[m_girl07]

I just wanted to see if anyone else on soompi is in a similar situation and I just thought it would be nice to just let everything out at the same time.

My mom passed away last year on May. 8th (the past Friday) due to a stroke that was pretty much unexpected. She was diabetic but it wasn't that severe, she didn't need to take insulin, just monitor her sugar level. I don't want to go through too many details because I'm afraid I might start crying at my keyboard but on the night that it happened, I remember the EMS people performing CPR and my dad was standing at the side not knowing what tot think and I was just frozen. It didn't really hit me until I was at the hospital and bawling my eyes out while I was holding her hand.
Can you believe the head nurse had the nerve to ask me if she would want to donate her organs if she passed on?! I just looked at her and politely said "I don't know". But that's not exactly the right time to ask something something like that...To cut it short, they performed brain surgery to drain out the access blood and although it was successful, the doctors said it was up to her to wake up but she didn't have a very high chance of doing so because the bleeding reached the middle of the brain, even if she did, she'd spend the rest of her life strapped to tubes. After a week, we made a choice as a family to let her go peacefully. (How she actually left us is the prologue of my fanfic)

I'm the oldest so I kind of took on the role of the one that holds everyone together. But sometimes, I just want someone to talk to too. Everyone tells me they're their for me and I tell people I'm close to that I'm okay but there are times where a girl needs her mother. I've always been a daddy's girl but that doesn't mean I don't love my mom too. Sometimes I think, when I graduate from university, she won't be there, when I get married, she won't be there. I've always been an optimistic person so I try to look on the bright side of things and although I do accept it, sometimes I think life is just not fair...

I just wanted to share my story and thanks to anyone who took the time to listen

[bgirlxstylistic]

i'm very sorry to hear that..
this mothers day, i was more reminded of my great aunt that recently passed earlier this year.
she was like a mother to everyone she met, & i couldn't help to feel sad for my aunt.
but hey, keep your head up high.
when you hit your important milestones such as your grad, wedding etc.
always know she's watching over you smiling, along with who you have now as well.

much love <3

[vangsweetie637]

i definitely feel the emptiness of what you are. while i have not lost my mother, i've lost someone as close as a mom to me. all the thoughts going through your mind were the same as mine. all the sadness that she wouldn't be there when i marry, when i graduate, when i have my own family...breaks my heart apart. i lost her a week after her birthday. but i don't know, too. because as much as i miss her, i keep walking on with my life. it seems like i do that day by day and of course, it still hurts deep inside. but i think it's the fact that i cannot turn back the time to save her that makes me realize it's best to move on. i know she is still watching over me and still loves me because when i dream about her, she talks to me and still remembers who i am. i think that's enough to soothe my heart when it hurts. sure, it's not enough as a whole but it's enough as a piece from her to me. i'm not going to tell you how you should feel or what you should do. i've come to learn that it will be wrong of me to comfort you as i, too, have gone through the process of losing someone special. i don't know what to say, really.

[m_girl07]

i'm very sorry to hear that..
this mothers day, i was more reminded of my great aunt that recently passed earlier this year.
she was like a mother to everyone she met, & i couldn't help to feel sad for my aunt.
but hey, keep your head up high.
when you hit your important milestones such as your grad, wedding etc.
always know she's watching over you smiling, along with who you have now as well.

much love <3

Thank you . When I hit those important milestones, I'll always have that voice in my head that wants her to be there but I know she'll be proud no matter what I do. Sometimes when I'm at home or accomplishing something, I feel as if she's there with me.

i definitely feel the emptiness of what you are. while i have not lost my mother, i've lost someone as close as a mom to me. all the thoughts going through your mind were the same as mine. all the sadness that she wouldn't be there when i marry, when i graduate, when i have my own family...breaks my heart apart. i lost her a week after her birthday. but i don't know, too. because as much as i miss her, i keep walking on with my life. it seems like i do that day by day and of course, it still hurts deep inside. but i think it's the fact that i cannot turn back the time to save her that makes me realize it's best to move on. i know she is still watching over me and still loves me because when i dream about her, she talks to me and still remembers who i am. i think that's enough to soothe my heart when it hurts. sure, it's not enough as a whole but it's enough as a piece from her to me. i'm not going to tell you how you should feel or what you should do. i've come to learn that it will be wrong of me to comfort you as i, too, have gone through the process of losing someone special. i don't know what to say, really.

You said you don't know what to say but you've actually said quite a lot. I'm sorry you lost her a week after her birthday. While my mom was in a coma, her birthday actually came up but no one said anything. I think they all knew but didn't want to believe it. Thanks for offering your words of comfort because reading both of your posts puts a smile on my face