[kRaZiExLaDiE]

i know its over .. and its been weeks since we broke it off.. but i still cant stop thinking about him. i want to move on.. but at the same time.. i want to be with him. he was so loving towards me .. and now hes just.. kind of cold. i cant get used to this. is this the "back to normal" he was talking about? if so... i dont want this. it hurts so much when i see him talking to other girls. it hurts when he doesnt share his secrets with me anymore. it hurts when i dont talk to him. it hurts to see him close his door on me. i use to be able to walk into his room so freely.. now.. *sigh* ㅠㅠ why is it so easy for him to move on so fast?? i love and miss him so much~

oh and i think my other ex deleted me on facebook.. wtheck.. does he know? is he pissed that i went out w/ another guy secretly after we broke up? why would he be pissed off about that? its been so long~

my love life... sucks. it went from perfect to disaster.


i wish 2009 will be better for everyone!!!

[Eternal Love]

my friends and i were talking about the good times we had in middle school today at lunch.
as soon as we got to the subject of picking a mascot we thought of you.
i remembered all those little things you did: throwing erasers and picking out the pepperoni in your pizza.
or the way you used to write and how you carried your drumsticks everywhere.
i think i'd give almost anything to see you again.
we all miss you.
i'll come visit you sometime as soon as your birthday comes around.
you will never be forgotton.
hope you rest in peace.

[kRaZiExLaDiE]

my friend told me something today about "him" ...
it hurts to even imagine him say "i didnt see a future between us" to my friend about him and me
what was all that talk about kids and marriage and calling me "wifey" ???? ..and all that stuff you were planning on doing later on in our relationship??? why did you even buy me that ring???
why are you always toying w/ my emotions??

[ephemeral.]

My mom went to me and cried, kept apologizing.
I just can't keep it in anymore.
Now, I keep imagining close ones dying.
It hurts.

[x_estherrrrrr_x]

being lonely.
not knowing where to go for comfort.
friends, church, family, god.. it all seems like temporary comfort.
idk anymore. i really dont.

[onefourthree<3]

i screwed this year up so bad.
i hate myself for letting it get so bad .

[damplyradiant]

he likes her.

always did, and always will..possibly.

why, why should i even go to dinner during the christmas break, when i'll be dying a little more inside?

[xyummyxnoodlesx]

my ex and I won't stop arguing.
he told me he hates me and that he doesn't care if i die or kill myself
that he wish to never see me again
that he'll throw away everything (friendship etc)
to be with that new girl.. which he met while dating me..

[L_O_V_E]

you ignored me when you saw me
you ignored my text
oh, i get it..

[kRaZiExLaDiE]

urgh .. you are so wish washy! i hate it!~
one minute youre nice to me .. the next .. youre mean.
ever since we broke it off .. youve been getting meaner. but at times ... youre super duper nice to me as if we were still dating.
i dont get you at all~ i feel like i dont even know you anymore .. i hate it~

[plumangel3]

really long day at school, I hardly got any sleep, and a somewhat bad day at work. I messed up.
There's so much work and pressure, I dont know how im keeping myself sane right now...

[sPark*]

kinda started liking this guy
but i have no idea if he liks me anymore
wtf.
he was the one who coerced me to friggin' confess
even if i only slightly did
im so pissed.
UGH!

[k1nkychinky]

i can't forget him. still the very first thing in morning, and the last think i think about at night.

[Dreamss]

almost end of 2008 and nothing happened. sighhsigh same thing every year.
i wish icould have a love lifee ):

[thymeless]

i dont know if he's leading me on/joking with me/being nice or actually means it. and i feel so stupid.

[blissfultranquility]

i havent seen him in a while...
and the more i dont see him, the more i think about him and the things that made me smile....

and then i just remember there's just no way he could possibly like me one bit... no matter how much id want it to be so. TT___TT

[joie.de.vivre]

frustrated and sad ...i have a feeling he is mad at me...but i have no inkling why :[...i must have offended him, but how and when ?????

[Allison]

I'm pushing people away & hoping they won't come back :/

[~Tropical.Mists]

</3 He hasn't attempted to talk to me for 2 days now... after I kinda pinkberryed at him cuz I was having a bad day T__T
- Finals coming up... I don't feel the motivation to study though
- My best friend is uber moody and I don't know why...
- Christmas is coming... I feel as though it's not going to be the best either.

--xoxo.
TM

[damplyradiant]

i'm trying to make this the best holiday season ever.

but everyone's just so caught up with life in the freeway.