[wonder.bang.is.pure.fate]

Yay. I've finally gotten over you. very hard to believe, but I actually did it. not worth the tears anymore and it never was.
it's sad how you care so much about yourself but can't see things so obvious. at least i can lie and act well.
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I'd like Mom to divorce you. So what if we have the same blood? That doesn't make you my father. There's nothing I feel for you. Maybe intense dislike, but I end up blank. No love, no hate. Just empty white walls. I love Mom so much more than you. you don't deserve her in the least. Seriously, what the hell?!? Can't you stand up for her. Mom deserves so much more. Yeah, she yells at me and I get angry, but I love her too much to do anything. You just... ruined her life without trying. Mom deserves so much more in her life than this. She deserves everything she wants. Stop thinking of yourself and just please go. She doesn't feel any love for you anymore and nor do I. I don't hate you dad. It's even worse. I feel nothing for you.
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I'm scared for you. Are you going to be okay? You used to be a friend but what have you become? I really hope you get better. I don't want to see you crash and burn. You can mature and be come a better person, I know it. Just please realize where you're heading. Please.
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Oh come on. You know that you love the attention. Don't act surprised. Guys know what desperate looks, smells and feels like. They've been trained to find it. You're like the person you were last year, just a different image. And yes, this isn't the real me.
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Ugh. I don't belong here. I just... belong somewhere else. Not even in the same country. I want to go to where my soul is. There's so little of a chance, but I just want to grab it and run. I'm tired of being here and dealing with the same drama everyday. I can't stand it here. This isn't even a home. It's a place I live, but not home. just a house. I want to go home. yes, so Korea isn't even where I was born. I must sound like some wannabe, but i really think I belong there. At least bring me there so I know what it is and what it isn't. Take me to the riot and let me stay. If the riot is where I am destined, then please just let me stay. I just feel like going far away. I'm a mess on the floor. I feel like crumpling up into a ball and just dying. I can't find myself. Where am I? Far away from here. Somewhere where dreams come true with the truth. Where you work your butt off and it hurts, but it's all worth it. I need to be there.

[xquisitebabyy_]

How are we suppose to move on from each other if we're skyping all the time?
With those " I miss yous " & hearts everywhere..
It's unhealthy.

But I don't want to to lose you.

[cheerydumdum]

i'm sorry, but for some reason, i feel a little protective and mad that you're talking like you're better than him. i mean, he's not a close friend or anything, but it'd be nice if you wouldn't outright say that he's "weak". maybe it's cuz i'm PMSing. maybe it's because he's just like my ex. they're not the best at b-boying, but i can tell that they try really hard to improve and impress others. maybe it makes me angry because i feel like you're telling me my ex is weak. honestly, what i have seen of your dancing moves isn't all that amazing. but i'm nice enough not to tell you that. and when i compare my ex to you, i can see that you're so much more cockier than him. even d**** said that my ex was okay even though he's not super fantastic. good luck figuring out how the p.e. building is on your own. i don't feel like taking pictures or whatever for you. it's for your own hobby or whatever. don't be lazy.

[greenana]

I miss him so much. I don't know how things turn out this way. He's my whole world and now he's hugging another girl. It breaks my heart so much. I thought we both have something that were special, but now he doesn't care anymore. It's like he never knew me and that hurt me so much. How did I let myself to become so vulnerable? I hate you so much, no, actually I'm more jealous of you. You are happy and I know she's a great person. I don't want to feel this way anymore, these sadness and painful feelings. I don't want to feel it anymore. I wish it will all go away. How I wish I never knew you. Perhaps, I wouldn't feel all these feelings. I'm hopeless and so pathetic. I wish for you to always be happy with her, with everything that you got. Always be happy.

[aly*]

You call me too much.
I honestly don't like you... I thought you'd get the message already.

[vee.pee]

You're irritating, you try too hard.. stop it already.
Mind your own business, who are you trying to impress?
You can do whatever you like, just don't do it in front of me, please.

I don't want to hate you again.

[NEYUGN93]

How can you be so heartless... ?
How can you forget about me ?

[witchery]

Man I didn't ask you to come over...just a random text asking "what's up" and all.
Eh I feel so bad that you came all the way and then just left =X
But I really didn't ask you to come! And you did anyway.
Argh.
So awkward.

