Ever since I started watching anime, I just wished it was real. Why? Why not?
I would wish to have six pokemon on my pokebelt, and just call Charizard,
or live Ichigo's life in Bleach, or Goro's life in Major. You know, Rukia suddenly
appearing in your bedroom as a Shinigami, and saving her from Sould Society.
Or just having that love-hate relationship Goro developed in Major (For those
who don't know this anime, I strongly recommend it. It's at animecrazy).
Yeah, but then comes reality and boom! it strikes you with its omnipotent presence.
The night after watching like 20 chapters of anime, I would meditate in my bed,
in the weak-lit room, and think/wish "if it were real...". I imagine myself being that
character, in that 2-Dimensional anime world, and having those adventures. But the
subsequent depression/disappointment/desperation is almost unbearable, inexplicable.
Again, it's just an experience. I am a real person, with real emotions and real dreams
(as getting into MIT lol, or study medicine to help the needed people). And I accept
reality will be everlasting. Real humans are not perfect, physically or mentally. I also
accept reality is monotonous, and sometimes so boring and disappointing. In fact, that's why I have this weird emotions.
Haven't you had any similar fantasy-vs-reality-struggle, depression-causing experience?


































