[yamaki_LOVE]

that we can never be anythang more but jus friends friends argg why does she have to come in between us??

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I miss my friends !! I'm nothing w/o them

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I've been missing skoo for a week& two days cause I'm so depressed

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I hate my life! arggggg

[aurican]

I just get the feeling that I'm never going to be good enough for her as a friend. Just that she has so much things that I can't relate to. There's many other things but that's probably the main reason.

[barbie.]

Yesterday when he said "Just f*ck off" in a tone that proved he really meant it ...

[stryder]

Yesterday, when she said she didn't want to mislead me...but it was already too late.

[WildSevenGirl]

I want to tell him<3 but I don't know how without scaring him<3.

Yesterday was the last day I'd be able to stay in the same room with him<e again.

I'll only be able to see him<3 in the halls and say hi now.

I suppose I should be grateful for that much.

[aseukko]

he asked if he can kiss me and i struggled with my words and in the end i turned him down
then after six hours when he had to leave, he hugged me and whispered "i like you"
now im not gonna see him for....6 months?

i feel so crazy and just want to go back in time. gosh my heart aches and i feel like crying.

[miika]

THE MEMORIES. If he'd known it would lead to this why did he create these memories?
I'd never thought I would regret anything, but dear God I regret the past 2 months. And I honestly hate myself so much for being this weak.
He ruined my life.
My perfect planned out life.
Getting this far only to be damaged in this way.
Letting someone in to this extent,
being so john teshing weak.

Deleted him on facebook and msn.
It's the only way.
I felt, all this time he was just leading me on.
If he never said he liked me, I would be fine right now.
If he didn't kiss me, I would be fine right now.
But instead, everything is more complicated cause he led me to become serious about him.
And then crashing cause he didn't care at all.
Cause I'm just a kid to him.
And kids are just for playing with.

I wish he could read this but he probably won't bother cuz he doesnt give a shhhh-t about me.

and i'm so tired of acting happy.
thats what everyone thinks of me as.
SO DAMN CHEERFUL ALL THE FREAKING TIME.
"Oh you're so happy, you're so confident, doesn't anything bother you?"

I can't believe how many people have said this to me in the past few months.

Unbelievably soompi is the only place i can be myself.
no one wants to be around a gloom
so i will smile for their sake.
I sacrifice myself to make others happy,
yet I'm too scared to reveal my own insecurities.
Before I meet anyone, I put a mask on.
Can't there be someone out there I can be myself around?!

And school.
No matter how hard I try, I fall short. My grades posted are so ugly.
I'm so tired. And drained.

[fulllm00n]

started high school this year
these new ppl stole our lunch table
changed my friends
stole my friends away
intruded us

my friends seem to have forgotten about all our memories
they forgot that we're all friends

[LeCiel.]

I wanna cry now...
i always have a bad day..

-my parents always fight..
-i think my friends wants to talk to other more than me......
-im jealous to people who have a great life... mine was not..
-i really want to do something but i cant really do it..
-people who says bad things to me... i want to talk to them.. i want to fight to them.. but i cant really do what i want! my heart was full of anger but im just standing there and not doing anything...im afraid... T_T but on my mind, i wanted to kill them but thats a sin...
-im crying but not letting people to know it.. finding a place to cry...
-i want to feel some love by the guy i really love..
-i want to have a bf but its not perfect for my age yet..
-im jealous if i saw couples walking on the street..
-i want to enjoy my life but its turning to different way..
-i want to stop crying and just smile always.. but i cant...
-i'm tired of pretending happy..
-i'm tired of doing a fake smile..

i dont know what to do in my life..
i have a lot of problems that cannot fix anymore..
i'm so weak..cant find someone to lean on..

what i've done wrong!!!!
i always pray but nothing is changing..
its still sad...
if i can only wish something in my life..
i'll wish that...
i hope.. life would be perfect...
full of happiness

[x_applechan]

I keep missing Grey's Anatomy! D: That makes my heart suffer ~

[IsNikkoThere]

I was on a date with the girl I like yesterday and one of our friends kept calling and texting her. He then asks her out over the phone. She said yes. I had the flowers ready in my car.

We had so much fun to. I shot for the stars. It came back down and hit me.

[pnaichi]

I was on a date with the girl I like yesterday and one of our friends kept calling and texting her. He then asks her out over the phone. She said yes. I had the flowers ready in my car.

We had so much fun to. I shot for the stars. It came back down and hit me.

omg...i'm so sorry. but yeno what, if she didn't pick you then it wasn't meant to be and she'll just forever have to live knowing that she lost a great chance. keep trying!! something is bound to happen. =]

[IsNikkoThere]

x3 All day I've felt frustration but I go on Soompi and try to help others who have worse and or situations just as bad . I know what you mean and I know sitting around and moping wont get me anywhere but her and I are still friends but her new boyfriend has some serious jealousy issues. As their friend its my job to support them, even if it means talking to her less to avoid getting him jealous.

But as an individual its my job to let my voice be known. That'll happen in time

[GOOMBA]

Apparently I`m not getting the kind of respect I THINK I deserve ..

[kRaZiExLaDiE]

he`s still being a jerk to me! urgh!! T.T
when will it end??

[EHNerJI]

being unsure about whether i'm wasting my time or not..
really wanting to get over someone, but being unable to ._.;

[manlytoe]

knowing that i could be wrong about his feelings.

[bloOdayz]

how did things so change so fast? how did i become the clingy one when YOU used to annoy me to no ends? yet i've endured. i've tried. and i've done something i've regret and cannot change. but i've tried. your way of coping with it? simply ignoring me. when you ignored my call tonight and called me back, not with a "hey did you call?" but a groucy "why did you call me?!".. ouch man.

it's just really funny. cuz you have NO IDEA how i feel about you. you think i'm still in love with you. you're kinda wrong.. i think every day, i'm growing farther and farther away from you, and everywhere i go, i feel myself opening up to others. other GUYS.

idk why i'm still with you. and when others ask me why i'm dating you, honestly, i don't know what to tell them. so truthfully, i tell them "i don't know". you're a bad apple. everyone can see that. you made me rot from the inside. don't you try to blame it on me, it's all your ideas and your intentions, you self-centered, selfish bastard. you've never treated me right, even from the start. everything's always been about you you you. is this how i should be treated?

you once told me that when we get married, you'll treat me like a princess cuz of my lame childhood. but how can you treat me like a princess years later when you treat me like dirt now? how can i trust anything you say anymore? you've broken every one of your promises you've made to me.

you're not ending this. you're not gonna hurt my heart anymore. i'm blocking every email, text, im, calls. i'm not visiting you anymore.

the war's on.

one more night you make me spend crying, i'm ending all ties with you, scumbag.

[euricexlovesxrice]

having to like someone for 3 years.... and not even talking anymore....and having to endure seeing him everyday... and not talking.. I don't even know if our relationship is just friends...or acquaintances...yet he's there.. he knows i'm there.. and i know he's there... i look at him... he looks back.. then i look away.. he knows how i feel.. for 3 years... yet not done anything... i know we're not that close.. but that's what make everything hurt more... because i want to be close to him...so much.

[I.like.foood]

He won't even talk to me anymore. I don't blame him, I've stood him up more than once. :/