[kittysayrawr]

[edit] I was never clinically depressed..... I guess I just kept looking stuff up and diagnosing myself. >.> But ugh. Everything still. Hurts. For different reasons now. At least I don't feel like dying anymore....

I used to be a really happy and bubbly girl. I loved everything about life, but I recently found myself to be clinically depressed. All I ever want to do is sleep, because my belief is that when you sleep everything just goes away. You don't have to think and I don't want to go through things I've went through in my past. The littlest things people say will make me cry. It's not a simple matter of me being a crybaby, it's much more. I laugh, but I don't smile...never.. I never show an interest in school anymore. If I'm awake, all I want to do is write about how stupid and pointless my life is, how much everything hurts whether it be physically or emotionally. I've had multiple thoughts of suicide. Sometimes, I just don't want to live. I have to put on a mask everyday, pretending like I'm having the time of my life so I don't hurt people around me but inside I'm hurting. My heart aches, my head hurts. There are times where I just sit in the corner of a room and cry. Last night was one of these times and I had another suicidal thought.

Has anyone ever felt like this before? :/ I don't suppose anyone would want to talk about it, but I don't believe it'll make me feel any better just having it all bottled up inside of me.

[ParappaRappa]

i went through something like this when i was from around 11-12. i was just very depressive about life and everything. i was not actually depressed though. i was never diagnosed with depression. i think it was just kind of like a "phase" for me or something.

people usually say to seek help if you find yourself like this, but i didn't even want to tell my parents or anything because i thought they would find me pathetic and get angry. of course, they wouldn't. i was just being pessimistic and depressing, lol.

anyway, mine was pretty much just a stage for me. all those feelings and thoughts just pretty much subsided after about a year.

but, i think you should try to seek some help and support. tell your parents and your close friends. because you don't need to go through this all alone. they're there for you.

[aircastles]

I think everyone has experienced such feelings, but of varying degrees. You shouldn't hide what you feel - tell someone. Your friends, parents or whatever. You shouldn't suffer alone.

[KanyeWEST]

this is like the 54th thread i've seen on soompi about people feeling depressed and that whole putting on a mask thing. so cliche.

if you really are clinically depressed go take some prescription medicine like zoloft.
seriously if it's such a big deal and you're not just looking for attention go see a shrink, take medication and get better.

[muse.]

If you are depressed, I would suggest that you do not talk about it on a forum, unless it is a forum especially for depressed people. Otherwise, you may face comments from others that can make you feel even worse.

[jaeka]

this is like the 54th thread i've seen on soompi about people feeling depressed and that whole putting on a mask thing. so cliche.

if you really are clinically depressed go take some prescription medicine like zoloft.
seriously if it's such a big deal and you're not just looking for attention go see a shrink, take medication and get better.

If you are depressed, I would suggest that you do not talk about it on a forum, unless it is a forum especially for depressed people. Otherwise, you may face comments from others that can make you feel even worse.

Like so.
But, I couldn't help giggle at their signature and avatar. XD

Buuuuut it really sounds like you need to seek help. Do you not have anyone you can vent this out to in real life? It's all fine and well posting on soompi but, to be frank, it'll not serve much justice. I advise that you seek someone you can talk to freely with and get it all out. It might make you feel a ton better. If you think you really are suffering depression, see your doctor and seek proffessional help. As that saying goes, don't suffer in silence.

Best wishes!

[eternal_bliss]

If it's 'not a joke' then treat it seriously. A forum post won't do anything but possibly garner some sympathy. It won't magically solve your problems. What you need to do is talk to a professional, even if it's just your school's social workers (or counselor- whatever your school calls it). They will help get you the proper treatment you need (if it does end up being depression).

[Mish]

Like what eternal_bliss said, this is something that should be treated seriously. You should talk to your parents about this, or at least tell a friend or bestfriend whom you know you can trust.

I know what you're going through, because I've been in that situation and it would be best if you can go see a counselor or a doctor. Others would find it embarrassing, but really, there's nothing wrong with that. It would really help you cope and sort out things.

[agnes.]

i don't get why "serious" depressed people come on here to ask for advice and share.
if it's that serious get professional help.

[WeezyEffBaby]

People are missing the point. She has been diagnosed with depression, meaning that she is already under a professional's care. I mean, you can't be clinically depressed with out a diagnosis from a health care professional.

P.S go to a psychiatrist, my mother suffers from clinical depression. Don't be afraid, they will help you and your quality of life is worth it.

[nghister]

I used to be a really happy and bubbly girl. I loved everything about life, but I recently found myself to be clinically depressed. All I ever want to do is sleep, because my belief is that when you sleep everything just goes away. You don't have to think and I don't want to go through things I've went through in my past. The littlest things people say will make me cry. It's not a simple matter of me being a crybaby, it's much more. I laugh, but I don't smile...never.. I never show an interest in school anymore. If I'm awake, all I want to do is write about how stupid and pointless my life is, how much everything hurts whether it be physically or emotionally. I've had multiple thoughts of suicide. Sometimes, I just don't want to live. I have to put on a mask everyday, pretending like I'm having the time of my life so I don't hurt people around me but inside I'm hurting. My heart aches, my head hurts. There are times where I just sit in the corner of a room and cry. Last night was one of these times and I had another suicidal thought.

Has anyone ever felt like this before? :/ I don't suppose anyone would want to talk about it, but I don't believe it'll make me feel any better just having it all bottled up inside of me.

