[xiaobaitu]

This is just what happened to me, I did something silly and it seems months later
I'm getting my comeuppance.
This is very long, sorry, but it is also true.

Basically my boyfriend and I were in love for almost two years,
even though we hardly ever saw each other because we lived far apart
and my parents wanted to keep us apart... but we were really in love with each other,
I didn't even look at other guys because I felt that no-one compared to him.

That lasted until about last Christmas, I had felt a bit distant from him because
it had been so long since we saw each other, we met over Christmas but it was just
a bit strange and maybe awkward, iono.

Anyway I did something really stupid that I'm not proud of, I cheated on him.
I started liking this other guy- let's call him Guy B- and at first it was just flirting
and then I started seeing him behind my boyfriend's (Guy A?) back.
I know, I'm despicable, and I always thought that girls who cheat or can't pick
between guys were so stupid, yet there I was in that situation.

After a few weeks I couldn't take it anymore so I had to break it off with Guy A,
which is the worst thing I've ever had to do.
I was really upset and really guilty, crying for days, etc.
Luckily Guy B was there for me

We were together for months and months and I was so happy, Guy B was perfect.
A little dorky, hot and really sweet, he would do things like kiss my on the top of my head
or kiss the tip of my nose or wipe away my tears when I cry (I do that a lot)

We saw each other behind my parents' backs because they are very overprotective and
disapprove of things like that, especially since Guy B is not a Christian. So really we only ever
went to my house or to the park, which annoyed me a bit but we lived with it.

At Easter I saw Guy A again for the first time since we split, since our churches go away
together at Easter. And.. I started to get feelings for him again, so when I got back I tried to
break up with Guy B, not only because of that but because Guy B is not a Christian, and we believe that's wrong, etc.

Anyway my attempt failed because, well, Guy B took it really well and maturely,
but I'm so weak I wanted him back :$

Ever since then it went really well with us two. We got really close and
(though we both think that "love" is used too casually these days)
we even said that we loved each other once.

Last Saturday he went out with his friends and got pretty drunk and he called me,
which was really funny. Then when it started wearing off he got really embarrassed
which was even funnier
he said he loved me again, for the first time in months.

Last Tuesday (so about 3 days later) we met up and went to the park. He seemed
a bit weird and we were talking and he was saying how he didn't really want to be in a relationship
and maybe we could give it a rest, see if we really wanted to be together.
I wanted to cry, but I didn't want to do that in front of him, since it would make me look like
a really pathetic little girl wanting attention.
I didn't even when he gave me a hug and said, "Sorry," really quietly.
I only cried when he left, in the middle of the park and on my own I cried loudly.

It is now Thursday. We had been going out for 4 months, 19 days.

I think I got what I deserved for what I have done to them both.
Cheating on Guy A
Stringing along Guy B
Toying with Guy A
Trying to break up with Guy B, then taking it back

I miss my Guy B.

[SHINEE_jonghyun<3]

well, i know you must be heartbroken right now.
i was getting annoyed as i was reading your story but i felt a little better because you actually know what you did was wrong and that you deserve what you got. but you know..you kind of force excuses for your behavior. for example, you wanted to break up with guy B because he wasn't christian, but seriously, just admit that you wanted to break up with him because you wanted to get together with A..cus youve been going out with guy B for quite a while and all of the sudden you decide that yo ushould break up with him because he's not christian? doesn't make sense..

and yea..
you're story is sad on your side.
but speaking from a non-involved person's POV, just let both of them go.
you've been cheating&toying with the both of them and I think that's already bad enough.
it's going to be hard...but you're still young right?
so forget about the both of them and start new.
ok so people summed up what i wanted to say in a nice way.
just dont go for either of them because honestly, i feel bad for any guy who ends up with you//

[joxxy]

You should be with who makes you happier.
And pick one; because well... that's the way it is lol.
Stop going back and forth between the two guys because they have feelings too.
I think one of the worst things you can do in a relationship is to cheat.
But it seems like you like Guy B more right now, which is good if you don't go back to Guy A again.
One of the consequences of cheating on someone is your image, because guys will be like "oh if she did it once, she can do it again".
You're really lucky that Guy A wasn't a complete douche to you.
But if Guy B really loves you like he said, then there's a chance that he'll apologize to you and agree to be in a relationship with you.
Give it time~
My friend cheated on her bf with another guy (for a few months), and her bf found out through pictures someone posted (they were in a long distance relationship ; horrible way to find out.) They broke up, and all of us told her that she couldn't go out with the guy she cheated on with because it would hurt her ex bf. But guess what; she decided to date him! But they ended up breaking up, and her original ex took her back BUT he had a really hard time trusting her, and just gave her a hard time in general. They're still together though :X So corrupted.

[FusionGT2]

Well everyone should know how it is. Karma always ends up getting you back some way some how. I just find it sad that no matter how much someone can like another, it doesnt always work out in the end. I feel for Guy A. I mean you guys went thru so much together. I cant really blame you, though. Time spent away from each other does eventually take its toll and your feelings begin to waver. Guy B just happened to be in the right position to be there for you to fill that empty void you felt when you couldnt see Guy A. Again, I feel for Guy A cuz it was out of his control.. Personally, I've been in both sides' position before and I gotta say its a great opportunity to get a good girl who is in the need (as role of Guy B ), but it hurts like hell when I was in Guy A's position. In the end its just a cycle.. people can never fully be satisfied or happy with themselves or who they're with. There will always be voids to fill and emptiness sometime during a relationship. What you, and everyone else needs to find is the strength to persevere and keep your heart where it should be. Dont we all wish we could find a s/o like that, though? Happiness is one of the hardest things to find these days.

