[~dhluvr4ever~]

Okay you guys ! Hello (:

Umm, i just recently got mi'self a white boyfriend
& i'm asian.
Im not racist or anything, but he asked me out
TWICE, and i didn't want to turn him down a 3rd time.

He's not exactly an eyesore, or an eyepleasure.

I didn't really know what i saw in him; but he's just really
nice and sweet. HOWEVER @ times i feel as if I AM the DUDE
in the relationship X)
-he's really sensitive& told me he cried for me. O_O

I just get weird/bad chills when he sends me gushy messages,
like Mel+Bob (for privacy, not real names.) ehh, im just
not used to that...well coming from him. [geeez im ranting]

Iono, he says he really likes me, and it makes him happy
that there's just someone that thinks about him.
But it's super awkward for me..Before this bf/gf thing i saw
him as my brother (from another mother ! ^^)

*EDIT:
truth is, i LOVE giving him hugs, and i'm always thinking about him.
I don't mind being with him, it just feels if im not connected.
he doesn't exactly have the same interests in me, but he's willing
to change for me. but seriously; i don't deserve any of what's he
giving me ?

I guess he's just not my type ? oh gosh, any experiences like this ? >___>
im doomed. should i keep going? or take a break ? x]
first boyfriend btw ! i'd appreciate all your wise words.
& please don't make fun of me

OH, AND THANK YOU GUYS FOR DEALING WITH ME (:

[prisonerzero]

If you don't like him, break up with him.
It doesn't sound like you like him at all.

[~dhluvr4ever~]

If you don't like him, break up with him.
It doesn't sound like you like him at all.

yeah i know, but all my have been telling me to give it a try and stuff.
ugh i hvae to edit this.
i wasn't clear enough xD

[hirotoki]

i guess wait a bit longer and see??
but to me it sounds like u dated him out of sympathy ( u already turned him down twice..)

[~dhluvr4ever~]

i guess wait a bit longer and see??
but to me it sounds like u dated him out of sympathy ( u already turned him down twice..)

lols yeah kinda. XD actually...that is pretty much true.

[prisonerzero]

And yeah, when you date him out of sympathy,
it's not exactly fair to the guy. :/
I guess you should just wait longer and see what happens.

[~dhluvr4ever~]

And yeah, when you date him out of sympathy,
it's not exactly fair to the guy. :/
I guess you should just wait longer and see what happens.

^ oh yes, i know. i feel bad for that. like i said, i dont really
deserve any of his thoughts towards me. i just don't wanna break
up with him and hurt him. he's SUPER sensitive ! but i'll
understand if he breaks up with me. yes i'll wait and see.

[prisonerzero]

Well, just make sure not to lead him on...
'Cause breaking up with him now would be less worse than leading him on
& then breaking up with him after.

Good luck.

[lisalee89]

Don't lead him on. Break up with him now honey.

[,astrolicious]

It sounds like you don't like him (But I really wouldn't know)
Perhaps you should end it earlier to save both of you trouble.
Before he gets any more attached and into you, right?
I wouldn't say you're leading him on since you probably just want some time to clear things out.
But since you didn't really like him from the beginning
but you saw him more like a brother, perhaps it's better now than later.
Well good luck : ) Hope it goes alright!

[~dhluvr4ever~]

It sounds like you don't like him (But I really wouldn't know)
Perhaps you should end it earlier to save both of you trouble.
Before he gets any more attached and into you, right?
I wouldn't say you're leading him on since you probably just want some time to clear things out.
But since you didn't really like him from the beginning
but you saw him more like a brother, perhaps it's better now than later.
Well good luck : ) Hope it goes alright!

aww, thanks for understanding.
xD i'm having alot of mixed feelings right now.

thanks though ! (:

[nathaniel]

to me, it sounds like since this is your first boyfriend, you're feeling weird because your doing something you've never done and you're probably out of your zone. that's usual sometimes for first relationships, maybe wait a while longer until you feel like you can handle a boyfriend or maybe wait until you find someone you really, really like.

so my advice is like others, end it.
leading someone on can be an accident, but when you can control it, it's just being mean. ;x

[Eww]

=/ it feels like you just agreed because you felt bad for him. >.< Pity relationships always turn out to be a sad experience! Don't go on with it if you really REALLY sure you don't like him!

[mukinsvivi]

make like a tree and leave! hehe .

seriously :/ . Your prob. still with him because he's your 1st bf >.< !! I never had a bf before.. but if i did i would would want it to spectacular.. and if it didnt really go as plan..i would try to stick with it for awhile.. but if you dont like him ..and feel akward O_O jsut let him go

[sixth.]

that happened to me last year! exact same situation
in the end i broke up with him, because it wasn't fair for him - i wasn't sure about my feelings and didn't want to be wasting his time/leading him on... didn't want him thinking that i actually did like him (not that i didn't... but i wasn't sure i liked him enough to be going out with him)
after we broke up, i felt sooo much better

good luck with whatever you decide to do (:

[Saja]

is there a physical attraction?... if there isnt much there .... and not much emotional connection it wont last long..... good luck..

[AhYee]

Don't take him for granted because you know he's always going to be there for you.
Hurt him now before you hurt him even worse in the future.
I think you were just excited to be getting into something new, and that's why jumped into it.
You were nice, though, to have said yes the third time even though you probably knew you didn't like him the same way.
If I were in this situation, I would've straight up said no, just so I wouldn't have to get into any kind of mess... sort like you are right now.
But good for thinking of his feelings, especially since he seems to be quite sensitive.
Be strong and just end it, now.