I went through something like this 2-3 years ago. It was so intense and I just couldn't share with anyone.. not my boyfriend at the time, my friends, my family, because in my mind it didn't matter. I just wanted everything to end. I slept almost 24/7 in hopes that time will pass more quickly and I won't have to deal with life. NOTHING interested me despite my feeble attempts to cheer myself up. Buying things, having lots of money, traveling, etc... I tried everything.

I wish I could tell you that it will heal but it's still a struggling process for me now. I do feel a bit more in control of my life and 9/10 days I wake up and don't feel the GREAT urge to close my eyes and wish the world (or myself) to disappear.. but there's always that 1 day that makes all these dark thoughts looming back.

If you want, PM me and we can share and help each other? I am getting a lot better these days so perhaps I can lend an ear. =]

[makelovenoises]

For every minute that you don't smile or don't have a reason to smile is a minute of your life wasted.


& I realized that people are unhappy because they aren't living life to their fullest potential. Sure they are upset here and there but there's no use in being upset or angry. It's unhealthy and it's a waste of precious time.

<3?

[rasppery]

What have happened to make you so depressed?
To tell u the truth, i was once like you.
I skip school, I don;t go out. I just stay in my room
Cry or think about suiciding,
and infact, I did tried to suicide by eating pills.

Now to think of it.
I was really stupid because of low-self esteem problem.


Go see a doctor/councilor or someone you feel comfortable with, and talk to him/her about it!

[Ramen-C]

Yes and I've done stupid things, even though I knew they were stupid.

Anyway, I don't think anyone can be "cured" from depression if it was something they've always had. If depression was triggered by something like a "trauma" then, yes I think that person can be "cured".

It's something you have to deal with, find the most effective way of motivating yourself when you're feeling depressed. Being with someone who cares about you is really important because it seems like feeling lonely would be a bad position to be in.

There are also drugs you can take which are meant to help, somehow. I've never taken any so I can't really help you with that. I think there's a thread about it here.

HTH

[duh123]

i think everyone at one point goes through a really dark time in their lives especially teenagers and they get really sad. if you think it's really depression then go seek professional help. you can't say you are clinically depressed without being properly diagnosed. if you think it's so serious, you really shouldn't post a forum thread to treat your depression. i'm trying really hard not to hurt your feelings here but honestly i don't get why "depressed" people post threads and expect it help them. if you really are depressed, you can be put on medication and be referred to a therapist.

don't you have a school counselor that you can talk to? or go to a local church and talk to the pastor or teen counselor. you aren't going to get better by posting a thread in a forum. if things are so serious, stop spending your time on the internet and go get real help.

[ohmylamb.]

I talk alot back then, sometimes even crap secrets to people.
But now I've become super quiet.
I don't know what to talk about when I see people.
Somehow, it's like that!
& I don't really have close friends.
I'm depressed not because I'm quiet though.

[Miki_Moon]

It's most likely just a phase. How old are you? I was depressed around thirteen to fourteen. You can't just be depressed, there is always a reason. If you are just depressed for no reason, then you are putting it on yourself. Find out what is making you depressed and get away from it or confront the person, if it is a person, and explain everything. I had a. .friend and someone I liked who was making me extremely depressed and one day I told them I couldn't talk to them and now I feel way better. I'm not depressed (least I don't think so XD). Good luck and don't think so little of life. Life is important because you only have one chance, don't waste it away by sleeping. Get out and find a hobby that will stop your bad thoughts from suffocating. Also, if your depression worsens, talk to a doctor, councilor, someone, before it gets into 'the danger zone'. (I am not a doctor, I am just giving you my opinion)

[MangoStar]

If you aren't joking, don't tell us, try and get some help. If your parents are anything like mine, you'll have to adament about wanting the help. It'll be better for you in the long run.

[dso]

btw...don't kill yourself!

everyone dies eventually anyway.

alcohol sometimes helps me wen i got the blues

also i don't think there's such a thing as suppressing your sadness.

if you can make your own mood better/brighter, you're not faking it, that happy mood is REALLY happening inside of your brain.

on the other hand, i was watching a show on hbo and a crazy psychologist guy said life is misery by nature and you only get temporary relief/happiness randomly and that learning to cope with ur misery was a form of happiness too hahaha.

anyway

who knows?

no one knows!

i think i just responding to this cuz i was like this for all of highschool

i'm old now

old enough to drink

hurray

[hamdainvincible]

I'm like this...
But not as bad as it seems for you,
When I was in 8th grade I was so depressed for 2 weeks in December that I had stomach aches that made me basically stay in bed every day.
There's no joy in life anymore, I'm happy but things don't seem the same. It's pretty bad, I feel robotic and fake sometimes.
I'm going to counseling right now, I joined counseling last Spring but it didn't seem to help so I quit, but lately I've been so lonely I decided to start up again.
I never think of suicidal thoughts and it's interesting because most teens do have suicidal thoughts.
I've thought of Heaven and how much I want to be there cause it seems so perfect, but killing myself had never popped up in my head.

All I can say is, please tell your parents, set up a doctor's appointment and tell them about these symptoms or go to your school counselor and talk to them, see if they have any advice.
GOOD LUCK, I know it sounds stupid to say good luck but there's always hope.
Oh, and get offline and do some active stuff... I think being online is just pretty bad for you, I need to learn how to do this as well. (: