Super Junior's Leeteuk Posts A Heartfelt Message For SHINee's Jonghyun

On December 25, Super Junior’s Leeteuk left a message on Instagram for SHINee’s Jonghyun.

Along with a photo of a Christmas cake, Leeteuk wrote, “I don’t think there’s anyone else who could say that they knew you better and shared everything with you. A person’s loneliness, anger, sadness… Whether it was because you had no way to express these things and made your final choice, or whether it’s something you wanted to tell the people left behind, I’ll have to really ponder over this for a while.

“My heart aches from feeling sorry that I couldn’t pull you up more when you reached out and asked for me to grab your hand. The weight was too heavy to say that it’s something celebrities must endure, and the image of you being caught in a tight situation only hurts my heart even more.

“The day before I sent you off, you came to me in my dream, and the image of you smiling brightly and telling me that I need to be the happier one is still vivid in my mind. Everyone has trials, pain, and suffering, but you can never measure it. The emotions that you feel in a time of hardship are the hardest and most difficult.

“I also experienced severe depression, a difficult time where I thought everyday that dying would be better than being alive and breathing. In the army, they most likely saw that image of me as someone who was merely pretending, and the gazes of those [who thought that] made it even more difficult. For almost a year, I endured through this difficult time. As someone who’s been through such a situation, I think it would’ve been better if there had been some solution that would have provided even a small way out…

“Since it’s Christmas, I feel the term ‘Christmas miracle’ in a deeper sense, and I feel that it’s important that we live with more happiness from now on. I hope that everyone spends each day as if it were special, like Christmas.”

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