[yellowchocolate]

You really dont have to read this~ probably wont add anything to your life...
its my CIE exams right now. i have 13 in total, i've already finished 4, 9 left.
in the next 17 days i have 9 TT____TT thats enough to make me depressed enough.

but no, i'm having problems with my boyfriend. well i didnt know i was until my boyfriend's close friend told me. she's a good friend of mine too.
she told me today that he didnt love me and he was going to break up with me after exams.
i feel...so sh*tty right now.
this is about half an hour before i added a picture of us with bright pink words title "Love" on facebook.
so many of our mutual friends liked it too.
i dont know what to do, of course i shouldnt let this affect my exams, since they're important for uni and everything.
but i just feel so demotivated.
...its complicated and there's more to it, but i think its more than you would care to know, but i really like him.
hes been texting me less, but its exams, i didnt think much of it.
i havent talked to any of my friends about it yet, i dont want to make a fuss, we all need to do last minute cramming.

i guess i just wanted some way to express it, i feel pretty alone.
i know there are people who've experienced worse and gotten through much larger problems.
but at this moment, i feel like someone shut the lights off my world. i feel so dumbfounded, like the shock you get when a bright room suddenly goes dark.
i've decided to just pretend like i dont know anything, and i guess we'll talk after exams and break up.
i dont want to mess up his exams, and i hate how i'm still clinging to hope, maybe if i ignore it it'll go away.
....here's to hoping.

[[RingoStarx3]]

Im really sorry to hear that, but its hard when your both in college.
I understand how you feel, but it can't be helped.
Exams are really important. If you can try to find at least once to talk with him
about the situation. I would try to find a common ground and set some limits.
Just be sure to be ready to accept anything that comes your way.
Good Luck

-Ami <3

[Malice_Kaiser]

I'm sorry, but why would that girl EVER think it's okay to butt into someone else's business and break to you such horrible news right before exams? Are you SURE she's got her facts straight, and is telling the truth?

Well I'll be blunt. I know it hurts to know this information about a potential break-up, but you will have plenty of opportunity for relationships throughout your life. Exams, however, are important NOW. Failing exams could mean failing a semester, which could be the difference between graduating on time with a good GPA or having to stay extra semesters in college and struggling to bring your GPA back up. If you think about, these exams really could affect the rest of your life, whereas the situation with your boyfriend is temporary.

[RYUUSEi]

You're depressed, it's natural when you hear from another person that your boyfriend has plans of breaking up with you. But first, how reliable is that friend of his? Don't set your mind to anything until HE tells you he wants to break up, not a person outside of your relationship even if it's a good friend of his. You can't just trust her words so easily, she could just be a cunning snake, you know?

Whatever you do, don't let this ruin your exams. Just stay focused and whenever your mind drifts off to your boyfriend then just slam a book into your head and keep studying. Trust me, you don't want to ruin something important as education over a silly boy.

[MR. LEE'S]

wow- it must be hard for you. i feel sorry for you then, well- are you sure what his friend said was true? if i were you, even though it must be hard to get rid this thing away from my mind- i will try my very best to forget about this thing and keep myself busy with my studying. or, you should call him and ask him about this matter. or, break up with him. i don't know, there are many solutions that you can do, but you have to pick the right one. i wish all the best for you- for your examination and don't get too depressed

[yellowchocolate]

aww thank you guys =]
yea i can trust her, she was giving me hints and little nudges, then i asked her as a joke "omg, lol do you know something i dont? why are you saying he's not good enough for me??" and her response made me realize something was wrong so i made her tell me. >_>
and my bf ...gosh i dont want to call him that anymore, he is showing signs like being reluctant to hug me when i saw him today. i havent talked to him yet, and i'm scared to do that, i think it may be the last thing "we" do. TT TT

its 4 am, and my head does realise that someone who doesnt want to be with me anymore isnt worth my time and feelings...its just hard for me to deal and accept it.
i'll try my best to ignore it and just whack myself with a textbook when i do.
only 17 more days of this and i can sort it out and confide in my friends... its too unfair to load this onto them while they're trying to cram exams in. sigh
THIS TIMING SUCKS. i feel like time has stopped for me, but my laptop watch tells me otherwise ;-;

[koreanballads]

I'd send you a beer if I could, if that's any consolation.

[ichigo_no_powder]

*hugs* i'm sorry to hear that. i'm clinging to hope right now too and it's so so hard. Writing letters has really helped me release my emotions though. Just write down anything it is that you want to say to him but can't. Maybe that'll help you concentrate on exams.

[aubrei]

tough it out.
if thats how it is, then its better you find earlier than later.
he isnt the right person for you then...so move on.

