[The Legend]

Omfg...not so long ago (like 5 minutes ago )i received a call from a friend of mine. I thought it'd be a call confirming that he will be coming to my graduation bbq today.
But then he tells me if i heard that 'D' had drowned yesterday..and which i hadn't. i have NO details of how it happen i cant even function right now but i really need to say or type this up to anyone.
I havent herd from 'D' in so long and i feel so john teshing horrible..
Back in 10th grade (i graduated high school this past friday) we use to go out and he cheated on me with his ex and i never forgave hm. He then later in the summer said he loved me and everything and i still woudlnt forgive him and be freinds with him. so i stopped talking to him. He would send me txt here and then but i rarely would text back. He was a good guy..(well besides him cheating) and i kinda missed him and i couldve saw him last week since he was at a schol dance i went to. But i didnt find out he was there until i was at school and his best friend 'G' told me.
and now...hes john teshing gone. i didnt even get a chance to say goodbye or that i miss/forgive him. im balling righ tnow and i dont know what to do since today is my family/friend bbq.

i never had somone i knew die. its so john teshing hard to handle...omg i dont know what to do or say..
i never thought this would happen to anyone i know..

[jaeka]

Get it all out. <3 I can imagine there'll be a funeral for him. Make that your chance to say goodbye? Say all you need to say, I'm sure his spirit will hear. Do you not have a friend you can ring to talk to? I'm sure someone will be going through the same thing.
My condolences<3

[angelaness]

I so sorry to hear that.
I believe that it is best to forget the bad, remember some goods.
If you need to let it out, cry. It cannot change anything but you feel better.
Trust I cried my eyes out today because of somethings...
Promise me that you wont blame yourself for the death.
If you need to vent things out, punch a pillow! pow pow
Talking to a friend or maybe even a cat will make you feel much better.
Sometimes talking to strangers are kinda fun.
You are bascially talking to strangers in Soompi, unless you know the whole crew lol

Best of luck to you.
BE STRONG!!

[deathangelxd]

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It's okay, you couldn't have known. Be strong, time heals all wounds.

[mintcracker]

aww hope you'recoping =( stay strong...I guess you're so hung up bc you never got to tell him you weren'tmad at him anymore =(

[chungy]

sorry to hear that...

even if it is an ex with a bad ending....i'm sure it's upseting b/cs you once knew the guy

[YESUNGHWAITING!]

I'm so sorry.
Make your peace with him at the funeral. (assuming you're going)
You'll see him again one day.
(:

[Yuyu<3]

*hug*
Just let it all go
Forgive him and forgive yourself because that could really destroy you
Remember the good things and they will make you smile
I've lost someone and yes you never truly forget them but who would want to?
They were apart of your life
Stay strong and I'm sorry this happened to you

[damyoungji]

Let it all out. I know that you feel terrible that you didn't see him for the one last time, but it is something that we have to accept. A lot of people come and go without good-byes. Until this day, I still feel terrible for not seeing a close family member of mines who committed suicide out of nowhere a few years ago. I will be willing to give up some time of my own life just to ask her why she did it. However, it is not possible so in the end, hold on. Let it all out. If it helps, you can talk to your friends about him or his family (if you're close).

[Painterlyy]

You just need time to cry. Cry it all out. Talk to someone about it. It'll make you feel better. Time is the best medicine and that will slowly heal you

[AzizOnDeck]

I'm terribly sorry to hear about the incident =( I hope everything comes at an ease for you

[The Legend]

thank you guys sooo much. *hugs all*
i wanted to visit my friend (his best friend/like brother) but i couldnt reach him so i left a msg. they were also so very close.
i talked to a few of my friends about it and cried and that helped, im planning on doing more though.
thank you all <3 <3

[eggball]

Yeah...
Cry it all out....
It's over now, time heals all wound my dear.
Cheer up (:
All the best!

[mizgen17]

wow....i'm speechless...i really don't know what to say......i'm really sorry about what happened.....maybe u feel really guilty right now but like the other girl said time will cure all the pain....it might take awhile , just be strong ^^ ok?