[ltnd.]

i miss my dad. i miss the childhood memories. i miss toronto. i miss my family even though they're right here.
next summer, i'll be off at school whether in the states..or elsewhere in canada..it's sad to know that my final year in this place is full of drama, pain, and tears but im ready to move on and see new things for myself.
it makes me cry to know what i had to overcome in my childhood..
im scared of what's going to happen but i want it done and over with. my family's breaking apart and there's nothing i can do about it..i just want to get out of here..there's no solution to this massive problem. this is ridiculous.
this saturday is the day he comes back from his two month long VN trip..there's going to be A LOT of drama. it'll be hell on earth...
*sigh* let's just get this done and over with. no cops please.

[juju<3]

I don't want to talk to him anymore... but yet when I don't I'm not as happy )=

he was in my dream.. again.
:@ I'm so mad at my inability to just let go of things...

same here...he was in my dream last night too. and it was the best dream i'd had in a long while. but i woke up only to find that it was just another hopeless day. and i thought i'd already moved on. sigh...

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[CitrusFlower]

I miss playing around like idiots with my friends and tomorrow when I go to school I won't be able to hear them talking loudly in the hall ways because we all went to different school

[lollypops]

I work at the definitive observation unit at a local community hospital.
just seeing an elderly man lying in a bed, in such poor condition that he had tears streaming down his face..


it was absolutely heartbreaking.

[xCandeex]

I don't want to talk to him anymore... but yet when I don't I'm not as happy )=

epitome of my life.

[retarrdd_]

hmm let's see

loneliness? o.o

[retarrdd_]

hmm let's see

loneliness? o.o

[BERRiES&CREAM x3]

-my best friend dresses like a prostitute. there. i said it. it makes me feel horrible and people talk behind her back and i talked to her about it..and she stopped wearing brown leather heels to school. but now she bought new black leather ones and claims her mom forced her to wear them.

- ever since i talked to her about not wearing so much eyeliner and foundation, I'M the one who has to buy her everything... i just bought her eye glue, a necklace, lotions, etc. and that leads to another thing.

-people take advantage of my generosity. im happy to treat them out even though they don't but when i ask them for small favors, they act as if it's the hardest thing to do. and then i end up doing it myself.

-everything is about money these days. im not super rich but i like to give. but lately, i've been talking to people in college...and everything is so expensive. food, water, clothes, books, and the college classes themselves.
i keep on crying when my parents spend money on me. im so scared i wont be able to afford college and i'll end up at a community college and make my family in korea (who sent me to america) ashamed.

today mother bought me a top that cost 55$ when she went out and it nearly killed me. it couldve bought me 2 cliffsnotes AP books.. and my dental work cost so much... i threw a tantrum when i found out it exceeded a thousand and i purposely acted coldly to my dentist and called him a money sucking ..well .. it wasnt a cuss word but i wont say ._.

sigh. and i also feel terrible for being so upset over typical high school relationship drama and whatnot. there are so many people worse off and im complaining when i have a place to sleep and clean water and 2 parents.

and its almost 1 and i have so much AP hw... and the tears fell on my paper and the ink got all blotchy. and she grades on neatness.

why cant i just be happy with everything. and not worry so much.

[shena^__^]

i was watching sad mv on youtube and it made
me cry...such sad mv by sgwannabe >_<.

[infinity]

It's one am and he still hasn't called.

[teukhaee]

broken up just one week before our monthly....
hate him for it >=[

[christinekim2010]

i miss childhood and innocence

[T3CHA]

the fact that i still like my ex and that she's dating a girl .. yeah .. a girl

[Xelanoh]

I want to hold someone's hands.
But i cant lools.

[nemo168vn]

Just went to the airport to see off my gf... She's leaving for 10 months... And in 2 days time is our 6months anniversary... I did not know it hurts this much... I miss her so much, and 1 day is long enough... not talking about 10 months ayL...

[twinkle_l0ve]

His words are just empty promises and flirtacious comments
He actually doesn't know that I actually like him

[xxcrazy_onexx]

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[superwingetjestringetje]

Why am I soo tired after seeing you?I really didn't want to talk or see you! I hate that feeling

[krankee]

on my way home from school i saw a lost puppy standing in the middle of the road.


i hope nothing happens to it

[kissmyasz]

my dad just moved out.
not that i love him.no i don't even LIKE him.
but my mother's been crying the whole time.
i feel so sorry for her.
anybody knows how it is that you want a special person be happy again but you can't do anything?