[1TYMRMYVZT]

I look in the mirror and I don't like the person I see.

[avey]

I'm feeling so depressed lately T.T - don't know why but I think alot of people wil feel this way once in a while...I just feel like I'm trapped in this cage with nowhere to run to...lol...it's not funny DD:

Also...I just read Koizora...and saw a little of the drama too - but I don't wanna see the ending TT.TT ~ once is enough; What bothers me the most is that it's based on a true story(or that is what it says) - that's just wayyy too sad for me I hate sad love stories the most...especially those based on true stories---damn even thinking about it makes my eyes tear up...

^ and this makes me wonder again and again - why life is so unfair sometimes...DDD: I'm so pathetic (_ _ll" - this happens to me everytime I see something this sad - like when I saw Titanic, or read mucha kucha daisuki(it's stupid I know )it's just sooo unfair...arghh stop it

[x_applechan]

I want to tell him that our relationship doesn't have a spark anymore & we should start over from scratch.
everything we have built up in a whole year and a half.. means a lot, but we're not like that anymore.
+ we're terrible to eachother, your terrible to me, but maybe it's my fault too..
+ i don't believe in us anymore, so maybe if we start over we'll treat eachother better.

[AzizOnDeck]

Life is so stressful now a days... >.<

[lovemelody.]

sighsighsigh
we don't really talk anymore :[

[Simplii_Jen<3]

the fact that i'm really pathetic. how i can still sit here and say that i love him and miss him when he doesnt even look at me.
he's moving on, he's forgotten about me, about us. i'm left behind, reluctant to let go because i'm afraid. i don't want to forget, i'm still holding onto someone that is no longer mine because i fear he'll fade away. i don't want that. i want to feel that he exists and that he's still apart of my life, even if it hurts me in the end, even if he wants nothing to do with me. it's selfish but i can't help it.
i still care very deeply for him. but he refuses to let me in. i don't think i mean anything to him anymore.
i feel empty. there's a big void in my heart, it feels heavy. i hate that i can't get rid of this pain in my chest and the feeling i have in the pit of my stomach. i'm constantly being haunted by the memories of him. i hate it. i hate that i still love him.
it hurts me when reality comes to slap me in the face and make me realize that he doesn't need me, he doesn't want me, he doesn't love me. he doesn't want me in his life. it hurts.
i feel like i want to cry, but i dont. there are no tears, but i feel my heart dying. i dont want to cry because i want to become stronger, not for my sake but for those who care about me. its progressing. i try to put a smile on everyday but i end up overworking myself. it's hard but i still try.
i want to better myself. i want to change this bad habit of mine, being too emotional and all that. i cant change being sensitive but i can learn how to control my emotions. i want to do this yet i feel i don't have the strength to. i wanted to for my sake but most importantly for his. now that hes gone i see no purpose even though i'm still trying its just not enough.
i won't hold him back. i won't stand in his way. i want him to be happy whether it be with me or without me.
i dont want to lose him. but things cant always go the way you want it to.
i've lost my bestfriend. i feel so weak and lonely. i have friends to support me yes and i am thankful, but it isnt enough to fill the emptiness.
he was my family. my mom doesnt care or understand and is never around. i come home to an empty house. when i want to hear a voice or see someone to talk to, theres no one there. at least i had him but now i dont have that anymore. he's gone now.
it hurts to feel this way. if i died right now no one would know, its scary. that i have no one to even give me a simple hug. its scary to be alone, to think that if anything were to happen i would have no one until my mom finally comes home to find me gone.
after all this i still want to be with him. its pathetic. i wish him the most blissful happiness. i want to see him genuinely smile and laugh. i miss the sound of his laugh, i miss seeing him smile. but he will never smile or laugh for me again ... he'll never know how i feel, it doesnt matter anymore...

[JunMiYoung]

i felt like a huge mess today .
maybe it was from last night's depression ...

[misz.perfect.]

I don't think I've seen you smile so brightly in a long time.
If she makes you that happy, then I'm glad for you.
But I don't think I'm strong enough to sit back and wait for you anymore.
Time's up; I should learn to move forward in life with or without you.

[evz88]

i can hardly ever say what i am really thinking inside. it has gotten worse as time goes by.

[wicked_]

My boyfriend of three years broke up with me. I'm literally crying and my little heart is crying too.

[N510]

he doesn't need me in his life anymore ...

[CHOCmiint]

being pushed away and replaced.
being invisible, i don't even matter anymore

[rurutia]

i go to you only to be pushed down again...wish you knew how much your words hurt...

[MathnCat]

my father is seeing someone else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ugh!!!!!!

[angelicious]

you thought i was playing
you said you're over me already

i was never playing
i'll never get to tell you how much i want to be with you

[hygate]

When we parted our ways....i can't bear not talking to you...

[OoShiraoO]

-dad's laid of for a week =[
-just bought a new car *car bills
-who's gunna pay the bill? *parents forcing me and i make less than $200
-mom's getting ticked off everyday how messy the house is
-homework overload
-baby sister writing on walls with markers and crayons *i have to scrub
-friends bothering me at work *when i want to be alone but have their support as well

i can name so much more =[

[nagellack]

today was the last school day. i first started crying at school. especcially after he went home early.
after this we made a "little party" at our restaurant and everything was fine. until i started to realize that school is over now & i can't see him anymore. I started crying again. so much. I miss him. I'll miss him. i couldn't stop the tears. even after he said " we will see each other " because i know it won't happen...

[sweetiexpie098]

My friends that I really trust keep secrets from me and I don't understand why....
I tell them everything but why not the other way?
I felt like crap today T~T
Like at lunch, me and my other friend bought lunch and came to the table and were talking about how this guy liked a girl
And I'm like 'Who does he like??' and then she either tried to avoid it or changed the subject...
And I asked her more than once, but she just didn't answer.
I don't understand... It seems like everyone else knows but me, and keeping things behind my back...
I've been down because of that today

[lee-chan]

That mere thought that I'm here and his miles away, and walking a different path.