[~.Linh.~]

i miss my grandma so much. it's been one year since she died and i still haven't had the chance to go to her grave.
i still remember my last visit to her when she encouraged me and said she was so proud of me.
i want her back...

My dad always told me that I'll regret it if I don't pratice karate with him, because one day, he will disappear.
Everytime I think about that, it just hurts knowing one day he will disappear. I dislike practicing karate, so it makes him sad at times.
I can''t even imagine leaving without him, he always takes care of me, and wants the best for me. He wants me to live a happy and safe life.
I just break down whenever I think about that.

My grandma... she's been really weak nowadays. Sh can't even eat properly.
Just looking at her fragile self makes me cry. She looks like she's in pain, but still cares for us.
She has quite severe health problems and she isn't physically strong either.
I overheard my dad and brother's conversation about her in the car when I was pretending to sleep since we got out of the hospital, and it was late.
They were discussing whether they should try to let her live her painful life or let her go if she gets a heart attack.
Knowing that, I became depressed. I love my grandma. I don't want her to die, but seeing her suffer makes me sad.
One day, while hanging out with friends, I told them I had to leave early to visit her in the hospital.
One of them joked asking if she were in the mental hospital, because it wouldn't be a surprise seeing she's related to me.
I laughed it off, they don't even know she might die. Deeply inside, I was hurt, I really was.
I may act weird at times, but... why? Did they really need to say that? Am I really mental? Am I such a bad friend or something?
They can insult as much as they want, I'm used to it from past experience, but please, don't do that to my family.
I always act happy and weird to amuse my friends, even when I'm down.
I don't think anyone will ever know my true feelings inside.

I know no one's probably going to read this, but since I don't have anyone whom can relate to me, writing this out makes things lighter.

heey, try to lighten up
perhaps you should talk to your friends about that because they really shouldn't have made a joke like that!
even the bestest friend can be ignorant sometimes =_=
i hope your grandma gets better soon

[akirashockk_XD]

this boy in school fustrates me so much i want to cry.

[Deafz]

My "bestfriend" (who I adore) likes (hardcore) a close friend of mine, And she might like me to. *tear*
ARG!

[justanothergirl]

I'm confused about the way I feel about him.

It should be so easy, but why is it so difficult?

[cherri82crystal]

i miss everyone so much...i miss my whole gang.
i miss my old school.
i miss how we'd eat lunch at the esl room [lol].
and how we'd always walk all around the field
everything about this new school makes me miss my old school
i know i'm supose2 forget about the past and try to make the future the best but i can't help but
feel so depressed =(
everyone here at this new school has already bonded with each other and i feel like there's no room
for anyone new or they give off that presence..T_T

[oxoX_Kotori_Xoxo]

-Waking up to know that it's just another hopeless day.
-To feel not good enough.
-To have the people you thought were your friends, turn there back.
-Have some you care about, care about you but at the same time want to change you.
-Broken family.

I could go on forever

^ i feel the same way...

[mars*]

i got played.
and the thing is that i let myself be.
and knew what i was getting into,
but now i still feel like mini cooper.

[je_amourx]

I'm confused about the way I feel about him.

It should be so easy, but why is it so difficult?

Amen.
Foolish thoughts, in denial, frustrations, question marks, circles; I'm going a little insane.

[rectitude*]

my aunt just passed away.
my friend is still in the hospital.
there's this boy, I don't understand my feelings for him.

[msupky]

Freshman in a university without the usual gang/I don't know anyone here. Urgh. I've never felt lonelier. I thought going with whatever my mom said about my choice of university wouldn't be too hard - but it is. It's for not one or two days; it's for four years. I feel so miserable. In the school, I have acquiantances.. but they're not friends, you know? Urgh..

I thought I'd be able to go home every weekend since my mom promised be before that she'd come up, and drive me home. After dropping me off at the university, she told me that she wasn't going to drive me.. and that if I'd wanted to come home, I'd have to bus by myself. Bussing would take more than 5 hours and more than $40; meanwhile, I'll have to carry my laptop and other textbooks with me. I am just SO pissed off. Wouldn't it be much more easier if she'd just come up and drive me? It'd be a lot safer too. So ridiculous. It takes an hour and a half and she's not willing to do it? Urgh. I'm so lonely here.. but it's so hard to get home. I feel hopeless, you know?

I am just so pissed off at my parents.

[mintcracker]

^ ditto

also being disappointed yet again eh. I don't know, I've just been feeling real crap these days.

I feel alone and horrible. I wanna cry, but I don't wanna show weakness, I'm jsut going to put a nonchalant front like what I always do.

[ILuVTiTTiEZ]

Things could be better.....a lot better. But you do what you can... sort of I guess.

[C0o0KiEx3]

I don't cry in front of people or let people I know I cry but there are things I feel like frowning upon.

1. my parents fighting over stupid sh.t
2. my parents rarely trusting me to make it on my own, but still forcing me to know what to do in a stressfull situation by myself (how ironic)
3. my teachers and their pressure to be the 'best' (wtf that is)
4. me forcing myself to better when i already hit my limits and beyond
5. feeling so emo and depressed because life loves screwing me over and over until i get mad and jump into a damn pothole by will

this is exactly how i feel
i also cry but not infront of people because i don't want them to know that i 'm crying
and those five points are exactly y i would cry especially 2 and 4

[ミ★♫윤아♫☆ミ]

Don't get to be with him every minute of my life. I don't get to see him. I wish he knew how much I love him and that he's my everything <3

[wistful]

boredom

and when friends no longer seem to be friends

when people just don't care

[blueokami]

Walking alone in the rain, and wondering what I've done to deserve that.

[crazybabe]

whenever i'm sad and when me and my bf argue.. i hate those momnets.. and i want to cry!! huhuhuhu

[bobo33]

He used to like me, but at that time I didn't like him. (Also because I liked someone else. But it was one-sided)
He didn't face up to it properly (using his friends to confess to me) and I thought that was total loser mini cooper, so I just didn't give any response.
After that we changed schools, talked less and less, and now we don't even have much to talk about online..

I don't know but I feel rather empty..so maybe I did like him? I have no idea.
And he's changed, he's become nicer and more gentlemanly but I don't think he will like me anymore.
Somehow I feel like our friendship isn't going anywhere either, and I'm quite upset about it

Actually up til now I have no idea how serious he was about it. But still, I want to cry because he didn't face up to it at that time and neither did I, and we just appreciated each other at the wrong time T_T
But I miss all those times he bombarded me with MSN convos once I got home, acting cold towards each other, teasing each other, him dying to know who my crush was, etc.
I miss him

I want to at least salvage our friendship, that I can be sure of. But I don't know how...there is not much to start up a convo with and now that we are both very busy, it is hard...

Why did this happen?

[smilejuz4u]

i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really miss that person.

[kawaiimonstarr]

when me and my bf were walking down the hall, i went to talk to my friend and he was behind me. then i saw him and his girl friend hold/shake hands for like 5 long seconds. it made me go mad but then i didnt say anything. i know she likes him but my bf doesnt believe me when i tell him that she likes him. even my other guy friend knows that she's trying hard to hit on him.

whenever she sees me, she always ask for my bf so i tell her. then she smiles and walks away. whenever she sees us together, she always flirts with him. makes me so mad... but then if he likes her go for it.