[insanelyCRAZY]

I am one of those people who don't think very fast with my feelings. I can't absorb what a person says to me on the spot. I know that by the end of the day I know what's going on through my heart and mind.
Do you have trouble pouring yourself out to somebody? If I could let myself out and tell him everything I feel...I would tell him this...

Andrew,

I'm sorry, I know that you probably don't want to read this but I don't know how else to put this. I'm regretting so much right now. My heart is being torn in two. I don't want to let you go, but because of all the pain I am inflicting on you I have to. If you don't understand, it's okay. You don't have to understand or believe me. I know that if I was you I wouldn't believe me either. I don't know why I have feelings for Ian, they just developed. I hate the fact that I have to choose between you and him. If I could, I would run away so that way I wouldn't have to choose either of you and have you both move on with your lives without me. You say that I'm self-absorbed, that I don't put you into consideration. I have put you into consideration. I'm not lying to you Andrew. I care about you a lot.

After this, I don't know where our lives will take us. I know that deep down in my heart though I want to start over with you. I want to start everything over and I'll know everything is right again because I know I'll do better.

When I heard your voice this morning I thought to myself, "How can I ever let him go?" If I can show you every moment I thought of you and talked about you I would, but I don't. I don't know why I don't. I just know that if you knew, you would know that each second you come across my mind it means I truly care about you.

It already feels like a part of me has been ripped apart. I miss everything I had with you. I say that I don't know what I feel for you, but I know that I miss everything that we had for each other. I just know that I still care about you and every time I turn around now, something will remind me of you. My heart aches because I miss you.

Andrew, I'm letting you go, because I don't want to hurt you anymore. The reason you're hurting is because I don’t know who I am and what I want. I hate hurting you, please know that I hate hurting you.

I hope that after this, you don't hate me, but if you do, I can't blame you. You have every right to hate me.

I cherish everything I shared with you. You built and flipped my world upside down and it was absolutely amazing. I hope that somehow, some way, we will find each other again, and become friends. It'll be hard and awkward but it is my greatest wish.

- Cassie

What about you? I guess this can be a thread for letters dedicated to those we want to say something to but have a hard time saying it to them. sighh.

[Javus]

Isn't there already a thread for like messages or something you want to say to others. Oh and maybe it'd be better if you told Andrew in person what you just wrote here. But anyways good luck with your situation.

[meiming8_1]

I read your last posts- just wanted to say I think you made the right decision, and even if it hurts you right now, it's for the best. Good luck

[bonjour tristesse.]

Everyone suffers at one point in their life. It's what makes us stronger in the long run. You're young, as I'm expecting. Live life and enjoy it, it's the best you could do now.

[peppermintsugar]

I wouldn't do this unless it was anonymous, I'm much too private about my feelings to tell the world with my name attached. I really look up to people who can, though.

[perfect visual]

Harvey-

Every time I look at my phone I get really sad. I'm always expecting to see a new text from you, or to hear you drop your keys into your shoes upstairs. I still have your movies but I'm afraid to text you after our last fight. I told you straight up "I don't want to be your friend."

I can't ever get over you if we're friends. And I can't stand the girls you hang out with... the girls you'd rather see than me. I told you, "I'm not sure if you really love me or not." and you didn't answer. I wish you would have just said no. So I could be pissed off and feel anger towards you and pinkberry about you, but not be sad and think that we broke up for nothing because we still love each other.

You said you weren't sure if you were happy yet but in 10 or 20 years, you'd look back and decide if it was the right decision. If it wasn't, I will be long gone. And our kids, which we had already chosen names for, never existed...

I just wish I was over you already and would stop being so emotional, but its hard to do this on my own when I'm so used to it being me & you. I still love you, and through the rough times I never stopped loving you. Even though you've been stupid before, and you've done things you regret, I was always there for you...and you were there for me too.

I think about how in the future I'll be over you and it will just seem like some random guy from years ago. But I can't imagine dating someone who doesn't wear pants like you, who doesn't smile like you, who doesn't have that same smell as you. I've become so accustomed to you, that I can't imagine myself happy with anyone else.

I hope that these days could pass more quickly...

-Kiley.

[AngelsWhisper]

blah blah hurts so much to even type this out =P

But anyway, have you tried putting those words on a letter? Give it to him and ask him to read it later at home if you want. I think it's a little bit more easier than saying it face-to-face. Although it is better. Good luck...

[ParappaRappa]

i have things like letters i've written for people but it's on my computer. i don't want to release it over the internet hahaha

[mintcracker]

^ haha yeah I write all my feelings and thoughts on my computer too. It's better that way. Like to keep it secret.

And cassie, you did the right thing.

[insanelyCRAZY]

Harvey-

Every time I look at my phone I get really sad. I'm always expecting to see a new text from you, or to hear you drop your keys into your shoes upstairs. I still have your movies but I'm afraid to text you after our last fight. I told you straight up "I don't want to be your friend."

I can't ever get over you if we're friends. And I can't stand the girls you hang out with... the girls you'd rather see than me. I told you, "I'm not sure if you really love me or not." and you didn't answer. I wish you would have just said no. So I could be pissed off and feel anger towards you and pinkberry about you, but not be sad and think that we broke up for nothing because we still love each other.

You said you weren't sure if you were happy yet but in 10 or 20 years, you'd look back and decide if it was the right decision. If it wasn't, I will be long gone. And our kids, which we had already chosen names for, never existed...

I just wish I was over you already and would stop being so emotional, but its hard to do this on my own when I'm so used to it being me & you. I still love you, and through the rough times I never stopped loving you. Even though you've been stupid before, and you've done things you regret, I was always there for you...and you were there for me too.

I think about how in the future I'll be over you and it will just seem like some random guy from years ago. But I can't imagine dating someone who doesn't wear pants like you, who doesn't smile like you, who doesn't have that same smell as you. I've become so accustomed to you, that I can't imagine myself happy with anyone else.

I hope that these days could pass more quickly...

-Kiley.

They say that if two people are still friends after a break up, it means that they're still in love or were never in love at all.

Thank you everybody.
Not only did I have to break up with Andrew but I also had to reject my best friend.
I believe the best thing to do for all of us is to move on past this drama and start fresh.

[taebins_luver]

Dear Hong

i'm crazy and you love me.
why?

Signed
Curious Bee