[butttickler]

as long as you're okay. but it still hurts knowing that you leave by choice. i can ignore it for only so long but when i'm alone i really really really miss you. right now i really miss you. i'll be waiting. tomorrow. the next day. the next. every day afterwards. i'll stay up all night if i have to. just please let me see you. a few minutes can let me last a week.

[cheerydumdum]

to be honest, i kind of want to take the class so you'll notice me maybe. i don't know how, but i think it can happen. seriously, what happened to us? i don't understand why breaking up with me means throwing away everything. i feel so stupid doing all these things. i feel stupid always thinking about how things i put up on fb will show you how i'm not as boring as you thought i was. i know it's stupid, but that's just how i am. i want to make you regret it and i guess it's my pride that's making me feel this way. i don't want to look like the boring, naive girl you dumped. but sadly, i wouldn't mind being that boring, naive girl who had you again.

why do i even bother doing that? i hate missing you.

[_ShiKAndA_]

the more i write, the more easier it'll be for me.
i'll say all the things i want to say to you to no one. at least it's all out.

you're happy now. i'm jealous i can't be happy too.
i used to stay up into the weee hours of the night just to talk to you.
i won't be staying up anymore.
i can imagine you telling me "you're right. i don't care."

you were always so blunt. it made you real.

[starlightt*]

i won't regret my choice. i know i won't. i'm fed up with being ignored. honestly, not like i'll be missed if i'm gone.

[tofu plushie]

Sorry for being so stupid today =( I know I am so shy and awkward sometimes I end up pushing people away. I wish had more confidence for you to see the good parts in my personality.

[opalineskies]

i realize i need to keep my mouth shut because everytime i'm near you i end up saying something really stupid/crazy because i'm so nervous and trying to impress you. besides i know that nothing is going to happen between us because it can't, atleast not right now. i doubt you even care, i'm probably just another face and name you check off without another thought. though i'm still stuck with the delusion that maybe just maybe it isn't true....


feels good to write this out.

[Ayame-chan]

Why won't you trust me...? Why do you always talk to me and treat me as if I'm some immature teenager? Do you really think I don't take life seriously? Don't you realize how much your words affect me? My whole life, why have you never considered the fact that maybe, just maybe I feel seriously alone? You're my mother, shouldn't you know these things? No matter what I do, no matter how much I say it... I know I'll never be good enough for you. You'll never say the words, "I'm proud of you." No matter what I do... I know I'm just a disgrace to this darn family.

I know that's how you see me in your eyes... but I don't even know why...

[bonjour tristesse.]

tell me that you love me. tell me that you feel the exact same way.

[mintcracker]

Why do you have to be the way you are?
And why can't I just let you go?
Back in this again. I'm so weary.
But what can I do?

[ikay]

i wanna feel like i am needed..

[kp1shadow]

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[★ rain-a-sky ★]

J that's probably who you are. But that hurt like hell.
Z you don't deserve me. I have never done anything wrong to you and you do not get to treat me this way. I can't believe we were "best" friends. How can you be so shameless. From now on I am determined to avoid you at school and elsewhere.

[jaeka]

heh heh heh. you poked your head in psychology class today.
heh heh heh. i never knew you took psychology!
so you're an A2 student... will you be in the lecture hall, for interview with a murderer? i wonder...
i might say hello! we catch eye contact all the time... why don't we say hello?
your girlfriend is super pretty. =D she seems nice.

nnn. i just want new friendsss.

[sujulove]

I really miss you.
I hate this. I hate this feeling.
This uncertainty.
Can't you take my hand,
and hold onto it forever?
Can't it be that easy?

[_ShiKAndA_]

#1
how could i allow myself to love someone who would leave me?
i bet you never believed me when i told you i did.
you told me you believed me but if you did then why would you stop talking to me so abruptly?
you should know how it'd make me feel right? right?
i wonder if you'd be mad if i sent you a giant package.
i've been wanting to send you stuff before but i didn't get around to doing it.
i'm getting a laptop next week...

#2
you're a jerk. "thanks for the food but youre really quiet."
then what was "i like talking to you/you're fun to hang out with" all about?
stop LYING to me just to make me feel better. you suck you suck you suck
you deserved to get grilled on monday D:<
don't make me feel guilty for putting you down when you do it all the time.

[Everlasting Melody;]

I wish I can just turn back time when things used to be so simple and easy.
Now that we're far apart, I wish I could take back what I did.
I never knew how much emotional pain you're in.
I want to go up to you, but I have no idea how to approach you.
I shouldn't have prolonged things, and now, I'm pretty much screwed with guilt.
There's a lot I want to say, but all I can think of is saying sorry to you.
I'm such an idiot.

[TheFirstTime]

Ughhh! Ex-Oppa!! >-< Ever since Tuesday after hanging out with you at the fair, since my friends kept being around you, I can't stop thinking about you!! >-< I lay awake at night, thinking what could've been and how i miss you so much for hours! That day reminded me ALL the reason why I like you sooo much!! =[ Why did you have to be like that. Why are you such a great guy!! Why did you break up with me, after one little fight? I still believed in you and didn't give up my feelings. Why does it seem like our relationship meant nothing to you... why didn't you give us another chance. Why am I falling for you all over again, when I have a boyfriend and my friend is liking you... T.T why can't you be the one I'm with? ----- do you ever think about me? what did you think when you saw me with someone else? did you care? do you feel anything towards me? cause i miss you...

[chifuni]

It's over. It's been over. I need to john teshing move on. In the end - it was all my fault. It's always my fault.

I was such a fool. I was a fool because I believed that this stupid friendship/relationship would last. I was a fool because I believed that you were going to come back. I should have learned from the first time. I can't believe I ended up being so stupid. I guess you're happy now. Good for you. I hope she's worth it.

[ikay]

*sighs* i'm sorry..
it's a misunderstanding, i've been such a pinkberry..

[trueloveway]

I tried to kid myself into believing it was the best thing for me but there's no denying how much I regret it. It was almost something and I'm sorry for making it into nothing. If I could change things I would but it has been a while and I have no idea what you're thinking or how you feel. It's so ironic that I'm now hanging out with her and I see the qualities that you were drawn to in the first place. Why it didn't work out gets me wondering but it's not my place to know, seeing as it's all nothing. If you would just ask again, I'd say something different this time.