[twinkle_l0ve]

You have this effect on me. Now I'm thinking, it's just an over reaction.
The way you KNOW that I'll still be waiting for you.. I need to get rid of that
Maybe it's good that I'm going away for a couple of days. Out of sight, out of mind.
I need to loosen up and stop taking everything so seriously. I should really take your approach.

[donporkuloin]

I don't know how to feel. I always get rejected. I work, I go to school, I make good grades, friends say I have a good personality, I dress good, and I help people in my community. I'm 23, and girls always make up excuses why they can't hangout with me. Is there something wrong with me? I think I am a good person, but am I a bad person? The girl that likes me I don't like her back. She's not the one for me, and I realize it. Should I just be with her now for the sake of having someone?

[sora09]

i'm glad that you are my friends. i would seriously be lost without you.

[butttickler]

sometimes i wonder. god i hope i'm wrong. do you have that picture up because you know i liked it and you know that i'm going to see it when i stalk you? :c i'm such a creep. and you're a creep. that pic makes it very obvious that you are stalking me too. i don't know whether to smile at your cuteness or hide in embarrassment.

[gotoAndParty]

Maybe this is all a test to see if I still accept you after knowing who you really are.
Nobody is perfect, but I can't say I am impressed.

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pinkberry please, do you have to share your sob story to anyone who asks?
Grow some john teshing balls.

[Romancer.]

I can still hear your voice and laughter in my head. I could listen to you all day. You have a beautiful voice. I really want to see you again...

[mintcracker]

Today, I'm going to raise my head up and smile.
Smle through the pain of lettingyougo..


But.

I hopeknow this is for the best.

[miss_kizuna]

ok to you: I never thought I could be so frustrated over someone whom i'm not even that good friends with.

ok seriously? you don't consider me a friend really, and you just use me and my mom for rides. whatthefu.
and you're not even grateful. dude, seriously? get another fricking ride.

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and to you:
yeah sorry to bash on you too.

that was stupid that one time. I said I wanted you to come over TWO weeks in advance, and like a few days before that saturday, you freaking agree to go over to jackie's house and hang out the whole day and sleep over. serious WTF. I was freaking pissed that day and I didn't really want to reply to your text.

what was even worse was, when jackie realized that she couldn't let you sleep over, you guys just expected that i could let you sleep over. dude seriously WHAT THE F. i was just tossed aside and now you guys want to use me as a back up? yeah, what if i couldn't let you sleep over? you know i couldn't say no.

i know it was partly my fault cause i didn't ask my mom a little earlier, but whatever. you could at least ASK me before you said yes to jackie.

and about nathan.
i told you. i'm not interested in him. i was just freaking talking to him.

i could tell you were pissed, even when you weren't saying anything to me.

you're the one who's not supposed to be liking him. he's darwin's friend and PLUS you said you hella liked sammy, etc.

ugh! come on. i love you, but this kind of behavior has to stop.

it makes me feel like mini cooper. i wonder if you even know. i wonder if i shoudl tell you.

is this all my fault?
am i doing something terribly wrong here?
ok i promise to stop complaining to myself, but it's frustrating you know?
if i'm being a bad friend, please tell me. this was like the few few times i've ever complained about you.

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and yeah
its hard not to want to fill the void in my life that was created recently.
it's frustrating. i need to stop.

[kp1shadow]

I dont understand why your mad. I'm the one that should be mad for what you did! >=O

[cheerydumdum]

don't effing touch me. you say you know me well, but you don't at all. if you did, you would know that i don't like people who i dislike touching me in any way. it pisses me off. and it pisses me off more when i'm already pissed off. you say that those people are ignorant and are irresponsible with money, but you're the one who's ignorant and don't even let me have a chance to show i'm not irresponsible with money. that's all you do. assume assume assume. assume that i can't survive at the college of my dreams that i got into. assume that i'll get into a car crash. assume that i'll get raped. assume that you and my mom are the only people who truly love me. just watch. i'm not staying by your side. i'm going to leave and you can't stop me.

[xquisitebabyy_]

I can't believe you're stalking my posts.
QUIT IT.
Everything I've written was based on confidentiality,
& you've ruined it.
Thanks for ruining the one thing that kept me sane.

[mintcracker]

omfgomfgomfgomfgomfgomfg.
I wanna punch a wall and scream until I go hoarse.