Former AOA Member Youkyung Shares Clarification After Writing Ambiguous Post
AOA’s former member Youkyung has written to clarify the meaning behind her post on Friday.
On July 3, former AOA member Mina shared several posts on Instagram in which she said that Jimin had continuously bullied and tormented her during her years in the group. After posting an apology, Jimin has now left the group.
Following Mina’s initial posts, Youkyung took to her own Instagram to share a photo with writing on it that reads, “The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is give up on today.”
Youkyung wrote in the caption in Korean, “To be honest, everything looked exactly the same to me back then.” She continued in English, “I can’t forget the eyes of the bystanders.”
She then added lyrics from the song “Leave It All Behind” by Sleeping with Sirens, “I wanna kill the pain I feel inside. But I won’t quit for the people I love. So I’ll say I’m fine until the day I fucking see the light.” She added in Korean, “Like the lyrics to the song I listened to yesterday, I need to get through everything again.”
There was much speculation about the content of her message and its possible relation to Mina’s story. Youkyung has since edited the post to remove the first section before the lyrics, and she added a clarification that the photo isn’t herself, noting that even her parents had been confused.
On July 6, Youkyung posted again on Instagram with the following clarification about her post:
Hello. This is Youkyung.
I think the ambiguous post that I uploaded on my feed has caused some confusion, so I’m writing again.
I apologize for uploading a post that was too ambiguous. A memory that I’d been determined to bury and that I’d been forgetting little by little suddenly came back to me, and so in the heat of the moment I got angry.
So I think that I had the childish feeling of wanting to timidly express to you all that I had also had a hard time.
It seems that in the past, I was having such a hard time even just on my own that I wasn’t even able to look around at my surroundings. So I thought others were just looking at my struggling self. I couldn’t even have guessed that someone else was in the same situation. So I want to sincerely say that I’m sorry. And I want to share my support and say that you endured it well.
I’m okay now. Because I have voices who are always cheering me on. Up until now, I’ve lived life thinking that there was absolutely nothing that would protect me and that the only thing I had was my drums in my studio.
However, that wasn’t true. I’ve come to realize that there are so many precious people who love me. That’s all I need. It’s enough.
I would once again like to take this opportunity to apologize sincerely to everyone was hurt by my impulsive actions and post. I also want to show support by saying, “We’ve all done a good job at getting through a hard time, let’s get up the courage again and have strength.”
I ask you to please refrain from saying hurtful things that make myself and everyone unhappy. Also, I’m always sincerely thankful to everyone who supports me.
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안녕하세요. 유경이에요. 제가 모호하게 올린 지난 피드 내용 때문에 혼란을 불러일으킨 것 같아 다시 한번 글을 써요. 지난번 피드 내용을 너무 모호하게 올린 점 죄송해요. 살아오면서 묻어버리자고 다짐하고 다짐했던, 또 점점 잊어가던 기억이 되살아났고 그래서 순간적으로 화가 났어요. 그래서 처음이자 마지막으로 소심하게나마 여러분께 저도 힘들었다고 표현하고 싶었던 어린아이 같은 마음이었던 것 같아요. 과거의 저는 저 혼자만으로도 너무 힘들어서 주변을 둘러볼 여유가 없었던 것 같아요. 그래서 힘든 저를 그냥 보고만 있다고 생각했어요. 지금까지도 다른 누군가가 저와 같은 상황에 처해있었을 거라고 짐작도 못 했던 것 같아요. 그래서 진심으로 미안하다고 싶어요. 그리고 잘 버텨내주었다고 말하고, 응원하고 싶어요. 지금의 저는 괜찮아요. 지금 저에겐 저를 끊임없이 응원해 주는 목소리들이 있잖아요. 지금까지 저는 저를 보호해 줄 무언가는 단 하나도 없고, 단지 작업실에 놓인 드럼 한 대만이 내가 가진 전부라고 생각하며 살아왔어요. 그렇지만 그게 아니었어요. 저에겐 저를 사랑해 주는 소중한 사람이 너무나 많다는 걸 알게 되었어요. 그거면 됐어요. 충분해요. 다시 한번 제 짧고 충동적인 행동과 글로 인해 상처받은 분들에게 이 자리를 빌려 진심으로 사과의 말씀을 전하고 싶어요. 그리고 우리 모두, 힘든 시간 잘 벼터왔다고, 다시 한번 용기 내고 힘내자고 응원하고 싶어요. 저와 모두를 불행하게 만드는 아픈 말들은 자제 부탁드립니다. 그리고 저를 응원해 주시는 모든 분들께도 항상 진심으로 감사드려요. 2020.07.06 유경
Youkyung debuted as a member of AOA in 2012 and promoted “Moya” in 2013 as a member of their band subunit AOA Black. She left FNC Entertainment in 2016.