[ai-Do1Ce]

I felt pretty bummed out for the past few years.. Because of the things going on in my life, i stopped being myself and basically started to talk lesser and lesser until i started to speak only a few words each day. Then it ended up being like my mind wouldn't even be there in reality.


And what scares me is that i used to be a really good speller ever since i was a little girl... i could spell a word correctly without thinking or visualizing the word.. but now i find that i can't even spell some moderate easy words. When i type it out and it's not right- it doesnt even look wrong to me. I think part of the reason i've turned into this is because half the time, my thoughts aren't even in the present... like somehow they're not there when i do things... such as typing out a word..
Spelling may not seem such a big issue, but because this wasn't a big issue.. i'm starting to get scared.

Also when i played music in the past, i felt free in that i could express myself in any sort of way. My teachers usually applaud me for being very musical. Now when i play music, it feels that i have lost that part of me and cannot grasp on the same free feeling i had before anymore, the music i produce now all sound very stiff. Same goes for my artistic talents and my other hobbies.

I feel really detached from myself =( Is there anything i can do about this?

[KanyeWEST]

i think you have dyslexia