[Belleluvly]

I wanna cry because I wasted over 8 months of my early 20-ness, on this douchebag that paid me absolutely no mind. I'm having so much fun and getting so much stuff done WITHOUT this wack-job in my life that I wanna cry from regret.

I also wanna cry because Simply Apple is the new love of my life and I can't see myself ever going back to Simply Orange......ITS SO GOOD!!!

[mintcracker]

Bf said some harsh harsh words. I'm sick and tired of the way he does that, wanted to end it, but he begged and begged and begged, so I'm giving him one last chance. I do care alot for him (might be even love?), but I'm not going to sacrifice my emotional well being over him, I'm going to break it off if it continues going in a crappy direction.


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Finally got the closure I needed, feel really sad and hollow, but in a way grateful. My heart is at peace, somewhat. It's sad wondering about the would've, should've, could'ves...but I know I should just suck it up and move on. Cried quite abit yesterday, and now this sadness still lingers...not ebbing away at all, but I know I'll get over it eventually. It's just really depressing that's all, but I've learnt from it though, and next time...

I know what to do.




It's also funny I woke up at 5:30 am today....haven't done that in a very very long time T_T. Didn't sleep well, eyes are puffy and red.

[BYAMxp]

Bf said some harsh harsh words. I'm sick and tired of the way he does that, wanted to end it, but he begged and begged and begged, so I'm giving him one last chance. I do care alot for him (might be even love?), but I'm not going to sacrifice my emotional well being over him, I'm going to break it off if it continues going in a crappy direction.

Sounds like mines too.. sigh.. I always get blame for things I've never said or done......

[youraDouche.]

i hate fallin for someone (even if it is just puppy love).
yeah, gettin dat feelin wen u get butterflies are great nd all but sometimes i tend to forget about da bad part of it.
i wish he would look at me.
i hate the lies. i hate the pain. but most of all i hate that i had falled for you...

[Koutarou]

I want to fall for someone this year.

...

I don't think it's gonna happen.

[xFloOwuffBB]

Aghh! :l I think he stopped liking me now!
T_T Ugh im so stupid.

[N510]

he got what he wanted so he doesn't need me anymore...
everything was a lie ....
love sucks .

[crazykyootie]

the time when i need someone close to me the most
is the time when i feel most alone.

i thought i liked him.
today i was feeling so overwhelmed and burst into tears :/
he was online so i tried to talk to him.
all he said was "aww" and moved on to a different topic.
he refuses to talk about personal things.
so i dont know much about him
and he doesn't know much about me,
even though we're good friends and have known each other for 3 years
i want a more personal, intimate relationship with him.

[mintcracker]

I willingly looked pathetic to get a clue, despite my pride being very important.

I woke up tday at 5:30am naturally, which I haven't done it A LONG time

I dwelled over things for a month, and did not get over it at all...I still feel total sadness.



Even though I got the closure I needed (am thankful for that) why do I still feel so....dead?

[BakaPrincess]

^ Aww, I hope you're feeling better. Cheer up.

What makes me feel like I want to cry in my heart?

I hate jerks like him. I hate hearing about them, seeing them, meeting them. In plain simple words, I hate him.
Because of him, it's so hard for me to trust again. It's so hard for me to want to go there again with someone else.
It's not fair to me and not fair to all the guys that will get turned down by me because I don't want to take chances again.
And the thing is, these guys are way better than what he ever was, in fact, they are better than what he'll ever be.
Goshdarnit, it's so unfair.

This is what makes me sad.

[yamaki_LOVE]

I miss my boyfriend!!! .

& skoo is boring now! Since its my senior year I'm not with my friends n e more & can't graduate with `em!

I'm such a loner T-T

I miss my friends!

& why won't these pimples/acne & scars go away!!!

Asdfghasdfgjkl

[akirashockk_XD]

ugh! i am so stupid....
i lost him....

[PhunGar]

lol she likes someone else,
thought there was something there considering the amount of dates, and how we were always seen "together" and the amount of communication

[xbbychi]

+ life is a mess
+ i can't get my grades back up..
+ my bf isn't as sweet as before..
+ friends leaving me behind

what more can i do.. .___.

[Lyline]

i had one of those �moments� today. like when he suddenly pops into my head and i can�t do anything about it. it's been over a month since i last cried over him. i dunno what's wrong with me. i just miss him so much. i wonder how he's doing these days.

[idiotsucks]

+ I feel like I'm an idiot who only knows how to give and not take
+ I feel like not being appreciated (everyone would luv to be appreciated, dont we?)
+ I feel sucks at the moment now
+ I feel... Reckless to study. I'm dead. Sigh
+ I feel like jumping ito the sea to find tortoise.. So that it can bring me to somewhere another island where by, I can shout out all my miserable feelings which won't be understood by others.

Sometimes, I really find myself v.stupid.. I always do handicrafts stuffs.. Cuz I like to do, I find it sinscere to do things like this to people, I feel that.. People will feel that you are sinscere to be their friend, they will smile when they receive small gifts like that.. I thought that, a person who is in bad mood might feel a little glad for receiving small gifts liddat? So, I always don't hessistate to do.. I do from time to time to my friends. I'm stupid, is it? How many people actually appreciate small gifts like that?

[mintcracker]

Man I live in this thread I swear lol.


Why I'm sad? Cos I'm still depressed.


costheguyiactuallywantalotnolongerwantsme.



Things could've worked out differently too =/ so sigh. Anyway all in past T_T... >_<

[yesitskate]

walked by my best friend for two years today and made faces at her but she was too busy talking to a guy (a huge flirt with a gf) to notice me.
too dejected to say hi.
she doesnt like me anymore.
shes too cool for me now with her volleyball friends and their small spandex.
):

she'd rather have 10 temporary "cool" friends than me.

[insanelyCRAZY]

I feel like I've left everything back at my old school..ever since the first day of school I've been crying. I honestly don't know where to start...From when I left the house behind my old school? Me, BFF#1 and BFF#2 haven't become close anymore? Mom and me moving houses too much? Mom losing money? Dad moving out and breaking up with his gf? My breakup with my exbf? Moving schools? Forcing a goddamn smile just to get through the day? Not living with mom anymore? and now..I will barely see my current BF even less..?!
WTF.
Sure...I've made plenty of friends at my new school..."FRIENDS"...unfortunately, it's not enough..I miss those kids who are so much more important to me right now..I want to be back there with them.
I can't believe I was able to say all this.."Oh..I've moved before, it's no problem." Bullsh_t. It was only 'no problem' because I was a kid. Kids cry once and they move on.
Obviously, the bonds I've made back in [inserts city name] are very special...and I'm sad to leave it all behind and start fresh.
This is how I feel right now..and it's really sad. Yes, I'm impatient. When will I find my "place" in this new environment?
I miss mom, [inserts all my friends' names] etc. SOOO much. Now I know for sure I'm going to miss my current BF 100xs more than usual, heck! I already do..
This feels so sh_tty right now..
I'm so far from everybody I love so much..

[twinkle_l0ve]

I hate seeing him happy when I'm dying inside