Good Luck to ya.

[The Pink Panda]

I say it's time to start looking for Guy C

[angelcadex]

Yeah, I think its time for you to move on and have some time for yourself.

[flowoftime]

actually, i think what you did was stupid, along with all the drama you caused.
if you look at it, your boyfriend didnt deserve that, you caused him to stop loving you with
all the stuff you brought with guy B... <<

maybe you will learn from this a bit of self control,commitment and maybe just maybe you will someday
forget about what your parents think and follow what your heart tells you.
theres no way you can keep a good relationship when your parents dont let you see the other person...
or if they dont approve of them , you either rebel or deal with it.

i honestly dont think you should be with either one, its just gonna go downhill because of all the drama your
carrying on your back. would either one of those guys want to be with you after they know your unfaithful?
i dont think they would trust you very much.. maybe you just need to do some casual dating.

[-_-]

I say it's time to start looking for Guy C

Yeah.. or how about no guy at all?

[maharu.]

I'll vote for no guy as well cause I think I'll feel bad for the guys who end up with this girl.


I'll just be really honest.


You're REALLY selfish.
This is the only time I wished a guy cheated on YOU so you'll know how it feels.
That'll be lovely, wouldn't it?

[junsujunsu]

-.-"...i don't like you much

[CitrusFlower]

If you can't make up your mind then just don't date anyone at all. Your really selfish and because your feelings are insecure your basically playing with them to see who satisfy your feelings most. Karma's a pinkberry and one day you'll know how it would feel

[Overclocked]

What the scouter says about Goku's power level. Over Nine thousand
"Vegeta, what does the scouter say about his power?"
"It's over NINE THOUSAAAAAAAND!" (Over 9000)
"WHAT?! NINE THOUSAND?!

that is all.

oh and cheating is bad mmkay, I hope you get on the receiving end of it someday, only than will you realize the damage you have done. This 'karma' you received I hope is just the interest charge, and not the actual payment. The real thing should come later on.

Source: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=over+9000
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TBtpyeLxVkI

[BaboJen]

You know in the bible it says that you can't date anyone unless its for marriage?
And please learn to make up your mind before starting to date again cause you'll just end up hurting yourself and other. What you did was really stupid and the dramas you caused are unnecessary. It seems like you are very insecure about your feelings.

[heheman]

If you are having trouble sticking with one man, then you aren't really ready for a relationship.

[angels.disguise]

you dont deserve either guy a or guy b.
sooo someone needs to take a break from guys.

[jiangji]

Honestly speaking, I strongly do believe that karma does exist.
Nobody is perfect, and of course everybody can do bad things in their life.

But, it's very good that you knew what you did wrong. So, you better learnt your karma and took it as the lesson. But, it's also very important to remember what you did wrong to make sure that you do not repeat doing this bad things to someone else again in the future.

So, I think you better take some times off for yourself and move on. It's not very good to do bad things to good guys like Guy A and Guy B again and again unless they really love you and don't care about your behaviour of cheating.

[damyoungji]

Attraction makes people stupid and it seems like you were caught up in your emotions.

My best advice is to take a break and find yourself again. Sometimes the best way to get over these things are alone time.

You made some bad decisions, but there is no going back. The only way is to find a way to cope with what you want.

By the way, having Guy B back will not help anything. You will just be using him again to replace Guy A.

[Annersx3]

i understand how you feel. cept w/o the religion part. my guy b, ended things as well. he didnt wanna be in a relationship. i realized i kept goin bak to guy a cause i was so used to him and i didnt want change. but i knew all along i wanted guy b. i feel so bad for doing what i did. i apoligzed to guy a countless time and guy b as well. its been almost two yrs since i cheated. i apoligized to guy a for over one year. we're both friends now so it's good. i do believe in karma and yeah i've been getting mine for almost two years. it's okay i understand i caused it and i'm learning from it. good luck. i felt so ashamed and i'm just getting over it. it's an obstacle i gotta overcome that i caused that's all =]

[des monstres]

honestly, reading this made me feel.. extremely annoyed.
and don't say "then why'd you read it."
cause i wanted to.

but anyways.
this part..
" I tried to
break up with Guy B, not only because of that but because Guy B is not a Christian, and we believe that's wrong, etc."
annoyed me the most i think.
at first you didn't care that he wasn't christian,
or well.. that's what i was getting from you.
but then all of the sudden you try and justify why you're breaking up with guy b simply by saying that he was not a christian.

but seriously.
if you can't even make up your own frikin' mind..
spare them. don't try and toy with them any longer.
but sooner or later, they're gonna get sick of you.
or something along those lines.

:| yeah. just stop.
maybe you need a break in this whole relationship thing.
cause obviously you can't handle it very well.

[Dulce de Leche]

You should definitely take some time to yourself and time away from the both of them.