B.A.P’s Himchan Opens Up About His Feelings And Hopes For The Future In First Post In Almost 2 Years
B.A.P’s Himchan shared how much he misses his fans, his hopes for a better future, and more.
On July 16, he posted the following message on Instagram with a photo of the night sky:
I miss you so much. It’s already been over two years and I think I’ve only come to miss you more during that time. All I can say is ‘Thank you’ to everyone who’s waited for me up until now, so it’s even more painful. Due to the heartache and the words that were so different from the truth, and due to the hardship that made me feel I couldn’t keep breathing like this, there was even a time when I had bad intentions. But thanks to B.A.P that was my everything.. and all of my fans who believed in me, I didn’t give up. Regardless of what is true and regardless of the reason, I’ve always felt sorry for worrying you and hurting you, and I apologize. I want to see you all again with a bright smile. My fans are like a big universe to me. Every hour of every day, I’m dreaming of being together with fans and thinking about it. I want to communicate with fans again, and I want to make it up to you with my hard work and sincerity. Our hopes and journey won’t end. We will meet again soon, and we’ll make a new start together. I spend the day hoping for the day when we’ll meet again. I want to see you again.
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너무 보고 싶습니다. 벌써 2년여의 시간이 흘렀고 그 사이 그리움은 더 커져만 갔습니다. 저를 지금까지 기다려 준 모든 분들께는 감사하다는 말씀밖에 드릴 수 없어 더더욱 고통스러운 마음뿐입니다. 진실과 너무 다른 이야기들과 심적 고통으로, 이대로 숨을 쉴 수도 없을 만큼의 힘듦으로 나쁜 마음을 먹은 적도 있었습니다. 하지만 저의 모든 것이었던 B.A.P..그리고 저를 믿어준 팬 여러분들 덕분에 포기하지 않았습니다. 진실과 진심이 어떻든 이유여하를 막론하고 이렇게 심려 끼쳐드리고 상처를 드린 점 늘 송구스러웠고, 죄송합니다. 다시 환하게 웃으며 여러분들을 보고 싶습니다. 팬들은 제게 너무도 큰 우주와도 같습니다. 매일 매 시간마다 팬들과 함께하는 꿈을 꾸며 또 생각하고 생각합니다. 다시 팬들과 소통하고, 노력과 진심으로 보답하고 싶습니다. 우리의 소망과 여행은 끝나지 않을 것입니다. 우리는 곧 다시 만날 것이고, 함께 새로운 시작을 할 것입니다. 여러분을 다시 만나는 그 날을 소망하며 하루를 보냅니다. 꼭 다시 보고 싶습니다.
Himchan’s last post on Instagram was from September 5, 2018, shortly before he was accused of indecent act by compulsion for allegedly sexually harassing a woman. Himchan denied the accusation, and his trial is still ongoing. His next trial date is reportedly August 26.