorough conversation first how you guys are going to balance it out.
What will happen? Only one way to find out.

Best of luck,

Brandon

[qquinto]

ahhhhh i kinda know how you feel
i didn't get into med school or anything butttt i do feel the pressure of time. school is ending and every time i see him it's like tick tock tick tock
if you really want something, go for it. i'm going to try to make a move sometime within the next month ha ha :c but yeah i'm not very brave either.. and the guy i like doesn't seem like he's thinking about relationships/girls right now ughh.

i think when we're near the end, we'll be able to forget our insecurities though. the whole "it's now or never" and "whatever happens, happens" mentality will kick in. (hopefully)

[xsusanz]

confess too him.
i bet he will confess right back.
how well do you guys talk? look for small signs..he might possibly be interested in you, but is just shy.

[Lie]

I don't think that education is more important than love.

[liztical]

Do what you want to do --- but just be aware that you shouldn't do anything that you'll regret in the future.
I personally think that you should pursue your med school dreams and go there and work hard.
Which med school you get into?

[__sleepyhead]

I think you should go to med school. If you think about it, your partner might not be with you for the long run, but your education is. (:

[musicpoplove]

people change anll the time
you have many chances in love

education doesnt
and think like u have one chance
who knows something might happen

[[HyuNi]]

I know it's hard to tell someone you like them.
But if you're too scared to do even that, then I doubt you like him as much as you say you do.

Loving takes courage,
receiving love takes capacity.

That's just how it works. Plain & simple.

You'll realize that at least trying will give you a chance no matter how slim, while not telling him will always result in failure. You don't have to do anything, but don't look back later and ask yourself 'what if'... because it's going to pain you.

[jellyace]

Tell him how you feel!!! It's now or never since you're leaving for med school. If he likes you back then I'm sure you guys will work something out. If you dont tell him, you'll just end up regretting it.

[ax1989]

thanks for all the responses! I really appreciate it - yeah, I might tell him indirectly or something... I'll figure something out.

[Kirei_BoA]

you have to also keep in mind that education is really important in the fact that maybe this guy isn't who you think he is? i mean don't throw your goals out the window for a guy you barely even know. if he's a jerk in disguise, then you just threw your education out the window. i can understand you like him a lot, but there are a lot of guys out there and you need to try to be open to the fact that you will find many guys better than that guy. i'm stressing the fact that you barely know this guy. you should really think about your goals and the things you consider important. in the end, he's not important. maybe it sounds harsh to you, but it's true.

[AsianL0ve]

you met this guy for a year...
and how much years did it take for you to even get to med school, prepare for it?....
throwing it all a way for that, I think not.

[tizzy1]

if you guys really like each other you WILL make the effort to see each other or keep in touch regardless of the distance. me and my boyfriend were not going to go out because i was going to school 3-4 hours away, but we decided that we'd date and see how it went. right now we're going extremely strong and we made the effort to see each other by traveling every weekend (more so him driving every weekend but regardless!)

don't hate yourself just because you chose school over him! if you really like him you shouldn't let your shyness get the best of you! keep in touch with the guy and don't just wait for him to make the move; if he's shy, he's probably wondering if you like him etc etc.

i feel like you might as well ask if he likes you since you believe that when you go to school you'll lose touch, then you sort of have nothing to lose, you know?

good luck!

[AngelsWhisper]

why don't you say, "I just want to get it off my chest, but I like you." Since it is your and his last year. Why not?^^ good luck ♥

[sodaniechea]

how far away is med school from where he goes?

[maharu.]

I wouldn't waste my chances for a guy. I mean education is a priority and helps you in the long run.
Would leaving that help you in the long run? Plus, it is not guaranteed if it's worth it.


Well anyway confess to him directly...indirectly usually fails. Maybe something can come up if you take the courage.

[x~Rin~x]

do both.

personally, if it were me it would be med school all the way. there are plenty of fish in the sea... but since you seem to really like this dude, my best suggestion would be to take action and stop waiting. confess, tell him how you feel, drop him obvious hints, whatever you do, and then once you are both on the same page, figure out a way to achieve both. trust me, pure, sincere determination can make many unimaginable things possible... you two gotta believe, and remember... "if there's a will, there's a way."