So there is this guy who I've been knowing since I was a Freshman, and he seemed to be a pretty cool guy. I wasn't really interested into talking to him since I was practically shy around people who I don't know much. Then Sophomore year comes and I finally get to have an elective, which I chose Ensemble where I got to actually physically met him and got to know a little more about him through a friend who he was going out with at that time. After they broke up, we started talking a little more about our favourite bands. I tried to see what his interests were, but he seemed to block them and didn't let me see through him, which I didn't mind...
Finally, Junior year came, and we were practically sitting together in most of the classes (we were supposed to have all the same classes, but he changed Music to Psychology). We would talk a little more, and the more I got to know him, the more I started to develop this crush on him.
Yeah... the summer, there was some kind of distraction there... but I eventually got over it.
So now, I'm a Senior, and we have three classes together on one day and just one class the other day. Everyday, we would have lunch together with a group of friends. ;-; I would even give up eating other food just to stand in line with this guy at the same line everyday. The class I would look forward, unluckily, was Music since he's an assistance in that class. But since we haven't pretty much done anything in that class for the past week, I've been sneaking into the Sound Room and listened to the songs on his iPod. We would talk about things and at times he would zone out in his guitar-playing mode, which made me just melt by looking at him like that. When he bought his PSP to school one day, we would sit next to each other in that room and watch him play games as he would just ramble things out randomly while I listen.
Lately, he's been updating his Facebook status about some kind of goal and almost getting to it, which made me very curious... Friday, in History, we were split into groups, and a certain friend (who knows about my situation) was in the same group with him. At one point in class, I looked up at the group and caught him smiling at me which made me turned red and look down. DX (EPIC FAIL!) That day, I went on Facebook and his status said that he almost got his goal done... which was strange 'cause that was right after school... and History was the last class of that day. So I maybe am thinking all of this too much in my head. DX
Today we decided to skip Spanish to help out with pictures for Band and Ensemble students, and I asked him about his goal. He hesitated at first, but then told me that he was seeing if some girl liked him or not. Yesh, I choked right there and bit my lip wondering who that was. While people were having struggles buttoning their shirts and stuff, he would come up and help me when I had some difficulties (and I would freeze and turn a bit red once in awhile x-x), which again, I think it's all on my head. Did he really came up there to help, or did he really wanted to see how I would react? That was what was in my mind the whole day, and I just wish I would know who that girl he was talking about earlier is.
So I don't know whether or not I should just confess to him when we only have a few months until we graduate, and there is a 50% chance that I will be able to get to go to the same University with him. Two years, and it's been making me go a little crazy right now. I want to tell him, but at the same time, I don't want to get hurt.
