I received my first death threat via Twitter because of Kim Hyun Joong.
In one of the earlier “Noona Says” articles, I compared Kim Hyun Joong to Chris Brown, and, as you can imagine, it did not go well with many people. I expected it to be controversial, but I didn’t think I would ever come across a tweet that read “I’m going to kill you.”
I didn’t take it seriously, mainly because it was obvious to me that she was using extreme terms to express her dislike of the article that I had written. It was also one of the many angry responses I received for the article on multiple platforms. It was my first time reading such violently hateful comments directed to myself, and even though I was a little traumatized, I got over it.
I don’t think Kim Hyun Joong fans ever did. Whoever was left of that fandom, anyway. I think most people jumped ship when the evidence charging Kim Hyun Joong of beating his ex-girlfriend outweighed any other doubts. But there was still a number of fans who took to every platform to vehemently defend him and accuse the ex-girlfriend. That did not take well with most other people, and Kim Hyun Joong’s fandom became just as unpopular as him.
And as crazy as this may seem, I admit, I admired his fans a little bit.
Not a whole lot, mind you. I did not agree with what they were saying and I didn’t exactly love being told I was going to hell because of what I wrote about him. Yet, there was something so unwavering and unadulterated about their devotion. I don’t think I ever felt that passionate about anyone or anything.
So when I got over my initial shock from hearing the news that the ex-girlfriend, the one who turned him in for beating her multiple times, was pregnant with his baby, I wondered about his fans. My mind was blown, it was a plot twist I would have never predicted, and I wasn’t even a big fan of his even before all of this. They must have felt even more of a shock. How were they reacting? Would they continue to deny wrongdoing and raise him up as the victim?
If the comments in all these articles are any indication, then yes, there are still passionate Kim Hyun Joong fans who will distrust anyone who says something they don’t want to hear. This doesn’t surprise me. If you adamantly defended Kim Hyun Joong then, you’re not going to just stop because some time passed. I would actually have been a little disappointed if the fans quietly disappeared, abandoning him as they probably should at this point. Those defensive comments don’t bother me anymore. However, I do have one problem, and I shall address it as a question to his fans:
Kim Hyun Joong not only beat up but had unprotected sex with his ex-girlfriend…Why aren’t you ANGRY?
Am I the only one who thinks this is such a slap in the face, to his fans? He was revealed to be violent and manipulative, and the world was ready to drop him and judge him for his crimes, but it was purely by the buying power of his fans that he had a flicker of a career left. He was able to run away overseas and hold fan meetings because he still had fans, fans who, despite being mocked by everyone else, steadfastly stood by him and supported him. They fell to the very bottom of the unspoken social hierarchy in the K-Pop fandom, all because of him, all because they loved him.
And while they remained purely devoted, unwavering in their faith in him, he is texting his ex-girlfriend, sending her gifts, flirting, and ultimately sleeping with her (with the implication that it wasn’t just once).
Did it ever occur to him that it was his fans who saved him? Imagine if someone less popular had done the same thing, that career would have been obliterated.
Am I wrong to think that if he had any consideration for his fans (and his friends and family for goodness sakes), any gratitude for their sacrificial support, he should have kept his head down, stayed the hell away from that ex-girlfriend, and let everyone move on and forget? Even if he couldn’t stay away, didn’t he owe it to everyone, including himself and her, to at least put on a condom?
Here’s how I see it: Kim Hyun Joong is either so emotionally unstable that he is incapable of making rational decisions, or he is a manipulative and selfish narcissist who does whatever he wants without consideration of anyone else.
People make mistakes and do bad things, but what they do after is the true testament to their character.
If you are still a Kim Hyun Joong fan and you made it this far without sending me more death threats, then I will tell you that I just feel so sorry for you. It’s hard enough to be a fan, you’re essentially loving someone who doesn’t love you back, but at least there are artists who show and express genuine appreciation. There are celebrities out there who grumble about not being able to date or beg sasaeng fans to respect their privacy, but they are still very careful in their decisions. Everything they do, they keep their fans in mind, which is only fair because their fans always keep them in mind.
I want to be a fan of that kind of person.
If you are still a fan of Kim Hyun Joong, that’s fine, it is your life and your choice.
But I think you deserve better.
CallMeN00NA is an editor at Soompi who didn’t want to write about this but felt she had to. You can talk to her on Twitter.
*The opinions expressed in this editorial are solely those of the author.