[meiming8_1]

awww good luck that's a hard situation to be in. Although it's hard, REALLY TRY TO FOCUS ON YOUR GRADES. That is the most important thing. Although it may not seem like it right now, your boyfriend will not be a big part of your life in the future- chances are you'd probably break up quite soon in the future, but your grades decide your university, which decides your job, etc. I would suggest talking to him, although it might not be a good idea because, like you said, your exams are coming up soon and I don't know how you would handle it. Just try to focus on your education now, it is the most important thing. Good luck

[rachilde]

Well the important thing to do in such situations is pause (not for too long, but for a couple of hours), indulge in something (crying profusely, eating chocolates, getting drunk, etc.), break up with your boyfriend, delete him from your phone/facebook/etc., write on a piece of paper in giant letters 'DON'T GIVE UP' and hang it over your desk, and get back to work. Down time is necessary; wallowing is not.

[hAppynote]

Take a break in the relationship and tell him it'll be until the exams end. Then, just focus on your exams and prove to everyone you can do anything you set your mind to. Don't let everything overwhelm you. When your exams are over, you can decide whether you'll beat him to the punch.

Of course there could be the chance that he'll break up with you as soon as you say you want a break. Either way, just focus on your studies. Sometimes, you just have to deal with your emotions later when there are more important things at hand.

[damyoungji]

First of all, your friend is a moron. She probably wanted to tell you for your own "good" (maybe have you dump him before he breaks up with you), but she should know better. Your boyfriend is obviously waiting till you are done your exams so that it won't affect your studies. But there she goes telling you during a really bad time --"

Who knows? Maybe he is just going a tough time right now and maybe it won't happen. Although I have like pretty much no experience with relationships, but I have seen people who have gone through rough times with relationships during a really busy moment in time. I don't know how you can motivate yourself, but I guess you can try to see it in the way that it's your boyfriend's loss? Do well in school and prove to him, yourself, or whoever you want to (but mainly yourself) that you are independent and you are strong.

Stay strong m'dear! If you really can't study, take a break. Cry if you need to. It's better to take a short break than force yourself to study when you are not in the right condition to study.

[x.3christine]

that just sucks....if this is true just dump the guy first
you can have less problems and just focus all your energy on your exams instead of an ungrateful bf

[yellowchocolate]

gosh....thank you guys so much, reading this has really brightened up my day.
i really feel so empty and my thoughts are all over the place...i've got all these scenarios in my head about getting him back even thought i KNOW you cant make anyone like you.
and i've heard so many times that no guy is worth your tears and if he doesnt want you he doesnt deserve you...and i believe it all.
but its just not working that way in me. i keep reading through texts, i even went through chatlogs, i'm such an idiot i know, but i do it anyways....sigh. >_< TT TT
i'm trying to study but there's this irritating feeling in my chest and it serves as a constant reminder.
i took a break all of last night and this morning.
i've got huge vivid words "DONT GIVE UP" on green cardboard above my study desk.
it does make me feel a surge of motivation.
i just need to really focus, because i know in theory and reality that exams are so much more permanent and crucial...but dammit my mind just doesnt get it. i need to focus. focus focus.
and i'm wishing she never told me before my exams were over....i dont think she realised the effect it'd haback to study....yes. i just want to do well and prove myself...but its so hard...

[Mr. Chan]

Congratulations, you've dodged a bullet.

He sounds like an idiot anyway.

[doctorlee]

Wow. If I was your boyfriend, I would never tell anything to that friend.
She obviously did not think anything through telling you that big of a information right before an exam.
Your boyfriend at least cares about you.

He knows that you're going to stress out over breaking up so he wanted to break up with you after the exam.
I would say that's pretty thoughtful.

To your friend, I could say otherwise...

[peppermintsugar]

Sounds like you need a fun night out with the girls.
I'd take you out for a night on the town if I could.

[xX_faRfaLLaz_Xx]

honestly, i think it was a bad decision on your friends part to tell you this while you still have exams, at least your boyfriend has the courtesy to not mention it right now. i broke up with my ex during midterms and i did reaaaalllllyyyy bad on all of them because i couldn't concentrate while studying : ( there's nothing anyone can say right now that will make you feel better...the only thing you can do is TRY to study hard. i wish you luck, because it's going to be really hard : ( make sure you talk it out with your friends, it'll make you feel better. bottling things up won't help, it'll make it feel worse and you'll end up even more stressed out. just keep in mind, don't let a guy screw you over. : P that always motivates me. good luck!! <3

[aiyan]

aww...

It was definitely not in your best interest for your friend to spill the beans.
Just remember that if he doesn't like you, then it's not worth being depressed over. I definitely understand that you feel hurt and all, but focus on exams! Let this motivate you to do really well on your exams so you can attend a great uni and meet better, smarter guys there ^^.